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Thanks for the openhearted comments and pm's on my last blog. I feel I understand my friend more and understand the nature of an addiction. It's going to be a long road for him and I hope I will be strong enough to help him through.
My only personal addiction is shopping and I have never considered that a problem seeing as I stay well within my budge and never use creditt! But at the end of the day as one member also said we are all filling in the holes in our lives with something. Weather it drugs, alcohol, work, shopping, mindless television, chocolate or sex....
...the latter's not so bad I guess
My only personal addiction is shopping and I have never considered that a problem seeing as I stay well within my budge and never use creditt! But at the end of the day as one member also said we are all filling in the holes in our lives with something. Weather it drugs, alcohol, work, shopping, mindless television, chocolate or sex....
...the latter's not so bad I guess
NOw for something completly different...............
Does anybody know anybody or did they infact themselves ever kick a serious coke habbit?
How did they manage it? A friend of mine is going through hell trying to quit. Help groups just aren't helping.
Does anybody know anybody or did they infact themselves ever kick a serious coke habbit?
How did they manage it? A friend of mine is going through hell trying to quit. Help groups just aren't helping.
Thanks for all the comments on my pictures 
Sorry didn't have the time to write back this time!
DJ
I DJ'd a great set last night, I think anyway. Funny, those 5 hours go so fast. The first 2 hours I'm sussing out who's there and which way to go. Trying to get people started. Then there's an hour or 2 of obligatory "crap" one has to play to keep the bar ticking over, don't wanna frighten anyone away kind of musac and then there's an hour or so to experiment and play some different stuff. As in underground music, heavier or older more obscure. And that huor is allways way to short. Suddenly its half past 3 and I'm thinking I still wanna play this and that and the other...shoot! Wish they were open till 05:00!
Nails!
I had my nails done friday afternoon. Being 30 now, thought I'd give it a go. A word of warning to all the ladies out there....DON"T ever do it. I feel so akward. Can't do buttons up, undo my lock on my bike, put make up on, can't sms fast anymore and I was the sms speed champ
Boo-fuckin-hoo and they're not even that long. I guess they do look neat and tidy, which was the aim for my new job but I'm happy if I'll be able to hold a pen on monday! Also, they never tell you this, but having them done hurts. They put this gel on which melts into your finger and kills. Here's a pic, they're kinda cute, with stars in the tips!
Video!
Thursdaynight we made a video clip for our band, black tongue tribe
the director had found this great derelict factory just outside amsterdam. There was a cool boilerroom with old pipes. SO the drummer was up behind there. The rest of the band were infront of the pipes.
It was a funny night, took hours, freezing our asses off. A coke sniffing director who was snapping at his little side-kick all the time. Think Blackadder and balldrick on speed.
At one point the pipes started leeking which was spooky with all the electrics but also strange seeing as the building was supposedly empty. The singer freaked out when the director brought on this goats head, lungs and heart. Rightly so, he hadn;t talked to us about this idea, it has nothing to do with the song, the singer is a strict vegetarian and none of us wanted to be seen as a band that promoted satanism, sacrifising animules etc. OUr singer Niels, freaked out though and almost walked off. Then to crown the evening security showed up, thankfully almost at the end so we could tell them we would be packing up soon and they believed us.
A wet cold windy sunday..... Damn all of you in sunny california
Sorry didn't have the time to write back this time! DJ
I DJ'd a great set last night, I think anyway. Funny, those 5 hours go so fast. The first 2 hours I'm sussing out who's there and which way to go. Trying to get people started. Then there's an hour or 2 of obligatory "crap" one has to play to keep the bar ticking over, don't wanna frighten anyone away kind of musac and then there's an hour or so to experiment and play some different stuff. As in underground music, heavier or older more obscure. And that huor is allways way to short. Suddenly its half past 3 and I'm thinking I still wanna play this and that and the other...shoot! Wish they were open till 05:00!
Nails!
I had my nails done friday afternoon. Being 30 now, thought I'd give it a go. A word of warning to all the ladies out there....DON"T ever do it. I feel so akward. Can't do buttons up, undo my lock on my bike, put make up on, can't sms fast anymore and I was the sms speed champ
Boo-fuckin-hoo and they're not even that long. I guess they do look neat and tidy, which was the aim for my new job but I'm happy if I'll be able to hold a pen on monday! Also, they never tell you this, but having them done hurts. They put this gel on which melts into your finger and kills. Here's a pic, they're kinda cute, with stars in the tips! Video!
Thursdaynight we made a video clip for our band, black tongue tribe
the director had found this great derelict factory just outside amsterdam. There was a cool boilerroom with old pipes. SO the drummer was up behind there. The rest of the band were infront of the pipes.
It was a funny night, took hours, freezing our asses off. A coke sniffing director who was snapping at his little side-kick all the time. Think Blackadder and balldrick on speed.
At one point the pipes started leeking which was spooky with all the electrics but also strange seeing as the building was supposedly empty. The singer freaked out when the director brought on this goats head, lungs and heart. Rightly so, he hadn;t talked to us about this idea, it has nothing to do with the song, the singer is a strict vegetarian and none of us wanted to be seen as a band that promoted satanism, sacrifising animules etc. OUr singer Niels, freaked out though and almost walked off. Then to crown the evening security showed up, thankfully almost at the end so we could tell them we would be packing up soon and they believed us.
A wet cold windy sunday..... Damn all of you in sunny california
Thanks for all the comments on my pictures Sorry didn't have the time to write back this time!
DJ
I DJ'd a great set last night, I think anyway. Funny, those 5 hours go so fast. The first 2 hours I'm sussing out who's there and which way to go. Trying to get people started. Then there's an hour or 2 of obligatory "crap" one has to play to keep the bar ticking over, don't wanna frighten anyone away kind of musac and then there's an hour or so to experiment and play some different stuff. As in underground music, heavier or older more obscure. And that huor is allways way to short. Suddenly its half past 3 and I'm thinking I still wanna play this and that and the other...shoot! Wish they were open till 05:00!
Nails
I had my nails done friday afternoon. Being 30 now, thought I'd give it a go. A word of warning to all the ladies out there....DON"T ever do it. I feel so akward. Can't do buttons up, undo my lock on my bike, put make up on, can't sms fast anymore and I was the sms speed champ Boo-fuckin-hoo. I guess they do look neat and tidy, which was the aim for my new job but I'm happy if I'll be able to hold a pen on monday! Also, they never tell you this, but having them done hurts. They put this gel on which melts into your finger and kills. Here's a pic, they're kinda cute, with stars in the tips!
Video!
Thursdaynight we made a video clip for our band, black tongue tribe
the director had found this great derelict factory just outside amsterdam. There was a cool boilerroom with old pipes. SO the drummer was up behind there. The rest of the band were infront of the pipes.
It was a funny night, took hours, freezing our asses off. A coke sniffing director who was snapping at his little side-kick all the time. Think Blackadder and balldrick on speed.
At one point the pipes started leeking which was spooky with all the electrics but also strange seeing as the building was supposedly empty. The singer freaked out when the director brought on this goats head, lungs and heart. Rightly so, he hadn;t talked to us about this idea, it has nothing to do with the song, the singer is a strict vegetarian and none of us wanted to be seen as a band that promoted satanism, sacrifising animules etc. OUr singer Niels, freaked out though and almost walked off. Then to crown the evening security showed up, thankfully almost at the end so we could tell them we would be packing up soon and they believed us.
A wet cold windy sunday..... Damn all of you in sunny california
Sorry didn't have the time to write back this time! DJ
I DJ'd a great set last night, I think anyway. Funny, those 5 hours go so fast. The first 2 hours I'm sussing out who's there and which way to go. Trying to get people started. Then there's an hour or 2 of obligatory "crap" one has to play to keep the bar ticking over, don't wanna frighten anyone away kind of musac and then there's an hour or so to experiment and play some different stuff. As in underground music, heavier or older more obscure. And that huor is allways way to short. Suddenly its half past 3 and I'm thinking I still wanna play this and that and the other...shoot! Wish they were open till 05:00!
Nails
I had my nails done friday afternoon. Being 30 now, thought I'd give it a go. A word of warning to all the ladies out there....DON"T ever do it. I feel so akward. Can't do buttons up, undo my lock on my bike, put make up on, can't sms fast anymore and I was the sms speed champ
Boo-fuckin-hoo. I guess they do look neat and tidy, which was the aim for my new job but I'm happy if I'll be able to hold a pen on monday! Also, they never tell you this, but having them done hurts. They put this gel on which melts into your finger and kills. Here's a pic, they're kinda cute, with stars in the tips! Video!
Thursdaynight we made a video clip for our band, black tongue tribe
the director had found this great derelict factory just outside amsterdam. There was a cool boilerroom with old pipes. SO the drummer was up behind there. The rest of the band were infront of the pipes.
It was a funny night, took hours, freezing our asses off. A coke sniffing director who was snapping at his little side-kick all the time. Think Blackadder and balldrick on speed.
At one point the pipes started leeking which was spooky with all the electrics but also strange seeing as the building was supposedly empty. The singer freaked out when the director brought on this goats head, lungs and heart. Rightly so, he hadn;t talked to us about this idea, it has nothing to do with the song, the singer is a strict vegetarian and none of us wanted to be seen as a band that promoted satanism, sacrifising animules etc. OUr singer Niels, freaked out though and almost walked off. Then to crown the evening security showed up, thankfully almost at the end so we could tell them we would be packing up soon and they believed us.
A wet cold windy sunday..... Damn all of you in sunny california
Did a short shoot today voor Webers, a clothes and shoeshop in Amsterdam. SO I got to wear nice clothes YAY!
Here are a few previews. Pre-photoshop. ANd they WILL need alot of shopping so don't mind the flaws...noones purrrfect you know
Copyright will belong to www.tonyamsterdam.com
Here are a few previews. Pre-photoshop. ANd they WILL need alot of shopping so don't mind the flaws...noones purrrfect you know
Copyright will belong to www.tonyamsterdam.com
So here I am on the eve of my last day as an occupational therapist in the old people's home. 3 years to the exact day I started, freaky!
I've orderd a cake, 3 feet long, I am serious, from the HEMA
From 10 untill 12, all my collegues are invited to come by. But also my old ladies ofcourse will be there. I am very sad to tell you one of my favorites, ms de Meris died yesterday. She was 96. I was with her for an hour on thursday, we laughed, talked and we were our usuall naughty selves. That was the last time I saw her. At least I have good memories I guess.
I am glad I am leaving this job though. It's hard building up a relationship with people all the time and then seeing them die. That obviously doesn't mean I'm not going to miss all the people there that I will be leaving tomorrow. But like my BF said, I can't stay there for them. They are at the end of their lives and I am just at the beginning of mine. Or does that sound harsh? I feel like I am not learning anything new anymore. either. This new job will be filled with different challenges, not just because they are mentally handicapt but beacuse it's a job with more responcability and it involves much more organisation on a larger scale. Exciting. Guess I din't get my bachelors degree for nothing then.
Here's some pictures from the last day out I organized for my darlings to Scheveningen, the beach near Den Haag. FIirst a pic of me and ms Endres in the restaurant. Then a couple of biddies on the see front and then in darling memory of ms de Meris, the dear lady herself.
On a lighter note:
I am currently typing this entry with one eye on the television. There's a disturbing film called mockingbird don't sing on, the true story of a girl who grew up untill she was 12 years old tied to a chair. Poor thing couldn't speak, didn't know it was inapropriate to masturbate in public and then to make matters worse had all these grown ups fighting over her custody. Damn I thought I had bagage. It really is sick. Instead of her finally getting the help she deserves the real hell began for her.
I've orderd a cake, 3 feet long, I am serious, from the HEMA
From 10 untill 12, all my collegues are invited to come by. But also my old ladies ofcourse will be there. I am very sad to tell you one of my favorites, ms de Meris died yesterday. She was 96. I was with her for an hour on thursday, we laughed, talked and we were our usuall naughty selves
. That was the last time I saw her. At least I have good memories I guess. I am glad I am leaving this job though. It's hard building up a relationship with people all the time and then seeing them die. That obviously doesn't mean I'm not going to miss all the people there that I will be leaving tomorrow. But like my BF said, I can't stay there for them. They are at the end of their lives and I am just at the beginning of mine. Or does that sound harsh? I feel like I am not learning anything new anymore. either. This new job will be filled with different challenges, not just because they are mentally handicapt but beacuse it's a job with more responcability and it involves much more organisation on a larger scale. Exciting. Guess I din't get my bachelors degree for nothing then.
Here's some pictures from the last day out I organized for my darlings to Scheveningen, the beach near Den Haag. FIirst a pic of me and ms Endres in the restaurant. Then a couple of biddies on the see front and then in darling memory of ms de Meris, the dear lady herself.
On a lighter note:
I am currently typing this entry with one eye on the television. There's a disturbing film called mockingbird don't sing on, the true story of a girl who grew up untill she was 12 years old tied to a chair. Poor thing couldn't speak, didn't know it was inapropriate to masturbate in public and then to make matters worse had all these grown ups fighting over her custody. Damn I thought I had bagage. It really is sick. Instead of her finally getting the help she deserves the real hell began for her.
So I'm dirty now.....
dirty 30
Had a great day and thanks for all the birthday wishes. It was the best birthday ever. All my closest friends (about 35 turned up!) , my tatoo artist (VIP!) the prettiest bar in Amsterdam, Dulac, my baby Johan who spoiled me rotten. And actually the best thing turned out to be a friend from school (when I was like 8/9 years old works in the bar since 5 days. I hadn't seen him, fikret, for about 20 years. SO funny, he joyned us for a little while and had some drinks. We couldn't stop talking about the different teachers and what happend to other classmates. He still sees some of em. So it was fun to hear how they turned out!
Being my birthday of course I got pressies.... I got an ultra amazing electric toothbrush off my BF but also a new saddle with skulls on for my chopper bike and ironcross valvecaps. He's the best! Most of my friends pitched in together to buy me a black chandeleer. I also got an amazing cherry dress of my boss from london. A polka dot beautycase YAY, never enough dots. A cute mug with a pink girlie skull, a pinup calender for 2007. Hahaha a steam iron of my mom, now I'm a real woman hey Some cd's. My favorite band at the mo is IAMX If you like a mix between joy division, placebo and the editors you'll like IAMX too
Being my bithday I tried to get shit-faced drunk. But didn't manage it. I drank bottles of wine but stayed practically sober...which was strange Being sober however did allow me to discuss into great detail my nxt tatoo I can't wait
Anyhooo here's some friends, Valerio, Kiki, Denise, me and Aliya and me and Johan
I might post some more pics when I get them. The ones I took all suck!
dirty 30
Had a great day and thanks for all the birthday wishes. It was the best birthday ever. All my closest friends (about 35 turned up!) , my tatoo artist (VIP!) the prettiest bar in Amsterdam, Dulac, my baby Johan who spoiled me rotten. And actually the best thing turned out to be a friend from school (when I was like 8/9 years old works in the bar since 5 days. I hadn't seen him, fikret, for about 20 years. SO funny, he joyned us for a little while and had some drinks. We couldn't stop talking about the different teachers and what happend to other classmates. He still sees some of em. So it was fun to hear how they turned out!
Being my birthday of course I got pressies.... I got an ultra amazing electric toothbrush off my BF but also a new saddle with skulls on for my chopper bike and ironcross valvecaps. He's the best! Most of my friends pitched in together to buy me a black chandeleer. I also got an amazing cherry dress of my boss from london. A polka dot beautycase
YAY, never enough dots. A cute mug with a pink girlie skull, a pinup calender for 2007. Hahaha a steam iron of my mom, now I'm a real woman hey Some cd's. My favorite band at the mo is IAMX If you like a mix between joy division, placebo and the editors you'll like IAMX tooBeing my bithday I tried to get shit-faced drunk. But didn't manage it. I drank bottles of wine but stayed practically sober...which was strange
Being sober however did allow me to discuss into great detail my nxt tatoo I can't waitAnyhooo here's some friends, Valerio, Kiki, Denise, me and Aliya and me and Johan
I might post some more pics when I get them. The ones I took all suck!
Well here I am, one week later and feeling 10 years older!
What a week! Does anybody suffer from insomnia? It's hell. My sum total hours sleep this week couldn't be much more than 18! The last 2 days in work I would say I kinda lost my professionality. Snapping and hanging up on colleagues. Not to mentiion mistakes, spilling stuff and not listening properly! It came to a climax yesterday, freaking out at my bf. I honestly got kind of hysterical. Not really me at all. Yes I can be a dramaqueen sometimes, I'm a Leo, come on, but hysterical...no allways way too cool for that! The look on both our faces when my "fit" was over. Priceless I guess!
My nipple peircing is not healing. The left one is fine. Submissive. The right one is a fiery "old" thing and jjust will NOT heal up. Washing it 3 times a day, iodine, its not helping...anyone got any suggestions? I have more or less made my mind up to get rid of 'm. And if the one goes, the other goes too. I like balance.
MOst of you know I have a weeksly DJ slot at a club in Amsterdam. One customer came up to me last night and told me he got a SG account for his birthday last week and had checked me out. Haha, does anybody feel akward when people you know form work, going out whatever see you BUTTNAKED?!?!?! Haha, it's one thing people over the other side of the world knowing your private parts. It's another when it's the neighbour teehee. Don't really mind, it's strange though. Especially when I consider how prudish I can be getting changed at the swimming pool.
After a week of rain, of monsoon proportions...the sun today is shining
And I'd love to go to the parade with Johan, but he's currently in "ignore" mode. Hope it doesn't last too long
...'cause I'm a good girl really 
What a week! Does anybody suffer from insomnia? It's hell. My sum total hours sleep this week couldn't be much more than 18! The last 2 days in work I would say I kinda lost my professionality. Snapping and hanging up on colleagues. Not to mentiion mistakes, spilling stuff and not listening properly! It came to a climax yesterday, freaking out at my bf. I honestly got kind of hysterical. Not really me at all. Yes I can be a dramaqueen sometimes, I'm a Leo, come on, but hysterical...no allways way too cool for that! The look on both our faces when my "fit" was over. Priceless I guess!
My nipple peircing is not healing. The left one is fine. Submissive. The right one is a fiery "old" thing and jjust will NOT heal up. Washing it 3 times a day, iodine, its not helping...anyone got any suggestions? I have more or less made my mind up to get rid of 'm. And if the one goes, the other goes too. I like balance.
MOst of you know I have a weeksly DJ slot at a club in Amsterdam. One customer came up to me last night and told me he got a SG account for his birthday last week and had checked me out. Haha, does anybody feel akward when people you know form work, going out whatever see you BUTTNAKED?!?!?! Haha, it's one thing people over the other side of the world knowing your private parts. It's another when it's the neighbour teehee. Don't really mind, it's strange though. Especially when I consider how prudish I can be getting changed at the swimming pool.
After a week of rain, of monsoon proportions...the sun today is shining
And I'd love to go to the parade with Johan, but he's currently in "ignore" mode. Hope it doesn't last too long
...'cause I'm a good girl really
I dont know if I am gonna make this SG meet today. For the 2nd night running I slept 3,5 hours. Tomorrow I gotta work again. If i go I am not going to sleep over thats for sure. Makes me sad, boooohooooo
Nope just called the meeting off. I could cry! But there's just no way. I need a vacation...BIG time
Nope just called the meeting off. I could cry! But there's just no way. I need a vacation...BIG time
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