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Hi everyone!!!
I've been a busy lady!!
I had a burlesque show last Saturday at a great new bar in Columbus, Bossy Grrl's Pin-Up Joint. We have a show there the second Saturday of every month, it's definitely one of my favorite venues to perform at!
I've been working on a concept for a new number to Daft Punk's song "Get Lucky". I'm excited to see it all come together.
I'm supposed to have a show this Friday at Circus in Columbus, I'm going to try to do 1 number (I usually do 3 at this show). I just don't know about hooping/undressing while I'm working on this
I go to Anna Banana at Evolved. My next appointment is Wednesday, and I'll have one more after that. I can't wait for this to be done!!
On a serious note, I've been kind of having a hard time lately. As many of you know, my mom was diagnosed with cancer last summer. It's been hard because I've been her emotional support system through everything, which I'm grateful to be able to do, but it's hard when I don't have anyone there for me. She's done with chemo and doing pretty well, it's all really taken a toll on me, I can't imagine how she feels. I wish I had someone in my life I felt close enough to confide in.
Last week I found out one of my friends has stage 1 leukemia and no health insurance. I'm really scared for him. Because they caught it so early, his treatment looks like it will be easier. It's hard seeing so many strong people get sick.
To add to my recent insecurities, another one of my friend's had her apartment broken into last week. She was asleep on the couch and THEY STOLE HER IPAD OFF OF HER STOMACH WHILE SHE WAS ASLEEP. She didn't even wake up!
Then over the weekend, I hung out with an ex that I hadn't seen in 6 months. We lived together for a year and a half when we broke up last October. With everything going on with my mom at the time, I never had the time or energy to process the breakup and all of these intense feelings came back. I'm not angry anymore, but I was really sad. I guess I'm not entirely sure how I feel.
I've still be trying the dating thing. I went out with someone I could really like on Saturday, but we'll see how it pans out. If nothing comes of this, I think I'm going to put dating on the back burner for awhile. I've been kind of sad and lonely lately, and I really want someone to go camping with and cuddle and other couple-y things. Someone I can just relax around. I'm not willing to comprise though, and I'm just not finding anyone who compliments my specific kind of weirdness!!
In more exciting news, I have a new set "Say Yes" coming out Friday May 24th at 3pm!!
Waikiki shot this at the Florida shootfest last fall.
I really love this set and I hope it does well!! I really want to be on the FP again!
I've been a busy lady!!
I had a burlesque show last Saturday at a great new bar in Columbus, Bossy Grrl's Pin-Up Joint. We have a show there the second Saturday of every month, it's definitely one of my favorite venues to perform at!
I've been working on a concept for a new number to Daft Punk's song "Get Lucky". I'm excited to see it all come together.
I'm supposed to have a show this Friday at Circus in Columbus, I'm going to try to do 1 number (I usually do 3 at this show). I just don't know about hooping/undressing while I'm working on this
I go to Anna Banana at Evolved. My next appointment is Wednesday, and I'll have one more after that. I can't wait for this to be done!!
On a serious note, I've been kind of having a hard time lately. As many of you know, my mom was diagnosed with cancer last summer. It's been hard because I've been her emotional support system through everything, which I'm grateful to be able to do, but it's hard when I don't have anyone there for me. She's done with chemo and doing pretty well, it's all really taken a toll on me, I can't imagine how she feels. I wish I had someone in my life I felt close enough to confide in.
Last week I found out one of my friends has stage 1 leukemia and no health insurance. I'm really scared for him. Because they caught it so early, his treatment looks like it will be easier. It's hard seeing so many strong people get sick.
To add to my recent insecurities, another one of my friend's had her apartment broken into last week. She was asleep on the couch and THEY STOLE HER IPAD OFF OF HER STOMACH WHILE SHE WAS ASLEEP. She didn't even wake up!
Then over the weekend, I hung out with an ex that I hadn't seen in 6 months. We lived together for a year and a half when we broke up last October. With everything going on with my mom at the time, I never had the time or energy to process the breakup and all of these intense feelings came back. I'm not angry anymore, but I was really sad. I guess I'm not entirely sure how I feel.
I've still be trying the dating thing. I went out with someone I could really like on Saturday, but we'll see how it pans out. If nothing comes of this, I think I'm going to put dating on the back burner for awhile. I've been kind of sad and lonely lately, and I really want someone to go camping with and cuddle and other couple-y things. Someone I can just relax around. I'm not willing to comprise though, and I'm just not finding anyone who compliments my specific kind of weirdness!!
In more exciting news, I have a new set "Say Yes" coming out Friday May 24th at 3pm!!
Waikiki shot this at the Florida shootfest last fall.
I really love this set and I hope it does well!! I really want to be on the FP again!
My last two sets are still hanging out in MR, show me some love if you like them!
Gateway shot by SoBelle
Like It Hot shot by DylanBorgman
Have a great day everyone!!! Don't forget to mark your calendars for my new set on Friday!!!
Hey everyone!!
I have a burlesque show this Saturday (5/11) at Bossy Girl's Pin Up Joint in Clintonville. It's an AWESOME pin-up themed bar located on N High St just north of Husdon and there's NO COVER (ignore the flyer, there really is no cover)!
I'll be doing two numbers, including my infamous banned number!
I've been super excited about burlesque lately!! My troupe, Sex Kitten Purr-lesque, just began working on two new group numbers and we have some awesome new members.
If you live in Columbus, I'd love if you came to my show!!
I'll update more soon!
I have a burlesque show this Saturday (5/11) at Bossy Girl's Pin Up Joint in Clintonville. It's an AWESOME pin-up themed bar located on N High St just north of Husdon and there's NO COVER (ignore the flyer, there really is no cover)!
I'll be doing two numbers, including my infamous banned number!
I've been super excited about burlesque lately!! My troupe, Sex Kitten Purr-lesque, just began working on two new group numbers and we have some awesome new members.
If you live in Columbus, I'd love if you came to my show!!
I'll update more soon!
I can't wait to see everyone at Hell City this weekend! Make sure to stop by the SG booth and say hi!
Not able to make it?
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I love you guys <3
Not able to make it?
Follow all of my shenanigans on instagram @gunnersuicide
I love you guys <3
FUCK DATING!!!
Last night I went out on a date. I should've known better! He was charming (red flag) and hot (dangerous combo).
So we went out last night, had a great time and even though I promised myself I wouldn't, we ended up hooking up. He was great in bed (the assholes always are!)
So this morning we're texting and I think he really likes me, so I go to add him on fb and when I eventually find him, HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND.
The convo went like this:
Me: So I found you on fb, glad you're cheating on your gf with me.
Asshole:It sounds way worse than it is. I am not happy with her. I just don't know how to end it.
Me: Sorry dude. I don't care what excuse you have
God I fucking knew you were a player.
Asshole:
I understand you're mad and upset but I want you to know it will be over be the end of the month. If you never want to talk with me again, I understand. I just thought you are really awesome and amazing.
Me:sorry, anyone who will go on a dating site (side note: we met on okcupid) while they're in a monogamous relationship is a shitty person. I also don't tolerate liars.
Asshole: I hate this. You deserve better. She deserves better. I am just going to end it. I am so sorry sunshine.
Me: Don't play the victim dude, you did this to yourself and honestly I care more about you hurting your gf than I do about you lying to me. Like I barely know you, but being cheated on fucks up your future relationships. I'm sure your gf is a nice girl and deserves you being honest with her. And you tried to not use a condom with me, like WTF dude? Breaking up with someone is so less shitty than what you're doing. I know I'm not the only one either.
Like seriously? Can someone just restore my faith in humanity and be honest with their significant other? I don't care if you're dating, married, gay, straight, poly, monogamous, WHATEVER, JUST BE FUCKING HONEST WITH EACH OTHER.
/rant
****UPDATE*****
I just told her via facebook.. I haven't gotten a response yet, I just felt like if I was her, I would want to know.
Last night I went out on a date. I should've known better! He was charming (red flag) and hot (dangerous combo).
So we went out last night, had a great time and even though I promised myself I wouldn't, we ended up hooking up. He was great in bed (the assholes always are!)
So this morning we're texting and I think he really likes me, so I go to add him on fb and when I eventually find him, HE HAS A GIRLFRIEND.
The convo went like this:
Me: So I found you on fb, glad you're cheating on your gf with me.
Asshole:It sounds way worse than it is. I am not happy with her. I just don't know how to end it.
Me: Sorry dude. I don't care what excuse you have
God I fucking knew you were a player.
Asshole:
I understand you're mad and upset but I want you to know it will be over be the end of the month. If you never want to talk with me again, I understand. I just thought you are really awesome and amazing.Me:sorry, anyone who will go on a dating site (side note: we met on okcupid) while they're in a monogamous relationship is a shitty person. I also don't tolerate liars.
Asshole: I hate this. You deserve better. She deserves better. I am just going to end it. I am so sorry sunshine.
Me: Don't play the victim dude, you did this to yourself and honestly I care more about you hurting your gf than I do about you lying to me. Like I barely know you, but being cheated on fucks up your future relationships. I'm sure your gf is a nice girl and deserves you being honest with her. And you tried to not use a condom with me, like WTF dude? Breaking up with someone is so less shitty than what you're doing. I know I'm not the only one either.
Like seriously? Can someone just restore my faith in humanity and be honest with their significant other? I don't care if you're dating, married, gay, straight, poly, monogamous, WHATEVER, JUST BE FUCKING HONEST WITH EACH OTHER.
/rant
****UPDATE*****
I just told her via facebook.. I haven't gotten a response yet, I just felt like if I was her, I would want to know.
I'm currently being stood up by a guy I kind of like :/
I think this is a sign that I need to just focus on myself for awhile, but I'm still sad. It hurts my feelings when people lie to me, I hate it.
I think this is a sign that I need to just focus on myself for awhile, but I'm still sad. It hurts my feelings when people lie to me, I hate it.
Dating is so scary.
I went on a date last night for the first time in 2 years! People make me really nervous and I just want everyone to like me :/
It's weird being single after being with someone for so long., I'm realizing so many things about myself and about what I want. I pretend to be a hard ass sometimes, but I'm really a sensitive delicate flower. I just want to hang out and make friends\, grow my own food, and be in love.
Oh how my drunkeness just lets out all of my dark secrets.
I went on a date last night for the first time in 2 years! People make me really nervous and I just want everyone to like me :/
It's weird being single after being with someone for so long., I'm realizing so many things about myself and about what I want. I pretend to be a hard ass sometimes, but I'm really a sensitive delicate flower. I just want to hang out and make friends\, grow my own food, and be in love.
Oh how my drunkeness just lets out all of my dark secrets.
Do you know about the Belo Monte Dam in Brazil?
I came across this picture today, it brought me to tears.
"The Chief of the Kayapo tribe heard the worst news of his entire life:
Mrs. Dilma, the president of Brazil, has given her approval for the construction of an enormous hydroelectric central (the world’s third largest one).
This means the death sentence for ALL the tribes living at the shores of the river because the barrage will flood more or less 988,421 acres of the forest. More than 40 000 natives will have to find other living surroundings where they will be able to survive. The destruction of the natural habitat, the deforestation and the disappearance of several species of plants and animals will be a fait accompli."
This dam is being constructed without regard to the people who live here and the environment. It faces opposition from around the world, but construction continues anyway. If you'd like to find out more, donate money, or sign a petition click here
We can't just sit here in our warm houses, driving our SUVs pretending that the rest of the world lives this way. People have too little because we're taking too much. Go out and do something about it!
I came across this picture today, it brought me to tears.
"The Chief of the Kayapo tribe heard the worst news of his entire life:
Mrs. Dilma, the president of Brazil, has given her approval for the construction of an enormous hydroelectric central (the world’s third largest one).
This means the death sentence for ALL the tribes living at the shores of the river because the barrage will flood more or less 988,421 acres of the forest. More than 40 000 natives will have to find other living surroundings where they will be able to survive. The destruction of the natural habitat, the deforestation and the disappearance of several species of plants and animals will be a fait accompli."
This dam is being constructed without regard to the people who live here and the environment. It faces opposition from around the world, but construction continues anyway. If you'd like to find out more, donate money, or sign a petition click here
We can't just sit here in our warm houses, driving our SUVs pretending that the rest of the world lives this way. People have too little because we're taking too much. Go out and do something about it!
What an exciting time in my life!!!!
March 20 marked the beginning of my astrological year! Because I'm an aries, (birthday April 2), the sun moved into my sign this past Wednesday! The next few weeks I will feel more confident, creative, and able to get more accomplished than any other time of the year! This year, I will become more impulsive than usual, which is how I thrive! Starting today, Venus is now in my sign, meaning I am more confident and courageous in love (about damn time!) and people will begin to see and appreciate my attractive qualities. Watch out mother fuckers!!!
To celebrate the new astrological year, I balanced an egg on the equinox (or as I like to call it, the egguinox)! Have you ever done this? Every year on March 20 and September 20, you can balance eggs because of where the earth is on it's axis! I tried it this year with Gallows and it was awesome!
Something else you may not know about me?
I've been on a personal quest to find my spirit animal, an animal that has shown it's presence throughout my life that I can use as a guide to personal growth and decision making. I'm excited to say, I've finally found it!!!
The rabbit has been present throughout my life. As a small child, I begged my mom to read me easter stories all year round (so long as the main character was a rabbit). Later I became obsessed with 'Watership Down', watching the film everyday throughout my childhood and moving on to the book years later.
*side note- I highly recommend the book and the movie, above is an excerpt describing the creation of rabbit-kind. Be aware, I wouldn't actually recommend it for children, it's really dark
My first tattoo was actually from 'Watership Down', I have the black rabbit of inle tattooed behind my ear!
In Native American culture, they refer to the rabbit as 'the fear-caller', believing that through his fear, he invites so many animals to eat him. This really rings true in my life. I constantly worry and fret, through my fear I bring undesirable people and situations into my life.
Rabbits are also quick, clever, and ambitious, but rarely finish what they start. Rabbits are lucky and tend to transcend difficulties with intelligence but little hard work. Rabbits are offbeat and mysterious, with a strong sense of beauty. Rabbits are also highly sexual! Although they are fickle, with the right person the will eventually commit.
I've been working on an awesome tattoo by Anna Banana at Evolved in Columbus! I have another session in a few hours and I'm stoked!!
I've also been performing with my burlesque troupe Sex Kitten Purrlesque and having a blast!
One of my friends joined my troupe as a drag king and I'm totally crushin'! Also, who knew I could do drag makeup?
Recently, sooaap made me this awesome fanart from our Lord of the Flies set!
It's still in Member Review and definitely worth checking out! Photography by sobelle
I still have 2 sets in member review! Please send some more love my way, I'm so proud of these!
Chapel shot by SoBelle
Like It Hot shot by DylanBorgman
Also, only a few more weeks till
Who's going? I can't wait to see all of your beautiful faces at the SG booth again!
One more thing before I talk your ear off!
My love waikiki is editing a set she shot of me back in September! Awesome previews to come!!
I love you all unconditionally!
Go out and make today exceptional! Be kind to a stranger, and more importantly, be kind to yourself.
Follow me on instagram-gunnersuicide
Like me on Facebook
March 20 marked the beginning of my astrological year! Because I'm an aries, (birthday April 2), the sun moved into my sign this past Wednesday! The next few weeks I will feel more confident, creative, and able to get more accomplished than any other time of the year! This year, I will become more impulsive than usual, which is how I thrive! Starting today, Venus is now in my sign, meaning I am more confident and courageous in love (about damn time!) and people will begin to see and appreciate my attractive qualities. Watch out mother fuckers!!!
To celebrate the new astrological year, I balanced an egg on the equinox (or as I like to call it, the egguinox)! Have you ever done this? Every year on March 20 and September 20, you can balance eggs because of where the earth is on it's axis! I tried it this year with Gallows and it was awesome!
Something else you may not know about me?
I've been on a personal quest to find my spirit animal, an animal that has shown it's presence throughout my life that I can use as a guide to personal growth and decision making. I'm excited to say, I've finally found it!!!
The rabbit has been present throughout my life. As a small child, I begged my mom to read me easter stories all year round (so long as the main character was a rabbit). Later I became obsessed with 'Watership Down', watching the film everyday throughout my childhood and moving on to the book years later.
*side note- I highly recommend the book and the movie, above is an excerpt describing the creation of rabbit-kind. Be aware, I wouldn't actually recommend it for children, it's really dark
My first tattoo was actually from 'Watership Down', I have the black rabbit of inle tattooed behind my ear!
In Native American culture, they refer to the rabbit as 'the fear-caller', believing that through his fear, he invites so many animals to eat him. This really rings true in my life. I constantly worry and fret, through my fear I bring undesirable people and situations into my life.
Rabbits are also quick, clever, and ambitious, but rarely finish what they start. Rabbits are lucky and tend to transcend difficulties with intelligence but little hard work. Rabbits are offbeat and mysterious, with a strong sense of beauty. Rabbits are also highly sexual! Although they are fickle, with the right person the will eventually commit.
I've been working on an awesome tattoo by Anna Banana at Evolved in Columbus! I have another session in a few hours and I'm stoked!!
I've also been performing with my burlesque troupe Sex Kitten Purrlesque and having a blast!
One of my friends joined my troupe as a drag king and I'm totally crushin'! Also, who knew I could do drag makeup?
Recently, sooaap made me this awesome fanart from our Lord of the Flies set!
It's still in Member Review and definitely worth checking out! Photography by sobelle
I still have 2 sets in member review! Please send some more love my way, I'm so proud of these!
Chapel shot by SoBelle
Like It Hot shot by DylanBorgman
Also, only a few more weeks till
Who's going? I can't wait to see all of your beautiful faces at the SG booth again!
One more thing before I talk your ear off!
My love waikiki is editing a set she shot of me back in September! Awesome previews to come!!
I love you all unconditionally!
Go out and make today exceptional! Be kind to a stranger, and more importantly, be kind to yourself.
Follow me on instagram-gunnersuicide
Like me on Facebook
I really want to say how much I love everyone in this site! To my fans, friends, followers, photographers, every hopeful and sg, you all have shown me more kindness than I've ever experienced. Thank you so much for being such warm, generous human beings! I need more of you in my life.
XOXO
Gunner <3
XOXO
Gunner <3
