Fuck is probably my favorite swear word. But I can honestly say the kid my neighbor hangs out with has out-fucking-done me. He honestly says fuck before or after every word in a sentence. It's amazing. I don't know how anyone can actually follow what he's saying really haha.

Holy shit someone bought my red undies. Woot!

I have art projects to finish and movies to watch. I need to get off the computer.

I also have a huge ulcer on the inside of my bottom lip. It hurts like a bitch!

I watched the MJ memorial. It was sad. Especially when his little girl got up and spoke.

This is probably my favorite MJ song though...



Ok ok I really need to work on some shit. I leave you with a photo of me in my current state...



Much loves <3

32 days until CKY

The shock and terror keeps me sane...

Hello SG land. I suppose I'm in better spirits than my last entry. It's still be a kinda blah week, but I'm making the best of it.

I've been lazy all day. Well I did a few things. I washed all my bed stuff so it's nice, soft, and good smelling I watched a bunch of movies as always. I watched all three Porky's movies haha. I love those Angel Beach kids. Then I watched Sweeney Todd which I hadn't seen in a while and I forgot how much I loved it. Especially the music. This song has one of my favorite parts. "Looks like piss, this is piss, piss with ink..." haha



I put up some auctions of ebanned. I'm not sure if any of those reading this buy things from there, but what the hell. It's just two pairs of undies. You have to be a member to see the auctions, but I'll link them anyway for shits. I got by FreyaFire on there by the ways.

Pink and Black Undies
Red Undies

Here's a pic of the red ones cuz I like the way my bum looks...



Hmm what else. Go check out LillithVain's new set cuz it's pretty fucking shmexy. And I keep watching Malloreigh's vlogs because she's just so damn cute

I can't wait to get paid so I can get CKY tickets. I want to get Blink 182/Panic at the Disco tickets as well, but I probably won't have enough for both haha. I doubt I'll even have extra for CKY, but it's essential that I go.

I had a print sale that ended last week sometime and I only sold to one person. If you are reading this and purchased prints from me recently pleeeeeeease email me. I've been completely broke and I couldn't order the prints on time. And I couldn't get in contact with the person who bought them either to tell them. So yeah if it's you email me please

Oh oh and listen to this song. It's new from the CKY boys. A#1 Roller Rager. The video is 8 minutes long, but the song isn't haha. Good times...



A friend of mine is gonna buy some jewelry from Robot Panda That makes my day. Maybe that's how I'll get concert tickets haha.

Ok well I should get to bed. Work at 5:45 in the a.m. tomorrow. Woot! Much love <3

It's been a very surreal week for me. I feel like life was in pause mode for a few days.

My grandfather "pap" passed away this past Wednesday. I don't even like writing about it, but I thought I should mention since I haven't been updating. I really can't describe how much I'm going to miss him. There will never be anyone in my life like him again. It's just so weird not having him around. I can't remember a week going by my entire life without seeing or talking to him. I lived with my grandparents till I was five and then I practically lived there after that. I spent so many weekends/summers there I lost count. And on top of that he used to visit my house at least once a week too. He was the best. He gave me my first Beatles album How awesome is that?

I've been with my grandma a lot too. I feel terrible when she says how alone she feels. I just want to hang out with her all the time and try to cheer her up a little. I think I'm going to see if she wants to bake cookies this weekend.

I can only hope now that my pap still hears me if I wanna talk to him and that I make him proud.

Here's my paps old Air Force photo. He was such a handsome man.


I'll have to get a copy of my favorite older one of him. He's standing next to a new car he bought lookin' all tough. He makes me think of Johnny Cash in it for some reason.

Oh my this sucks...

I also feel really bad for my sister this past week. Not only did she lose her grandfather also, but a friend of hers committed suicide the week prior. She's been through so much and she had her dance recital and junior prom in between it all. She ended up going to her prom the night of my paps funeral because we all knew he'd never want her to miss it. She's a strong kid, and she looked beautiful as always. I'll share some prom photos to end this on a bit of a cheery note.



This is my sister and one of her best friends...


The other best friends haha...


And us being silly with cameras...


Ok well I'm off for now. My mom's having a family picnic today and I must get ready. Thanks for reading my entry today. Sorry if I made anyone else sad. Much love <3

Oh my has anyone else purchased the new Decemberists album??? If you haven't you are most definitely missing out. The music is fucking amazing and they are fabulous story tellers. Here's one of my favorite songs so far. It's in the middle of the story line, but it's still fantastic on it's own...



The sex for realz.

I've recently discovered Netflix and I'm wondering why I hadn't looked into it sooner. I've been able to watch so many of my favorite movies and new ones. I love movies.

I watched one the other night called Sophie Scholl: The Final Days. If you've never heard of her she was in the White Rose, which was a peaceful anti-nazi group during WWII. The movie is about how she's tried and convicted of high treason and aiding the enemy just for handing out some anti-war flyers. It's a really moving story. If you can find it I highly recommend checking it out. Oh I found the movie poster...



I have such a bad cold. I've forced myself to go to work the last three days. I probably passed it on to everyone at work. The worst part is my coughing. Today I had to leave my desk twice because when I start coughing it's impossible to stop. I'm not the only one this happens to yeah? I feel like such a freak when it happens haha. Oh and my poor nose. I looked like I got punched in the face haha.

Ok I'm gonna take a nap before I go shopping for my mom later. Much love everyone <3

Oh and I finally did put up my jewelry on Robot Panda. Go looky

Well I suppose the sad sounding blog entries are not the thing eh? haha Well I suppose this one will be in better spirits.

I'm still hoping that people will check out my things I have for sale so I could maybe go on my escape trip. I'm still a good ways away from being able to afford it. So if you haven't, please check out my etsy...



I'll be adding some jewelry tomorrow

And I'm still selling prints at $10 a piece I had a request for some from my Blue Hawaii set, but unfortunately I don't own those ones so I can't really sell them. So it's mostly ones from my self shot sets.

Fraiya Prints!!!!!

In other news I now have a new game and an Xbox live account. My boyfriend was awesome and got it for me. So if anyone wants to play Left 4 Dead with me I'm under the name FreyaFire

And seriously where have I been??? The Mighty Boosh might be one of my new favorite shows.

"Don't have 15 in one go, because you will see the devil..."



Fucking genius show. I want to put Naboo in my pocket haha.

Hmmm I'm not sure what else to talk about today.

I'll probably be going out tomorrow. I suppose it will be in celebration of Cinco de Mayo maybe? Or just a reason to go out really haha.

I want one of these...



Ok I'm going to shoot some zombies in the face. Here's a lovely parting picture until next time...



Much love <3

Sooooo I've been wanting to update for like two days now, but this is the first time I've even been in a good enough mood to do it.

I'm still being really slow at this one.

Here's the thing. I've been really down lately. Well super mega ultra down. I like my job, but I'm not really appreciated that much. I'm about to go into a huge amount of debt because my student loan company wasn't happy with my payments. In the past few months I've lost contact with a lot of people. Which honestly isn't all bad. And now the only place that was making me happy, home that is, is in trouble too.

The boy and I aren't that fantastic right now. A lot has to do with some stuff neither of us have gotten over yet. He keeps suggesting we take a break. And not a break up thing, but just like a week vacation by ourselves. Nothing too major really.

But I really have no where to go. I thought about going to a friends house, but I wouldn't feel comfortable asking to. For a short while I thought of going to my parents for a week. But the more I thought of it, the more I just want to be alone. I don't want to have to explain why I'm going away for a week to my family, and then have them judge me or my boyfriend. Which is exactly what would happen. Even if our intentions are good. And I'm not sure my over emotional mother is the person I need to be around right now.

I just want it to all stop hurting ya know. Isn't it only fair? I'm tired of crying myself to sleep and chest pains. I need a break from it all before it's all too much.

I actually found a small cabin close by that is can be rented. I would need to be somewhat close by because I can't really afford to take off a lot of work. It's great. I can sit and be calm for a while. It's by a lake. I could read all the books I haven't had time to read. I'd probably feel better about myself. It seems like a perfect solution to me.

So what I thought was go away for a week alone. The only thing that is standing between me and possible happiness is money of course. So I hate doing this, but if you bought anything from my etsy store I would be soooooo grateful. You'd be helping me and getting a unique item as well. I'll gladly take any commissioned items you'd like as well. Scarf, hat, phone/ipod case, tote bag maybe??



I'm also having another print sale. The one I had before didn't turn out too shabby so maybe this one will go well also. I've even lowered the prince to $10 instead. I put up a bunch of new pictures from my Nook set, as well as the ones I had before from Mentanoia, and Silent Seduction. So please please please take a look

The cartfly thingy doesn't work on SG I think so here's the link.

Fraiya Prints!!!!!

I wish I could win the lottery. That would be great huh? But for real. Any help would be greatly greatly appreciated.

This could be a brand new start.

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In somewhat more pleasant news. Spring is here I put together some before and after pics of my street so to speak.

Click the spoilers for spring time goodness...

Ok I have another set, but they won't upload for some reason. I guess those are for another day.

I made some new stained glass necklaces today. Gotta get those up on an etsy sometime. Ok I have to work early tomorrow because we're getting a new program to work on and none of us have been trained on it yet. And no we're not having a training session. I have to go in early because everyone knows we'll be behind since we have no fucking clue what's going on. Seriously worse management I've ever encountered haha.

I leave you with me going to my cousin's bridal shower...



much love <3

Heeey everybody. I put some new stuff up on my Esty a.k.a. Robot Panda. I had mentioned the hat thing in my last blog so I put a few up on it. I even sold something! I'm excited haha.



I was bored out of my mind today. I swear I watched every episode of Paranormal State I could find haha. There needs to be some new Ghost Hunters for me to watch. Oh I watched Snatch as well. Who doesn't fucking love that movie???

I took pictures of myself modeling my hats today. Here are a few bonus shots haha.





And I keep finding ones from the day I shot my Nook set that I end up liking haha.



Oh and have I mentioned that Dot has the best SG boobies. Seriously...



Ficken wunderbar.

I work at 8 tomorrow and I should really be going to bed I suppose. Blahhhh I should have been more productive today. Oh wells. Off to bed I guess.

Much love <3

Soooo I decided on the black dress Hopefully it gets here fast. It even comes with a DVD that tells you how to wear it haha.

So I promised some pics from my sisters dance thingy. So I got around to switching computers soooo here we go.

Here's my sis making her silly happy face with her platinum ribbon



This isn't the competition I went to, but it's the same dance non the less. This is what they got platinum for. Don't mind my sister's friends crappy camera work haha. It's a myspace video soooo I'll just link it I suppose.

Mamma Mia

I wore black and yellow eyeshadow the one day is honor of the best city ever, Pittsburgh. I'm not sure if you can see it, but I swear I'm wearing it in this pic.





Myspace version...



Haha ok I'm off to bed. Please feel free to check under the spoiler for my vanity section

Come in nude...

It's 9:30 and I already want to go to bed. I wish I had something to do.

Oh oh someone please help me decide. My mom is being nice as always and getting me one of those scarf dresses I talked about before. It's my Easter present Yeah I still get an Easter basket, what of it?? haha So which one eh????

The blackish one...


Or the blueish one...


Ahhhh if I only had an extra $30 I would so get both. But yeah which one?

I wish someone would buy my robot panda stuff. Then I could get like 3 dresses haha.

I made some CKY banners because they asked me to. Haha well no me personally, but they asked everyone to make ones promoting the new album. I made two so maybe one will get picked to put up on their myspace or something. Check em out. I'm partial to the second one.





So I can't stop listening to Muse. Seriously have they made a bad song? If they have, I have yet to find it. Here's a video of their kick ass cover of House of the Rising Sun. Good shit.



I have some pictures from my sisters dance competition, but they are on another computer so I'll have to post them later. My sister looks adorable. She ended up getting three gold medals and one platinum. I have to post the pic of her with her platinum ribbon because she's making the cutest face haha.

Drama on the internet is funny. The phrase don't wash your dirty laundry in public comes to mind.

Ok I'm off to have another mixed drink. Much love <3