today is my 10th day with strep throat... im FINALLY breaking down and seeing a doctor. i hate doctors. actually, doctors are ok SOMETIMES, but i hate doctors offices. i hate the way they smell, and i hate other sick people there. i hate waiting and and i hate filling out useless paperwerk that they obviously throw away or else they wouldn't make me fill out the same form every time i show up. i hate my insurance, they make everything impossible. but everytime i eat or drink something i feel like im swallowing razorblades. who the hell gets strep throat in july anyways?? ooooohhhh yeeeaaa.... me. hopefully im feeling better by the weekend! planet of the drums baby!

good thing when you get a parking ticket, they tell you the EXACT ADDRESS of where your car got picked up from. when your car gets towed because some cunt douche bag uncle fucker cock sucken piece of shit WHORE calls in on you for blocking their driveway, the cops, intelligent and competent as they are, write the address on the ticket. now.... $220 later... at least i know who's house to egg. bastard.

im crazy... i just started listening to country music on the radio. and i KNOW that country sucks, i hated country, but all of a sudden im starting to appreciate it. some of it is dam hilarious. hm?? no clue what this phase is about.

LOOK ONLY: DO NOT FUKKEN TOUCH!!

THIS IS A WARNING***

i hate all people, male or female, fat or thin, black or white, hot or ugly... i dont give a fuck who you are, if i feel you put one hand on my body i swear to gawd i'll make you wish you hadn't.

after spending the last week crying by myself, or doing drugs to make me forget why i was crying, i have come to the realization that not any one of you grimy asasholes is good enough for me.

so take a nice good look, keep looking looking looking but keep your dirty hands to yourself. im never going to let anyone get the pleasure out of touching my body KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF ME!!

and poor old pancho, who's hand really did slip, "i didnt mean to it was an accident" POP imma punch you in the mouth! poor old pancho, you got hit in the face because my ex treated me so bad, so now someday if you ever see him, you can punch HIM in the face and call it even.

pancho is the victim here, but this is just fair warning to everyone else. if i feel you try to touch me im going to punch you in the face, spit in your eyes, head butt you, either drag you around the room by your tits kicking you in the cunt or cutting your little pee pee off and raping your moms ass with it. i'll bite your face, i'll stomp on ur nutsack, I DONT CARE just DONT EVER TRY TO FUCKEN TOUCH ME

yes im depressed, slightly psychotic, and sure as hell feel NO REMORSE for any other lonely ass wondering soul (DAMN UR SOUL TO HELL by the way). i dont care what the consequences of my actions are. you do not want to fuck with me right now. i probably have a knife and if i feel one false move i wont hestitate to cut your ass up.

so get a good look just DONT YOU DARE LAY A FUCKEN FINGER ON ME

i hate you everybody...
and so here...
dellusional BITCH fluff is born... say "hi"

after 6 weeks, the plumber finally came today and FIXED MY GODDAM SHOWER!! aaahhhhh finally. i just took a 45 minutes steaming hot shower, then smoked a cigarette... wow i feel like i just had sex or something! a little slice of heaven...

some people always lie steal and cheat
trying to stay cool under high heat
they cleverly execute slick sneaky plots
anxiety tying my stomach in knots
pondering over their deceitful urges
tossing and turning until sunrise emerges
i know that im hungry but why cant i eat?
why cant i focus and why can't i sleep?
but all of these problems are simply external
i can't control them and they're not eternal
my thoughts and feelings, those things are mine
just keep imagining everythings fine
channel my energy away from the anger
sit back and watch as my heart escapes danger
knowing that this world is here JUST FOR ME
who i was who i am and who someday i'll be
and all of a sudden it starts to make sense
no sadness, discomfort, worries or suspense
so SMILE! its easy and so undemanding
reaches out and fills others with true understanding
everyones included, the effort is joint
because all of our energies unite at some point
positive people must all come together
even in darkness and stormy weather
we are the ones who will always make it
while conniving losers always try to take it
weakness will follow trouble and strife
while power belongs to those who know how to live life.

today has been the best day ever! from the moment i woke up this morning, everything has been going just my way. i heard from a hot new guy, my old best friend who wouldn't talk to me for the past 3 or 4 years, i got a 98% on my physics test, no trouble finding parking, and i made some money. now im about to eat a 12oz. steak smothered with garlic. i have never had a day like today before, not EVER!

I LOVE LIFE! 1206

i love cheesy horror movies =) just watched night of the living dead, my late fri the 13th celebration lol