Wow thanks for the great response on my dreadie question I haven't decided when I'm gonna do it. it'd be nice if I could shoot a set with them before as Opaque suggested, but, I'm not sure if I can get a photographer in time. Heck, who knows maybe I'll shoot a self shot or something? We'll see.

As for me, my weekend was actually rad. I got to spend time with my love. We were gonna go see Daybreakers but, we were having such a great time, we decided to dtich that idea & hang out at The Winking Judge instead. Brendo is the best bartender & kept feeding us some of his amazing creations (drinks). I haven't felt that happy in awhile. I guess it was much needed. Another thing that absolutely made me night was the announcing of a certain someone going veg I was shocked, yet, so happy!
I also bought this a week ago & am in love with it. Its my new nebulizer, if you're wondering. Its a humidifier, air purifier & oil "burner" in one. It rocks.


I had also heard so much about Daiya 'cheese', so i just had to buy it. I trekked all the way to Karmavore just to get some. It is amazing to finally find a vegan cheese that is not made of soy & doens't have that disgusting usual vegan cheese after taste. I had nachos for the first time in years!! Yum!

As I write this I am looking up at my new calender. Its all owls. I luv them so much. I don't know if any of you know this but that is what my chest piece wings are.

Also a few of you have asked me what my kinks are so I figured I would just write them all here & also let you know that I am on fetlife (gltiched) although I don't go on very often at all.....copied from there..

Into: alt girls, anal sex, androgyny, androids, asphyxiaphilia (receiving), ass play, bisexuality (everything to do with it), biting, blindfolds, blood (everything to do with it), body modification, bondage, breast/nipple torture, breath play (receiving), candle wax, choking (receiving), collars, corsets (wearing), crawling, curvy women, deep throating (giving), dolls, erotic photography (everything to do with it), face slapping, foot/feet, gags (wearing), geeks, genital piercings, girls, glasses, gynoids, hair pulling, kinbaku/shibari/rope bondage, latex (watching others wear), lingerie, masculine cutesy girls, masochism, masturbation, medical tools, natural breasts, nipples, oral fixation, oral sex, pain, pantyhose/stockings (everything to do with it), piercings (receiving), pin ups, porn (watching), robots (everything to do with it), role play (everything to do with it), scent, scratching, sensory deprivation, spanking, struggle play, tattoos (everything to do with it), technosexuality, toys, vibrators, whips (receiving).
Also, curious about: electrical play, encasement fetish, obedience training.

Anyways bye for now, I'll leave you with a few photos...








Costco is evil...I couldn't believe the size of this bag!!!!

Thanks to everyone who's been asking how my New Years went. Its been awhile since I posted, sorry
Family life has been really hectic for me. Its been hard but I'm trying my best to stay strong & not get to much anxiety. I really don't like to talk about that kinda stuff on here so I'll skip that for the time being.

I didn't go out for New Years because I had to work the next day, yeah, I know lamers. But, it was very entertaining going to work that morning. I past by a house with lights & loud music with people still partying into the early morning. Then when I got on the skytrain, it was packed & smelt of liquor & everyone had a glazed over look. I guess a part of me is glad that I rang in the New Year sober. I still would have liked to spend time with my friends and stuff. Oh well, there's next year.

Speaking of next year, I really hope this year is better. The last year was very tough at times & I want more joy & free time in this next one. I want to travel, get more tattoos, continue on in being more healthy & taking care of my body, get a new job, dance more, read more, spend more time with the people I heart, make time to explore my kinks & fetishes, Find a cute girl to make out with & do more things for the animals.

So, since I feel like I really need a change I've been thinking of chopping my dreads off. I've always missed having short hair (long hair drives me nuts) & I've already tried the dread removal kit which i had no patience for & was damn near impossible to get the little dreadies out since they are so damn tight & little. What do u think??

My days off for Xmas were relaxing, it was nice to reconnect with my self & my other half.
I baked (ani's raw vegan cheesecake, drool) & some oatmeal cookies from my Vegan Planet book
as well as shortbread, that finally turned out better, unlike last year!

Dinner was on the fly since I mostly had just planned around the sweets. But, I made a lentil walnut loaf with mashed squashtatoes..mmm....
I played our new Wii Fit,
Drank some soy-nog & Sailor Jerry's rum
watched some movies, including a great docu called Planet B Boy

& spent time with my gorgeous felines.
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My search for a job continues. It is quite bad timing esp. around this time of year, but, its kinda nice
already having a job when you look for one.

I've also been randomly doing a lot of research, as I do, on herbs & such. I am a total geek when it comes to shit like this.

I also found this interesting tidbit of raw vs. cooked foods for those who are interested.

Raw Vs. Cooked

Dr. Fuhrman's FAQ section is quite thorough. I came across him by listening to Colleen Patrick-Goudreau (from Compassionate Cooks) on the Vegetarian Food for Thought Podcast. This woman simple amazes & inspires me to become a more happy vegan.

Anyways that's all for now.

Ciao

For the last few years I have not participated in the craziness that is Xmas. At first I started with just Stockings that my partner & I did. Yet, at that time I still had a feeling of guilt, built into me by growing up in a society of consumption.Yet, now the more I don't experience it, the better I feel, the less stressed, the more joyful. I know that I am doing something to help the planet. Why do we not question tradition. Just because we do things & have for a long time doesn't mean we should still.Why should we continue to buy when half of the gifts given won't be liked anyways & thrown away or discarded. I don't know maybe it wouldn't be so bad, if it was custom was for everyone to make their own gifts, therefore having more meaning & less impact on the world. Its funny when people say to me, but its not about all that. I spend time with the ones I love too but, shouldn't everyday be appreciative & grateful for them. Especially since this tradition has been warped & twisted into by pressurized Christianity, I am no longer down. I find comfort & happiness in the small things. Having a few days off in itself will be amazing. Making great food & hanging out with my kittens will make it all worth while.

My life in pictures. & for everyone wondering what I look like without makeup, it doesn't happen often, hehehe.

I just wanted to give a HUGE thank you to the members that bought me a few things off my wishlist Vegan Planet was bought on my b-day & I received it this on friday So cute & thoughtful !! Thanks I will definately have fun re-creating those recipes! It had your name on the amazon sheet but, I didn't want to mention it since its prob not your member name just in case. Also, I received a cute little lapis necklace from an anonymous member. Thanks so so much!! Really it always surprises me to get stuff I'm a happy monkey.

Since I've been kinda broke the last few days off & it's been pretty freezing here. I've been watching a lot of documentaries:

FOOD INC.
I'm sure you've all heard about this amazing docu. about the industry of food.

Lives of the Artists
A great docu. about the passion of art & life feat. the gallows

The World According to Monsanto
A docu. about the scary company that is Monsanto.

I just want to say that sometimes its so hard to realize that profit comes before people in our world. I try to keep a positive outlook & make informed choices in my daily life with the things I buy & what I eat. I try my best. But, it can be so frustrating to see all the unnecessary pain that is caused by large corporations just trying to make a buck. I mean how much more money do you need, when is it enough?


On a happier note, although my sleeve isn't finished (my artist is out of town) I want to get some more ink done. Hopefully this will happen soon I have so many ideas I just have to pick one.

As for work, I am still looking, I had an interview the other day, but unfortunately haven't heard anything back yet.

Lyxzen came to visit Vancouver & stayed at my house for a short visit this past week. It was so nice to be able to spend what little time we had Unfortunately, no pictures were taken, sorry.

Lately, I find myself amazed at the small percentage of stellar woman I can find on here. Overall, sometimes things can be a bit stale & boring (yes, to each their own), but, then a strong, independent, creative & like-minded woman comes a long & shows me we are not all the same & can inspire, not, just because of looks, but, because of spirit & brains too. I just want to say thank you to you for not being afraid to be who you truly are. Not fitting inside a box. Not trying to get attention for it, but, just doing it because that is who you are. It definately puts a smile on my face.

As the birds fly south, I keep watching them & thinking of their journey. The long & probably tiring but ever-so rewarding flight. I wish I could go with them.

I need a change. I am going to start looking for a new job. Too many wierd things are happening at mine & I think its time. Hopefully I find something ie. a company that I feel great about working for.

My 29th birthday was made great by the few people in my life that really care. I got wined & dined. My love gave me such a great surprise: A beautiful painting I had seen only days before at a Tinseltown gallery before going to see Boondock Saints II (which sucked) I was so inspired going to the gallery that it didn't really matter that the movie sucked cause I was happy to have seen this art. He remembered me saying "Even though it simple, there's just something about it" He said that that reminded him of me so he had to get it I was totally surprised! I was happy that he not only supported a local artist but also said that he really wanted to support me & help me be inspired to create again



My b-day included a few beer stops ending up at the Brickhouse a local watering-hole. Then a few days later the lady & I went to Radha Yoga & Eatery for a fancy vegan & raw cuisine. I was so stuffed on too many amazing things to mention. Ending off with a choco-ganache banana pie with pomagranate sauce..mm..









Until next time....

Prescription: Adavan, Intense curl toe, slapping, biting agressive sex, beer, low brow art, fine white powder on an east side bar table, waking up to a kitties on my face & feet, girl time, oral sex, morning greens, working close to home again, raw carob fudge cake, incense burning, creativity.

Thanks so much to all of you for the overwhelming love on my new set. I'm happy to see it hit front page!
I have been inundated with friend requests so i urge you to PM me & tell me a little about yourself since I keep putting it off & its getting ridiculous now at 3069! Eventually when I have more time I will go through these

The Timing of this set going up was a wierd pinnacle for me at this point in my life. I'm pretty sure I have been going through real symptoms of burnout, depression, not caring, extreme fatigue & achiness. People started noticing & said the glimmer wasn't there. Intervention time. Luckily I have people there that care. I guess I always want to change & grow but sometimes I take on too much responsibility. I had to take a step back for my health. I spoke up for myself, voiced my concerns & I am proud of that. I won't get into the details, but within the next few weeks & before the next year, hopefully things'll start looking up. Yesterday was a huge relief & I am feeling myself more & more.

Anyways sorry to be a bit of a bummer.

I have been so cold as of late. So, the reason I couldn't totally go raw with eating is because I luv hot homemade soups, teas. I am eating a red lentil & cayenne soup my boy made atm. Yum!

The other day I went to the Daiso (which is a japanese store where everything is $2) I had to travel to Richmond (a little asian city right outside of Vancouver)There was so much stuff & I was amused at how most items had cute little creatures with instructions. I bought stuff I needed like soup bowls, cute fishy dish scrubbies, himalayan bathsalts.

This weekend I am really thinking about going to this art gallery event that I heard about where you get to go to a whole bunch of galieries for free.

I guess I've just been trying to think of different things to do around Van so as to not take it for granted & keep my eyes refreshed. It gets tired going out & partying every weekend. I need to use my brain.Although don't get me wrong, partying definately has its moments I luv dancing & Jager too much not too.

I got a new book the other day entitled "Labrinths of the Mind: The self in the Postmodern Age" at the fleamarket. Looks like an interesting read.

Anyways not much else to say, hopefully my weekend is more exciting!








People have been asking about my dreadies, this is how they look right now. They are still growing with lots of time & patience, ah patience.

Have you come across this??

Warning: it is very explicit. But a MUST for everyone to see.

Earthlings.

My eating more raw vegan diet is going stellar. I feel more in touch with my food somehow with the blending, peeling, cutting & mixing by hand. My hands are getting soft from things like olive juice. The smell in the kitchen tends to be fresh, citrusy & spicy.
My cupboards are overflowing with spices, seeds & nuts now. I miss crispness & crunch calls out to me.
I'm still eating mostly fruits, grains in the morning, soups in the day & savory veg at nite. I made raw pad thai yesterday nite & tonite I made nori rolls, with olive bean-free hummus. It's definately a learning process in finding the right balance of what is gonna work for me. But, I am enjoying learning & putting energy into something creative & different. Paying attention even more to ingredients & where things come from & trying as best as I can to acquire local produce. I know I've been talking a lot about it, but, its too exciting not to.

If you're interested, well, rawvegan radio may be right up your alley.

A lot of people have asked about my dreadies, they're doing well. I know they will be a process to look their best. Sometimes i get lazy, hehe.

My boy bought me this shirt which I adore. I am in luv with vampires & vampire culture/myth & have been for quite some time. The new vampire story trend just urks the hell out of me however. Why would you ever want to take the good stuff (blood, violence & sex) out of these stories?? In my opinion, that is why I like the legends. Don't give me any of this lovey dovey PG bullshit, thank you.


I really really want new ink, but, have so many different ideas, I have to pin-point one & go with it.

I am looking forward to my three day weekend that I get because of the holiday this week. It is much needed.

Oh yeah my boy also got the night vision goggles that came with the Limited Edition version of Modern Warfare. I was walking around my apartment with them & my cats eyes were glowing & everyone looked like zombies! awesome! i can't wait to play with these outside in the summer, or imagine having sex with them on

I have been totally into listening to the Converge album lately. I've been a fan for awhile, but, this album really does it for me. Amazing guitar & vocals! Too bad they were playing at the Orpheum when they came. I'm just really not into going to a fancy place & sitting down watching a hardcore band. I want to be able to run/jump around. There are so many better venues in Vancouver I'm hoping that if they ever headline then maybe I'll have a better chance to see them.

Life at the porn shop is balancing out a bit. From having to deal with new location, staff & my time management its been a little hectic. But, hopefully slowly I will be getting more into the groove. The fun thing is I get to order toys! Obviously within reason to what the store actually carries, but, researching new toys & keeping things stocked keeps me entertained nonetheless.

I did have a free ticket to the Everything to do with Sex show but failed to make it. Usually I go for the shows/workshops or corsets & bdsm gear. But, I figured I needed to relax more. Plus there's always next year. Then maybe I can save up for the higher end toys like the We vibe or Lelo Nea. What type of vibes are you into? For me I like little vibes best, usually ones that are curved to fit a woman's body & have a g-spot curve & clit stimulator. Although velvet touch bullets are fun. Anal toys are my fave though. Nothing beats this sensation, well, I guess I could think of a few things. Anyways, I got this new toy awhile back but finally was ready to try it out, with amazing results. I luv the material, its an anti-bacterial siligel, that warms up. It's not too hard & has a little give. I'd reccommend it for people looking for something a little bigger then beginner.



Anyways I'm off to see the wizard. Take care till next time.

Friday I went to see the Pink Floyd Dark Side of the Moon laser show. I felt like I was a teenager again. But, it was pretty sweet. I ended up getting two full bags of free polish vodka & beer from a regular customer of mine, which was definately a shock, earlier that day at work, so i filled the flask & brought that with. I met my boy, who now works at Cafe Deux Soleil on the drive for a beer then we made our way down to the show, re-connecting with my dear old friend sweet Mary Jane Dark side is my fave album so it made me happy.
The crazy mandala's & tripped out lighting made my nite.

The next day, I woke up a little early, had my morning granola & mate & got ready for the day. We stopped off for a bite to eat at Eternal Abundance in the truffle Cafe on the drive to eat a nice meal of rawvioli made with zucchini & raw pumpkin pie (killer!) I was actually really surpised how full I was like 10min later considering there was barely anything on the plate. Then we decided to venture to the flea market close to China Town, stopping to get some natural funky nailpolish (dark greens, blue & burgundy)& soaps (lime & coconut) along the way, of course.
I made some good finds at the flea market, which doesnt always happen. But, I found a beautiful ammonite pendant. Ammonite is 250 million years old extinct marine animal fossils & are related to squid. I have been looking for a new stone & felt that this represented my new journey & interest in science & skepticism. I know I have always been a thinker but could never really fit into the box that is religion or new age thinking until i realzed i didnt have to, all I should do is question, think & discover what was right for me.

I also found a teeny crochet hook for my dreadies for only $2 & a new jacket for $10. This made me happy!
Quite a few hours later we ventured into Chinatown were I had my first Pho sandwich. She actually made it vegan for me

Today I also took the time to nourish my being.
I bought a food processor with the help of my significant other
So, now I am able to make more raw foods.
I got a great new book Ani's raw Food Kitchen, by Ani Phyo,
wow she is such an inspiration: raw & vegan!
I just finished making a cashew & banana mylk & a nut garden scramble..mmm....
I am so inspired.
I first learned about her while listening to the vegan radio podcast & she was being interviewed, I think she
was talking about her raw chocolate ganache cake....it basically had like 5 ingredients in it & was so easy
to make, plus amazingly healthy for you. Since I have been waking up at 5am every morning & being in a more stressful environment, with all the things I have to do daily, I started looking into it. i could have way more energy, have my food preparation time cut in half, be able to sleep less, yet still feel good & be healthy...why was I not eating more raw??

Last nite I started watching the 2nd part of Che, so I am off to watch the rest soon.

Hopefully soon enough I will be able to head off to Coquitlam (a suburb of Vancouver) & get my much needed supplies for making my blended oils, face creams & healing bath salts, I can't wait!!

I guess you could say I am being a bit of a recluse. I get that way when the weather gets colder. I am a hibernating animal. I like to be warm & cozy. The weather has definately gotten a lot colder, but, still not to bad during the day. I do luv this weather for being able to cuddle & be cozy in your big socks, knitted hats, scarves & mittens I do still luv luv my chai teas to keep warm!

I find the older I get the harder I find I fit in since I am not willing to back down on who I am. Hipsters are too
sceny, hardcore kids are too immature, vegans can be ultra preachy, competative & fundamental, Woman too catty or ultra grumpy.
I mean I know there are exceptions (my beautiful real life friends) don't get me wrong but, I try to stay true to who I am & try my best to do what I can. I try to stay positive & be nice to everyone that crosses my path. I know I make mistakes but, at least I am aware of them. So, many people are selfish & don't try to better themselves, I just don't get it sometimes?? People live in a system so lost & uncaring, it blows me away on how we got here as a human species? I am just glad to have a community like this, because I know then that there really
are people out there like me even if I don't see them on a day to day basis. To know they are out there is nice

Sorry for the crazy rant....guess I'm getting tired....hopefully pics will come soon. I just haven't been into taking any?