OK so apart from self-diagnosing myself as being depressed and diabetic and asthmatic, it looks like 2009 is going to be quite the year! Is it because it's the year of "me" the Ox? That would be sweet to be an Ox... mm, power.. So anyways to deal with these issues I have decided to up my dosage of herb and smoke it more profusely while gorging out on New York Super Fudge Chunk. The reason the year is looking even more great is that I just finished my next shoot, i loved playing with all that water.... Me and my photographer girl had a fun time shooting it... I keep finding more and more cool Canadian suicide girls and they are so hot! I missed out on some girls here in the city meeting for drinks last friday.... I had forgotten due to not writing it down, andI just stayed home with my dog, watching The Great Adventure, a 1940's oLLddd movie. I like old movies, and I also like Nutella in the bedroom. That's just life, man.

I've been handcuffed to this feeling for too long... How can I say I'm happy in my life when the pleasures of life themselves can only be enjoyed as a contrast to pain? Fuck I'm confused. I'm desperate. The leaves are almost done falling but i'm not even done being in summer mode, damn missed days of sun while I had to work! Fuck responsibilities, I feel so old and I didn't even get to be young and wild. Cuz me, I was young and well-behaved. I used to scold my schoolfriends for swearing. I want to do like Starla does in her Back From Reality shoot and let go of the world for a while... I wanna be bad and rebel against my own correctness, but I don't have enough money for the drugs I would need in order to party like a wild woman does. So excuse my profanities cuz they're only frustrations, but fuck it, all I can do is smoke a joint to my head and look at the view of the city from up here on the 3rd floor.....Is there anybody out there? I take a bath and hide my ears under the surface so I don't hear anything except hidden sounds... I don't wear my glasses so I can't truly see 'reality'... and instead of speaking what the gremlin in me is insisting, I just smile and say "of course, madame. Would you like cream and sugar on the side?" I feel so powerless, I wish I was american so I could vote for obama. If he wins, Not only will I go to all the victory parties that my friends are planning, I will tattoo my body with its significance in my life. Bring all those good boys home from the desert... Hell yeah, I'll smoke to that.

everything comes to an end. Just like videos reach the end of the tape, eras of my life are always ending. Time to trip out on something else... spark a splif and inhale the flavours of life: in full-swing. Everyone I know has moved, and some moved away... it's extremely lame i just moved too, straight into a ghetto of highway underpass white trash. It's okay to live crazy when you don't have kids to look after, I figure.
I've kept myself wound up around my crazy hallucinations and following mirages of a destination. I need a vacation, I think... I would love to find some sunny place and eat garlicy stuff all day, amusing myself with my little dog and spending my nights getting shagged in the woods, under the moonlight. Instead it's minimum wage thrills and chills at the hair salon...

I went to the Love Guru matinee today, since it was my day off.
Reviews all said it sucked... but I still wanted to see what ol' Mike has up his sleeve this time around.

(I wondered if I would be as amused as I was when he pelvically thrusted his way into my heart as Austin Danger Powers... Haaaahahahaha)

Anyway I looooved the Love Guru. I totally didn't understand the previews, so I was pretty much not expecting much. But it was like every three seconds was another joke, and I appreciated the silliness and cheesiness. The first scene had me laughing instantly lool...

Best of all? SO many Canadian references!!!***X*X*X*X*X*X My favourite part was Jessica Alba screaming "Kiss my Canadian ass!!" I was like, that is SO sweeeeeet!! REPREZZZENT And Justin Timberlake as a Quebecois, and he did a not bad impression!
I wish I could watch it again but i already heard all the jokes.

Ahhhhhh. Then the rest of the day was spent smoking joints in a car, in my friend's house, and in the bushes of some waterfalls in the park. I saw the remains of what must've been an ancient condom, left to endure the harsh outdoor elements, clinging to some nearby rocks. (Come on, it was almost like a toothpick it was so old! So don't be grossed out.) But it actually made me wanna have some rocky waterfall sex, that would be sweet... Of course in my fantasyland of no risks there would be no condom and I would just get to drink every last drop of cum while the water rushes past...
You may notice I'm a little frisky today. I kept casually rubbing my breasts in public because my shirt feels silky over these lady lumps... Meow!

Anyways next week is Canada Day, I'm gonna take the next day off and get wild!! God save the Queen!

hehe.

Apparently they have decided to make me PINK and change my name too....... Fuck it, oh well.



Wow it's a beautiful day, the sky is overcast just the way I like it. Sometimes open blue skies make me feel like death is waiting around the corner in the form of some modern disease. I will relax as soon as I see some cloud.
Give me some rain and I will start smiling nonstop and feel like giving you a back rub..
If there is thunder and lightning, I will hump your leg.... If there is thunder& lightning & RAIN I like to tear off my clothes!!!!!! That's the truth about clouds and me.

another day at the salon which means aother day filled with me shampooing heads of all shapes and sizes. Some heads are so slim, you can hold the whole head in your hands, these I find endearing. The neck is more thin and vulnerable and it's easy to massage. Some heads are so big they take up half the sink and the neck fills the groove completely. There's fat heads, usually men, which are big, and then there are big heads that are shaped like upside-down eggs, with no bones sticking out. Those are weird to massage. Some people's temples are sunken in and some puff out. It's all crazy in the world of the head.
But my favourite head is the morning head. You know after a night of some good fucking, it's always a good start to the day by putting a nice soft dick in your mouth to move it all around with your tongue and feel it getting harder in your mouth.... Of course if it ends in a good dose of protein, then you also have a "head start" on a balanced breakfast! ohhhhh Yeah
But those assholes who wake me up with their loud-ass tree-cutting machines and their retardedly loud garbage trucks should be SHOT. They don't care about people like me who they assume are home during late mornings because it's after 9 and they're not at work like important people....God forbid I should sleep in! And I'm sorry to hate on motorbikes because they are sexy, but they are so loud going up my hill it makes me think we're under fucking attack or something. Isn't there a law against that? Well there should be.
this is typical morning for me

The N of this keyboard is sticky... So I love the vibe of this website. So many cute girls, all that uiqueness inspires me. So I'm pretty stoked at the support I've gotten for my first set. this is just so awesome. The set was shot one afternoon in a nightclub, and you may only imagine what's behind the door I'm pressing my womanly bosom against, hehe. Wouldn't it be sweet if my next shoot could be with another girl? Hmm I wonder if it's doable... So anyhow here i am watching Indiana Jones the 3rd one. I'm getting ready to go see the new Indiana Jones. Apparently canadians were watching Indiana instead of sex and the city last weekend at their opening nightsI so that's really sweet, since sex and the city pisses me off. The so-called "powerful" idependant-woman-i-don't-need-a-daddy-for-my-kids woman is so not my generation, it pisses me off that they make living like self-obsessed, heartless whores look like some kind of sparkling depiction of Ultimate Womanhood. They are just actors, in real life surely they shop at costco and think about more than new year's eve parties, and seek meaningful, lasting, human relationships.... of sorts? Well anyway I'm about to eat some rice.
Later.... xoxox