So I've not been around much.... I've had a rollercoaster of a year and it's still going.....

I have a new man in my life who has been looking after me very well. I ended up homeless when me lease finished at my old place so he let me live with him for a couple of months. I've now found a new flat and living with 2 guys that I get on with quite well. The flat is gorgeous and in a great location.

My health has been on a yoyo and I'm still not coping very well with the pain and unexpected bad days which recently meant I could hardly walk. Work are helping to support me but I need to get to a place where I can meet my contract hours - not only for work but for my sanity. The Mr did some research to understand what I go through with fibromyalgia and bought me some pain relief presents to see if they will help. Hopefully I can get to a place soon where I can cope. Part of this has involved me starting a tumblr blog:

http://kwaamfaifan.tumblr.com/

Follow it if you wana see the ups and downs of my daily life.I'll warn you now some of it will be quite negative but I will be posting the happy moments and cool quirky things I do too


Right now I need to just organise my debts and get them sorted then I can start looking at cheering myself up with a bit of retail therapy. I'm updating my wish list today so that when I can afford it I can just go through and buy all the things I want when I've had the time to think about them instead of going to town and blowing my money on impulse crap. Sounds clever right? Hope so :p

Anyways. Today is a good day, I'm not in too much pain and I'm getting a fry up for lunch cooked for me :p
Speak to you soon x

Today I'm in pain.....the good kind of pain.....the kind of pain that happens when you go over a mates house til 2 am and let them tattoo you

I am starting to think this is actually my favourite tattoo I have, what you guys think?




he's just started out but is very gentle


In other news, I'm looking for a new job and new house....not going entirely well at the moment though

That's all for now, need to tidy my room, find bepanthen and go to uni!

Well it's been a long time hasn't it!

I've been so majorly busy it's crazy!
I've gone back to uni and starting to get behind so need to get on top of it. But enjoying being back even if it is 1 day a week.
Work has been exhausting bu starting to see the results we've been aiming for so all's good.

My health has taken a bit of a nose dive but I'll live....working through it.

Now enough of the blabber.....my past few weeks in pictures.....








I got spiked.....


Fun times in Paris with the man I loved....

Hey everyone,

How you all doing?

So I've made a decision not to let my health get me down....it's shit, it's for life, I just gota deal with it.

Starting with going swimming after work this week, changing my diet and saving money to buy myself something awesome when I start feeling better


In other news, I've been picking up the camera again and writing out my project idea's for when I go back to uni to finish my degree. It's now or never really.

I've also been thinking about getting back into fashion design and setting up my own little online boutique. Maybe my present to myself for feeling better can be an overlocker!

I've been doing more to the website for the Ronin Paintball guys. Go check it out, and like them on facebook please -smiles sweetly- hehe: Ronin Paintball UK - The team bios should be uploaded soon, just waiting on a bit more content and permission to use the photos.



In 4 weeks time I shall be setting off for my 3rd visit to Thailand! I can't wait.
Then, hopefully, the weekend after I get back I'm going to Paris to watch some paintball


Anyways, time to clean my room - being ill I've left it and now I'm getting all agitated that I've got piles of my lean clothes not put away yet lol!

hello everyone!

so I've been off work for 2 weeks with back pain
Been bored out of my mind!!

I designed a website fr my mates paintball team....just something really basic, let me know what you think:

Ronin Paintball Team

I's a bit bare at the moment as I'm waiting for content from the guys. If you like it, head over to their facebook page and like them
Another shameless plug..... if you're into paintball these guys are pretty awesome at taking photo's of it :p check them out: Shutter Images


Not been up to much else...been seeing someone new, and fallen hard for him but dnt get to be with him as much as I'd like. Hopefully we have a future together


I'm going back to Thailand in September then off for a weekend in Paris at the Millennium paintball series. Should be a lot of fun



Anyways hope all is well with SGland xx

So I've been a bit depressed recently....

My flatmates decided they no longer liked my cat so he's had to move out. I've never missed something so much his little personality is uncomparable! Definitely missing a huge part of my life right now.




In other news...

I'm going back to the doctors on monday to get the ball rolling with seeing a rheumatologist.
I've sent an email to my old uni about whether I can go back to finish my degree.
Work is pretty stressful at the moment but trying to set a lot of things in motion.


Stressful times right now.....

Happy Easter everyone!


I'm enjoying my day off with my beautifull little cat Tiberius. It's also his 1st Birthday today!!

I've super cat mom and made him a cake. It involves a lot fish lol. Hopefully the jelly part will set enough by 7 when his daddy comes over to see him. Though Ti has been a bit jumpy and managed to slice my shoulder open:



I've also taken the opportunity to do an epic amount of laundry - Tiberius has pee'd on everything!.
This has lead to then cleaning up around the house. Bathroom is sparkling and the kitchen is now gleaming.

I'm getting more and more frustrated with my job. Everyday people moan about the managers and come to me for advice and it's making me wonder why I haven't pushed going for management more. Think I might love my job more at a different store - start fresh.....but then would I have given in too soon? I miss so much of what I used to do that I kinda feel I've gone backwards a little, and I don't know what I'm supposed to develop skill wise because I'm getting so many mixed conversations.

Agh Ambiguity how I loathe you so. Gota put up with it though, right?


so my health has been getting worse as well but for some reason I've grown more complacent about it.

I've not had an asthma attack for a good yr and a bit until recently. I've had a cold and I think I've developed a chest infection because now I've had 6 asthma attacks in the past week and half...

My tablets are doing nothing but make me feel sick and high. This means that I'm constantly in pain, depressed and on another planet. Not a good mix for the company I work for. Luckily they're understanding and doing what they can for me but I don't want to have to give it all up.
Apparently I moan too much about my health so I'll stop there, sometimes I wish there was something visibly wrong with me, at least then people would see how sick I was...



Thinking I'll delete my MR set when I can, it's clear it's not getting bought and I'm not sure how I feel about having sets on here for free :/
On a more positive note, I'm looking at shooting some more sets so maybe I'll have a set up here soon?

Hey so long time no blog.....

Here's the new stuff:

I got a promotion! I'm about 3 weeks into my new job and I love it. There are struggles but it's good to have a challenge right

My health is yo-yoing a bit right now. Need to go to the doctor and get my medication sorted out but right now I'm so high on painkillers I feel a bit numb.

In other news I have gone back to bright red hair - much to the amusement and shock of my colleagues

Not much else left to tell you - Not been much new with me

What's new with you guys? xx

So this is a very happy blog

I have found a new home, and started moving in.
I'm now living nearer to work, paying less rent, and it's a gorgeous place that I get to furnish with the 2 amazing girls I'm living with

Not only that but things are going well at work. Looking up towards to future



The best thing though......

.....IS......
.....it's my birthday in a week!!!!

Why I'm looking forward to it I'm not sure but mumsy is taking me shopping and I'm going to have an easy night of fun and laughter


On that note I shall carry on packing my stuff up.

Hey SGland.

Hope all is good with everyone.

I'm not doing so well myself, trying to find somewhere to live and it's just a nightmare. There's nowhere in my budget where I want to live

Anyone fancy buying me a house? lol


Well in other news;

work is going well still. Gota keep on shining.

I've planned a new tattoo. Getting the molecular structure of serotonin on my ribs. Looking forward to it but can't afford it till I've found somewhere to live. Thinking bout going to the conventions again this year. Been so long since I last went, definitely miss the atmosphere.


Anyways, another short blog, maybe I'll get my creative juices back sometime and write a proper blog.
See you all soon x