while i was ill, i spent a lot of time cuddling with Luna Bear on the sofa. (i'm on the mend, thank you for asking)

Sminks sent me a care package. She really is a wonderful lady that adds brightness to my life. Nothing but love for her.

Hard Girls, Soft Light arrived. It really is the most stunning book, quality wise the pages feel lovely in your hand.

This dress makes me look tall. I'm not.

no makeup/makeup.

I did stupidly good with Christmas presents this year, and spent some real quality time with my family and boyfriend. When people were asking how my Christmas went, I was telling them that it went perfectly


New Years was nice, but I fell asleep at about ten to midnight seeing as I'd been at work all day.

I've started reintroducing food again! It's so good to eat real proper food again after 16 weeks on food packs. This was my first meal, just a simple fresh prawn salad with lots of black pepper

I've now lost 60lbs there are some proper fatty pictures coming, and I can only look at them now because it proves just how far I've come

Far from perfect, and i have some excess skin, but the toning part is happening now.

see, gym clothes

so close to done

I've been feeling a bit rough for a week or so, and didn't think too much to it, I just thought my body was over reacting to me having actual food again after such a while, but then at work on Friday, I passed out. I went down like a ton of bricks apparently, and was unconscious and none responsive for five minutes. The paramedics came and put me in the back of the ambulance and ran a few tests, I had hypothermia and my heart rhythm was off, but I was awake again.
They tried warming me up with two blankets and a foil blanket -

which my mum thought was hilarious and took this picture and said I looked like a turkey, hence the weird look on my face, laughing while not being entirely sure what was going on.
We then went to the hospital with the blue lights on, and at the hospital I had a whole bunch of other tests done, and after spending SEVEN WHOLE HOURS there sitting in a wheelchair, I was told I've got Glandular Fever.
Not great, but not as horrific as I was expecting. I've got a rash on my legs and arms, achey joints, sore neck, flared up piercings, sore throat, swollen glands, mouth ulcers and bruises EVERYWHERE. And headaches. Otherwise, I feel great :p

(it says menthol on it because I'm allergic to eucalyptus and menthol, and they're in a lot of medical products)

I had two different ECG's done, one in the ambulance and one at hospital, so after removing the first lot of horrible monitors that stick HARD, they stuck another bunch on me what were even more evil. I had some on my legs and arms too, ouchies.
Anyway, now I'm stuck at home for at least a week because I'm contagious and can't stand up for prolonged periods of time or else I'll collapse again, which I'd prefer not to happen.

I'm going for my first consultation for my new boobs next week! super exciting stuff for me

it's been four weeks and i've lost 20lbs. lots more to go, but it's a good start i very much plan on getting new boobs because they are rapidly disappearing with losing the weight, and then i also very much plan on shooting a new set. Not til next year, but i will do it.