Fraiya's January 17, 2005 blog

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JANUARY 17, 2005 @ 06:09 PM

Well I'm back at school from my first weekend home. It's bloody cold over here. I couldn't feel my hands when I got upstairs. This weekend was weird. It started out good, and then I kept fucking it up. I'm becoming the person that I NEVER fucking wanted to be. It hurts inside. Now I'm back at school wondering how I'm going to get out of this bored and lonely state. I find myself getting severly depressed...like way more than I ever have in the past. Always on the verge of tears. Change is good...I guess. At least that's what everyone else seems to say. I find myself saying "I wanna go home" more often than I thought I would. Hopefully this is just a phase that everyone goes through. I'm miss Laotzulost more than anyone. I get that feeling like when you remember something that you've lost and you want it really bad. I fucking hate that feeling...it hurts, empty like.

I need my set done grrrrrr. No one has done a set with Ramen noodles have they? Poop. Oh well, until next time. yeah...

optimisticKid

New York, NY

February 2004

JAN 17, 2005 09:36 PM

I hope you feel better soon I know what you're going through because I have had the same bored, lonely, and depressed feelings. They come and they go. It's a terrible feeling when i'm unhappy and depressed and feel like there's nothing I can do to make it better. But you've just gotta stay strong because each moment is in reality not connected to the past in any way. Your mind just wants you to believe that it is. And that way you keep repeating the same old cycles, running from the same fears. But you've gotta learn how to use your mind, rather than letting it use you. I know it's really tough, believe me I still have a long way to go, but I know it can be done. I hope that helped a little at least. If you wanna chat you can IM me. Hope u feel better

[Edited on Jan 17, 2005 9:37PM]

norritt

Mesa, AZ

December 2002

JAN 18, 2005 09:14 AM

no i dont think so.. ramen noodles are hot!
i mean temperature wise...
what are you taking in school?

Fraiya

SUICIDEGIRL

Pennsylvania, USA

JAN 18, 2005 09:20 AM

wakeup said:I hope you feel better soon I know what you're going through because I have had the same bored, lonely, and depressed feelings. They come and they go. It's a terrible feeling when i'm unhappy and depressed and feel like there's nothing I can do to make it better. But you've just gotta stay strong because each moment is in reality not connected to the past in any way. Your mind just wants you to believe that it is. And that way you keep repeating the same old cycles, running from the same fears. But you've gotta learn how to use your mind, rather than letting it use you. I know it's really tough, believe me I still have a long way to go, but I know it can be done. I hope that helped a little at least. If you wanna chat you can IM me. Hope u feel better

Thank you, you've got good advice. I always let past events upset me. But I know it'll get easier, it just sucks right now. But I've gotta get through it because I know it will lead to good things in the end.

Fraiya

SUICIDEGIRL

Pennsylvania, USA

JAN 18, 2005 09:22 AM

norrittsaid:no i dont think so.. ramen noodles are hot!
i mean temperature wise...
what are you taking in school?

That's good, that's the only food I have right now haha. The cajun ones are hot, yummy spicy food.

And I'm taking graphic design at the moment. Hopefully moving onto animation in the future. Yep go me.

Jessewestend

I'm lost

OLD SKOOL

FEB 11, 2005 11:13 AM

mu ha ha I own that set idea...

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