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Hello out there!!
I've been feeling A LOT better the last few days!
I bought an awesome new hoop
(for some reason it won't let me embed the video, so here's a link)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZYmeAAMg7Q
and some dope new boots!
Only 3 weeks until EFF!
Vayda and I had a BLAST at the SG party!
Only one thing could make this better....
...some more love on my new set"Say Yes"!
Shot by the amazing waikiki
Check out my FB page!
Instagram @gunnersuicide
I've been feeling A LOT better the last few days!
I bought an awesome new hoop
(for some reason it won't let me embed the video, so here's a link)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZYmeAAMg7Q
and some dope new boots!
Only 3 weeks until EFF!
Vayda and I had a BLAST at the SG party!
Only one thing could make this better....
...some more love on my new set"Say Yes"!
Shot by the amazing waikiki
Check out my FB page!
Instagram @gunnersuicide
I've been feeling really stressed out and trapped lately. I'm sick of working 45+ hrs a week to buy things I don't want or need. I'm sick of being advertised to all the time. I'm tired of spending hours on the way I look just to be 'professional'.
I don't want to live this life and I don't know how to get out. Even if I need to save some money for a while or something, I just want a more concrete goal to work towards.
I'm reading about working on organic farms in exchange for food/lodging. I've thought about living on a commune. I'm looking into caretaking (ie glorified house sitting)
I wish I had someone to do this with me, but I've been waiting for a partner in crime for quite some time and I think I just need to go on my own. The question is how do I start?
So SG community, I'm looking for suggestions, advice, anything you think may help figure out what I need to be doing.
I'm ready to start living life on my own terms!
Hopefully you can help!
Don't forget about my new set "Say Yes" in MR!
Shot by the amazing waikiki
Check out my FB page!
Instagram @gunnersuicide
I don't want to live this life and I don't know how to get out. Even if I need to save some money for a while or something, I just want a more concrete goal to work towards.
I'm reading about working on organic farms in exchange for food/lodging. I've thought about living on a commune. I'm looking into caretaking (ie glorified house sitting)
I wish I had someone to do this with me, but I've been waiting for a partner in crime for quite some time and I think I just need to go on my own. The question is how do I start?
So SG community, I'm looking for suggestions, advice, anything you think may help figure out what I need to be doing.
I'm ready to start living life on my own terms!
Hopefully you can help!
Don't forget about my new set "Say Yes" in MR!
Shot by the amazing waikiki
Check out my FB page!
Instagram @gunnersuicide
Hi everyone!!!
I've been a busy lady!!
I had a burlesque show last Saturday at a great new bar in Columbus, Bossy Grrl's Pin-Up Joint. We have a show there the second Saturday of every month, it's definitely one of my favorite venues to perform at!
I've been working on a concept for a new number to Daft Punk's song "Get Lucky". I'm excited to see it all come together.
I'm supposed to have a show this Friday at Circus in Columbus, I'm going to try to do 1 number (I usually do 3 at this show). I just don't know about hooping/undressing while I'm working on this
I go to Anna Banana at Evolved. My next appointment is Wednesday, and I'll have one more after that. I can't wait for this to be done!!
On a serious note, I've been kind of having a hard time lately. As many of you know, my mom was diagnosed with cancer last summer. It's been hard because I've been her emotional support system through everything, which I'm grateful to be able to do, but it's hard when I don't have anyone there for me. She's done with chemo and doing pretty well, it's all really taken a toll on me, I can't imagine how she feels. I wish I had someone in my life I felt close enough to confide in.
Last week I found out one of my friends has stage 1 leukemia and no health insurance. I'm really scared for him. Because they caught it so early, his treatment looks like it will be easier. It's hard seeing so many strong people get sick.
To add to my recent insecurities, another one of my friend's had her apartment broken into last week. She was asleep on the couch and THEY STOLE HER IPAD OFF OF HER STOMACH WHILE SHE WAS ASLEEP. She didn't even wake up!
Then over the weekend, I hung out with an ex that I hadn't seen in 6 months. We lived together for a year and a half when we broke up last October. With everything going on with my mom at the time, I never had the time or energy to process the breakup and all of these intense feelings came back. I'm not angry anymore, but I was really sad. I guess I'm not entirely sure how I feel.
I've still be trying the dating thing. I went out with someone I could really like on Saturday, but we'll see how it pans out. If nothing comes of this, I think I'm going to put dating on the back burner for awhile. I've been kind of sad and lonely lately, and I really want someone to go camping with and cuddle and other couple-y things. Someone I can just relax around. I'm not willing to comprise though, and I'm just not finding anyone who compliments my specific kind of weirdness!!
In more exciting news, I have a new set "Say Yes" coming out Friday May 24th at 3pm!!
Waikiki shot this at the Florida shootfest last fall.
I really love this set and I hope it does well!! I really want to be on the FP again!
I've been a busy lady!!
I had a burlesque show last Saturday at a great new bar in Columbus, Bossy Grrl's Pin-Up Joint. We have a show there the second Saturday of every month, it's definitely one of my favorite venues to perform at!
I've been working on a concept for a new number to Daft Punk's song "Get Lucky". I'm excited to see it all come together.
I'm supposed to have a show this Friday at Circus in Columbus, I'm going to try to do 1 number (I usually do 3 at this show). I just don't know about hooping/undressing while I'm working on this
I go to Anna Banana at Evolved. My next appointment is Wednesday, and I'll have one more after that. I can't wait for this to be done!!
On a serious note, I've been kind of having a hard time lately. As many of you know, my mom was diagnosed with cancer last summer. It's been hard because I've been her emotional support system through everything, which I'm grateful to be able to do, but it's hard when I don't have anyone there for me. She's done with chemo and doing pretty well, it's all really taken a toll on me, I can't imagine how she feels. I wish I had someone in my life I felt close enough to confide in.
Last week I found out one of my friends has stage 1 leukemia and no health insurance. I'm really scared for him. Because they caught it so early, his treatment looks like it will be easier. It's hard seeing so many strong people get sick.
To add to my recent insecurities, another one of my friend's had her apartment broken into last week. She was asleep on the couch and THEY STOLE HER IPAD OFF OF HER STOMACH WHILE SHE WAS ASLEEP. She didn't even wake up!
Then over the weekend, I hung out with an ex that I hadn't seen in 6 months. We lived together for a year and a half when we broke up last October. With everything going on with my mom at the time, I never had the time or energy to process the breakup and all of these intense feelings came back. I'm not angry anymore, but I was really sad. I guess I'm not entirely sure how I feel.
I've still be trying the dating thing. I went out with someone I could really like on Saturday, but we'll see how it pans out. If nothing comes of this, I think I'm going to put dating on the back burner for awhile. I've been kind of sad and lonely lately, and I really want someone to go camping with and cuddle and other couple-y things. Someone I can just relax around. I'm not willing to comprise though, and I'm just not finding anyone who compliments my specific kind of weirdness!!
In more exciting news, I have a new set "Say Yes" coming out Friday May 24th at 3pm!!
Waikiki shot this at the Florida shootfest last fall.
I really love this set and I hope it does well!! I really want to be on the FP again!
My last two sets are still hanging out in MR, show me some love if you like them!
Gateway shot by SoBelle
Like It Hot shot by DylanBorgman
Have a great day everyone!!! Don't forget to mark your calendars for my new set on Friday!!!
Hey everyone!!
I have a burlesque show this Saturday (5/11) at Bossy Girl's Pin Up Joint in Clintonville. It's an AWESOME pin-up themed bar located on N High St just north of Husdon and there's NO COVER (ignore the flyer, there really is no cover)!
I'll be doing two numbers, including my infamous banned number!
I've been super excited about burlesque lately!! My troupe, Sex Kitten Purr-lesque, just began working on two new group numbers and we have some awesome new members.
If you live in Columbus, I'd love if you came to my show!!
I'll update more soon!
I have a burlesque show this Saturday (5/11) at Bossy Girl's Pin Up Joint in Clintonville. It's an AWESOME pin-up themed bar located on N High St just north of Husdon and there's NO COVER (ignore the flyer, there really is no cover)!
I'll be doing two numbers, including my infamous banned number!
I've been super excited about burlesque lately!! My troupe, Sex Kitten Purr-lesque, just began working on two new group numbers and we have some awesome new members.
If you live in Columbus, I'd love if you came to my show!!
I'll update more soon!
I can't wait to see everyone at Hell City this weekend! Make sure to stop by the SG booth and say hi!
Not able to make it?
Follow all of my shenanigans on instagram @gunnersuicide
I love you guys <3
Not able to make it?
Follow all of my shenanigans on instagram @gunnersuicide
I love you guys <3
FUCK DATING!!!
Last night I went out on a date. I should've known better! He was charming (red flag) and hot (dangerous combo).
So we went out last night, had a great time and even though I promised myself I wouldn't, we ended up hooking up. He was great in bed (the assholes always are!)
So this morning we're texting and I think he really likes me, so I go to add him on fb and when I eventually find him, HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND.
The convo went like this:
Me: So I found you on fb, glad you're cheating on your gf with me.
Asshole:It sounds way worse than it is. I am not happy with her. I just don't know how to end it.
Me: Sorry dude. I don't care what excuse you have
God I fucking knew you were a player.
Asshole:
I understand you're mad and upset but I want you to know it will be over be the end of the month. If you never want to talk with me again, I understand. I just thought you are really awesome and amazing.
Me:sorry, anyone who will go on a dating site (side note: we met on okcupid) while they're in a monogamous relationship is a shitty person. I also don't tolerate liars.
Asshole: I hate this. You deserve better. She deserves better. I am just going to end it. I am so sorry sunshine.
Me: Don't play the victim dude, you did this to yourself and honestly I care more about you hurting your gf than I do about you lying to me. Like I barely know you, but being cheated on fucks up your future relationships. I'm sure your gf is a nice girl and deserves you being honest with her. And you tried to not use a condom with me, like WTF dude? Breaking up with someone is so less shitty than what you're doing. I know I'm not the only one either.
Like seriously? Can someone just restore my faith in humanity and be honest with their significant other? I don't care if you're dating, married, gay, straight, poly, monogamous, WHATEVER, JUST BE FUCKING HONEST WITH EACH OTHER.
/rant
****UPDATE*****
I just told her via facebook.. I haven't gotten a response yet, I just felt like if I was her, I would want to know.
Last night I went out on a date. I should've known better! He was charming (red flag) and hot (dangerous combo).
So we went out last night, had a great time and even though I promised myself I wouldn't, we ended up hooking up. He was great in bed (the assholes always are!)
So this morning we're texting and I think he really likes me, so I go to add him on fb and when I eventually find him, HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND.
The convo went like this:
Me: So I found you on fb, glad you're cheating on your gf with me.
Asshole:It sounds way worse than it is. I am not happy with her. I just don't know how to end it.
Me: Sorry dude. I don't care what excuse you have
God I fucking knew you were a player.
Asshole:
I understand you're mad and upset but I want you to know it will be over be the end of the month. If you never want to talk with me again, I understand. I just thought you are really awesome and amazing.Me:sorry, anyone who will go on a dating site (side note: we met on okcupid) while they're in a monogamous relationship is a shitty person. I also don't tolerate liars.
Asshole: I hate this. You deserve better. She deserves better. I am just going to end it. I am so sorry sunshine.
Me: Don't play the victim dude, you did this to yourself and honestly I care more about you hurting your gf than I do about you lying to me. Like I barely know you, but being cheated on fucks up your future relationships. I'm sure your gf is a nice girl and deserves you being honest with her. And you tried to not use a condom with me, like WTF dude? Breaking up with someone is so less shitty than what you're doing. I know I'm not the only one either.
Like seriously? Can someone just restore my faith in humanity and be honest with their significant other? I don't care if you're dating, married, gay, straight, poly, monogamous, WHATEVER, JUST BE FUCKING HONEST WITH EACH OTHER.
/rant
****UPDATE*****
I just told her via facebook.. I haven't gotten a response yet, I just felt like if I was her, I would want to know.
I'm currently being stood up by a guy I kind of like :/
I think this is a sign that I need to just focus on myself for awhile, but I'm still sad. It hurts my feelings when people lie to me, I hate it.
I think this is a sign that I need to just focus on myself for awhile, but I'm still sad. It hurts my feelings when people lie to me, I hate it.
Dating is so scary.
I went on a date last night for the first time in 2 years! People make me really nervous and I just want everyone to like me :/
It's weird being single after being with someone for so long., I'm realizing so many things about myself and about what I want. I pretend to be a hard ass sometimes, but I'm really a sensitive delicate flower. I just want to hang out and make friends\, grow my own food, and be in love.
Oh how my drunkeness just lets out all of my dark secrets.
I went on a date last night for the first time in 2 years! People make me really nervous and I just want everyone to like me :/
It's weird being single after being with someone for so long., I'm realizing so many things about myself and about what I want. I pretend to be a hard ass sometimes, but I'm really a sensitive delicate flower. I just want to hang out and make friends\, grow my own food, and be in love.
Oh how my drunkeness just lets out all of my dark secrets.
