so here are few thing the i have learned in the past month and a half

1- be careful what you wish for
i recently got upgraded in my cake and coffee job from "peon" to "supervisor"
fussy says: hey job, can have some full time hours now?
job says: sure, how many hours did you want?
fussy says: as long as my hours add up to 35-40 a week, i should be ok
job says: great! HERE ARE 50 HOURS A WEEK YOU DUMB FUCK AND NO DAYS OFF IN A ROW SO YOU CAN GO CRAZY!!!
fussy explodes
i mean, i get days off, they're just kind of here and there, it makes planning my week difficult
on the upside, i can now actually afford to live in my cozy cave with my warm fuzzy man and eat and buy awesome t-shirts online
in a few weeks i will have unicorns humping emblazoned upon my chest, take that sense of decency!

2- i have a very very low tolerance for idiots
but then again who doesn't? with me being at my job all the time now and all the downtown tourist morons i have to deal with, ive been feeling very head stabby lately

3- never again agree to be in a bridal party
my best friend got married in the past two weeks, and i was lucky enough to be her maid of honor
it was great until at 11:00am on the day of her wedding, she decided that all major decisions from that point on were not her responsability and the wedding was at 7pm
so yay fun for me
fussy say: hey T, do you want blue flowers or white flowers in your bouquet?
T says: i dunno
fussy says: ok, well who's hair am i doing today?
T says: i dunno
fussy says: ok, well what did yo . . .
T says: your next question had better be what kind fruit do i want in my mimosa
hell i dont blame her though, im probably going to be even worse at my wedding
i love her to death, but ill never do that again for anyone ever

4- batchellorette parties are fun fun fun




i got to plan it, but i shouldn't take all the credit for the good time we had, i just gave us a time and a place to meet and the girls took it from there
we saw strippers
BOY strippers
SEXY FRENCH BOY strippers, who chatted us up all night
it was really funny too, because the strippers were dancing at a gay bar that night, so here we were a group of shreaking boozing ladies dressed in ties and fedoras screaming "get naked!!" surrounded by quiet middle aged gay guys just trying to enjoy the show
i think we actaully managed to scare a few dancers off the stage
as a side note, i would be nice if some could get a picture of me NOT making drunken eyes for once

and lastly . .

5- if at first you dont succeed . . .
you know the rest
i got to meet the very lovely oryx while she was in town
we hung out in her hotel room talking about her job hazards and the other sucidie girls she got to meet in the city
we shot a photoset while my friend ate room service eggs benedict, it was fun
but sadly the set was not accepted, so back to the drawing board for fussy
i swear i am going to try again soon though, i mean, it's been nearly 2 years since my first set!
but thats my fault for not trying i guess

so there you have it
ill leave you with a little known fact about me
when i get really sick, i like to cook, alot
i have a sinus cold today and so far ive made cornbread, broccoli soup, fruit salad and pasta
this is much more than my usual microwave everything cooking that i do
whats really funny is that because im so sick, my SO refuses to eat any of the food ive made
but ha, more for me then

so tonight i WAS going to go to see my faoriteest band of all time play live, but apperently THAT is not going to happen anymore
i am a very sad fussy
so for all those in O-town who were going to see NIN play tonight, i give you my crappy photoshop love affair with trent reznor, that has been going on since i was sixteen years old

woooo its been party month in the fussy cave
everybody's been coming over and eating food and dragging me OUTSIDE (OMG noooo!!!!)
here are some pictures from the last hike out into the real world
namely, a bar in ottawa called swizzles for some kareoke





im also waiting on pictures from new years eve which was crazy good two parties fun, until i drank too much anyways
the girl with me in the last photo is my friend T
shes the hotness, and i am her maid of honor in april
it seems no one can take a picture of me anymore until ive had three beers
actually, talking about all this drinking i have actually cut back alot
i used to get drunk almost every night for the past five months, but now im able to enjoy myself not drinking too.
now i only drink once or twice a week, and very rarely to the point of drunk
i also cut back to only 4-5 packs of cigarettes a week from my 7-8 that i was smoking before
now all need to do is realize the pizza and nachos do not have their own group in the food pyramid

to conclude, here are somethings you didnt know about me until i told you about them right now
-when someone i know is having a personal life disaster the only thing i know how to do is make them food so that they'll feel better
for example, a friend recently split up with his girlfriend, when he came over to the cave i made enough food for six people when there was only three of us eating
-the cave i keep refering too is the warm and cosy basment apartment that i live in with my warm and cosy Significant Other
-i drink a rediculus amount of tea during the day, and it has to TWINNING'S tea because everyother tea tastes like dirt to me. i have started carring tea bags with me in case i come across hot water and a mug during the day
-i really dont like coffee, which is funny because i work in a cake and coffee shop, and coffee is the only free drink you can have as an employee other than water. People ask me how the coffee is and i say i have no idea, but the tea here tastes like dirt(ok so not really or id lose my job)

what can i say? i dont do much anymore

in the past month i finally made it a metric concert,
missed another gwar concert
had many a sexy party with the lovely artificial (formerly seraa) and other indivduals, but im sure you know who they are if you saw the ,ahem, drunken (may i underline DRUNKEN) webcam show
i managed to play though silent hill 2, but i had to do it with the lights on
also, of course, lots of beer and wine and stange concoctions from said leftovers . what can i say, im a drinker.
id like to slow down a bit though, seeing what all this drinking has done to me and my shape
as for halloween, i went out as everytime you masturbate, god kills a kitten, complete with cat ears, domo kun cleanvage and ALOT of fake blood, hand mixed by yours truly. i was very pleased with outcome

i also had some very real looking bite marks that i did with make up, so real looking that my SO got many a congrats.

yeah, i went to the kareoke halloween, and no i have no idea who i am singing with other than she is the reaper
also for your enjoyment is last year's halloween costume, the killer fairy, just with out the gun, so i guess just fairy


yeah, i know ive put on a few and screw you for noticing (har har har)
but yeah, id love to see some of your costumes too, so feel free to post them in my comments, if you can do that (as i have said before im sure, i am NOT savy to anything but point and click)

and a final note before i smoke a cig, fake blood, ridiculously easy to make gets everywhere, makes you spooky AND delisious and is a great alternative to pancake syrup. i kept my left overs just for that

ohhh my, i think the one thing i love most about septmeber, other than annoying highschool childen going back to scool and staying the FUCK out of my way, is the one day a year i get to ride around in a stretch SUV and get obnoxiously drunk.
that's right! it was my best dude friend's anually big money birthday bonaza!
this year we drove around and convinced passers by that we were in a (not so) imaginary band
of course it was all made even better getting to ride around with the lovely seraa
alot videotape was made, and if i can ever convice the guy with the camera to actually send me some pictures, then ill have you all share in the fun too

i also managed to move out my parent's basement and into the basement apartent of my o so mysterious significant other. He's still getting used to all my girly stuff, but we're just so domestic together it can get sickening
he has also turned me on the wonders of tabasco sauce on pizza

oh dear

hi there, worlds biggest jerk updating for the first time in about . . . . yeesh 3 months??

i ve just been worknig my ass off for such time, at least my job woes are over
it turns out my cake slicing job noticed that i wasnt a moron
they gave me a ton more hours, so basically my life has been sleep until two in the afternoon and slice cake and make/drink coffees into the night
it been lots of fun though, everyone there is nuts like me
in other news, im officially moving out my parent's basement!
no more couch surfing for me, im getting my own couch
very very excited for that
also trying very hard to find a photographer in ottawa who
a)is not uncomfortable with the nakedidity
b)who actually has time to do things
c)is willing to take pictures out of the kindness of their own heart
d)who isn't creepy about it
e)knows what theyre doing
f)is what i like to call "drama free"
i do know of at least one wonderful photographer outside of
ottawa, and with a little help from a friend and email and all that i hope to get to meet her at some point

other than that ive spent the last three months singing kareoke and watching the SO play morowind, oh and lets not forget the beer

i just about fucking give up on everything
most frustrating resume drop off day to date
am i really that put-offish?

sadly i must keep trying, i dont even have enough money for a pack of smokes right now
fortunatly the spoiled rotten brat that i am, my mom(the most anti smoker of anti smokers) bought me some

i think i spent too long drinking the problem away and it seems everyone is all hired up for the summer

if it comes down to it theres always mcdonalds or the gap

the only good thing thing that has come of this is my first person shooter skills are getting really hard core, and i got to restart ffIIX
ooo, and i colored my hair black, looks bitchin'

sweet holy god
i HATE looking for work
you have to be so . . sociable, and that's just not me at all
but in my free time i've decded to learn how to cook
in so much as i have only mastered the frozen pizza, kraft dinner, and calling for take out
i try so hard to be domestic, but im just no good at that

no intresting rock shows for me to attend at them moment, which is good i suppose because i cant afford it anyways

in other news i may be doing a new photoset next month, which is very exciting

whoo

ok, so not very funny at all, more like an inside joke
but my first one in a long time

it's called "you told me you could fix anything . .."

whoa
just had a week off, its been super

i never realize how nocturnal i am until i don't go to a day job for a while. so far my days have started about 2 in the afternoon and ended about 4 in the morning

quitting smoking has not gone over well, i continue to succumb to the beast . . for now

sadly lack of day job means less money for things i enjoy; i.e. going to shows, pubbing (like "clubbing" only a lot less suck involved) stalking trent (looks like i may not be gonig to the nin show after all)

so the plan for the coming week is to both look into school and depending on how soon my program starts, finding a day job

i should start posting my little ms paint comics on here too, dear god all this free time staring me in the face