so its official, i have NO LIFE!!! lmfao..i swear FB is the devil, i get stuck on there playin the games for HOURS!!!! lol but then again i dont work, i go to class once a week, so i figure hey im good. went out with some friends last nast, been in bed all day recovering...think im gonna drag my ass out of it to get something to eat, kinda hungry... other than thatm nothing new goin on, well i got asked out on a date by my ex fiancee's friend, quite interesting...how do i respond to that? lol i dnt even kno if they are still as close as they used to be, but i figure wat the hell, its just dinner and a movie and we hvnt been together for over 5 1/2 yrs, haha...

so other than that, not much else goin on... just about cussed everyone out at my school cuz they are takin tooooooo long in gettin me my loan refund, so id better have it by this friday otherwise im havin someones job!!! im not 20k for a BA and they cant get their shit organized and done in a timely manner.. how the hell did University of Phoenix get to be one of the top 3 private universities in teh country and their administration and processing depts SUCK ASS!!!!!!!!

lol ok ive vented, now its time to get something to eat!!!

bye bye

DAMN!!! JUNE ALREADY!!! where the fuck did this year go?! its outta control...well lets see wats new here...umm i cant re-enlist right now cuz the army, in all its brilliance, isnt accepting the waiver i need, so i gotta wait til their new fiscal year starts, which is oct 1, to see if they are accepting it...fuckin idiots... umm so with that ill just continue to go to school and wait to find out if they are going to begin accepting this waiver. a buddy of mine who is working at the recruiting HQ for pheenix told me that they most likely will and that he will LMK as soon as he does.

umm wat else, went to vegas this weekend for the holiday, had a great fuckin time!!!! im soooo going back, haha...won some money at the Pai Gow Poker table, a new fave game of mine, aside from texas hold'em and bingo...yes i said bingo... you can win some mad money at bingo, ive witnessed it happen ~ some lady won $17k one night wen i was playing...so dont hate, lol. rode the rollercoaster at the new york, new york, and had THE BIGGEST margarita of my life. it was a 44oz margartia from the Diablo Bar at the Monte Carlo. rode go karts and had an overall good time and necessary break... i get to go back in july with a friend of mine.

....waiting for my student loan refund so i can pay bills and get my ass off probation, lol...1 month left of that bs, then i can go crazy, lol yea right... but then i wont have to worry bout n e thing and can save myself $170/mo...hmm i can use that to go to the casino, lol... get to get my car painted in july, goin back to vegas in july, and then back out to VA Beach in july too... oh this summer is gonna be great for me...might even take a trip out to 6 flags magic mountain in cali...whoo hooo!!!!!

well other than that, not much else, even though thats quite a bit in itself, lol.. gonna go ahead and wrap this up, gotta be up early in the morning to go pay bills, boy do i just looooove giving away $1100 to random people at the beginning of the month...you kno, being a grown up really fuckin sucks sometimes, lol..

so with that, have a good night everyone...

xoxo

faithful ^^^ this is the greatest drink of my life, lmfao...44oz strawberry margarita!!!! oh yea babe!!!!

well lets see wats new... ummm starting a new class tomorrow...gotta have those injections done on my back again tomorrow... oh joy... oh yea had to live without my computer FOR A WEEK!!! NEVER want to have to go thru that again... i swear it was liking not getting a fix, lol my computer is my drug...haha... the countdown begisn to my re-enlistment 2 1/2 months til i start the process...i so cant fuckin wait to get back in the army...whoo hoo **does happy dance** i get my car painted in july, DEF ecstatic for that (will post pix wen its done)... umm chest piece gettin done in aug at hell city...cnt wait...but other than that, not much else goin on...headin back out to VA Beach in July...hopefully...

well i think thats about it.. gotta finish homework!!! UGH

well things are going ok... my mom is home and im soo excited... school is going alright...im actually getting a littl burned out and am considering taking a 1 class break (which is 5 weeks) but im still deciding... looks like ill be re-enlisting sometime within the next 7-8 months...now THAT i am looking forward to.. im so ready to be back in the military, its waaaay over due. while i love being able to do what i want, i can only stand so much of civilian life... so many people in my life, moreso a couple of friends, have no concept of what being on time means and it really irritates me, as well as other issues, but its time for me to get back in... other than that things are going ok as i mentioned before.. i cant wait for hell city, gettin tatted, and then we'll see where i go from there...

be prepared that if i do re-enlist, i may have to archive myself from model status and just be a member, but ill do my best to keep up the modeling...

well ive finished homework for tonight and i think im gonna turn in. have a good night all

xoxo

ok two weeks since i wrote...not much else has been goin on... heading to St Louis on weds morning but ill be back thursday night.... trying to work on some homework, but i cant seem to get into the groove so to speak, but it is due wednesday and i gotta get it done since im gonna be out of town and missing class.

sick and tired of the VA fuckin up my payments... i didnt serve in the military to get screwed over by the fuckin VA... what are they there for if all they can do is fuck up a vets benefits... its a good thing im re-enlisting next summer, provided everything goes ok with my mom... so unfortunately, i may have to archive myself sometime soon... dont get me wrong, I DO NOT WANT TO DO THAT, and i promise i will try my best to keep up with the modeling, so long as "my uncle" doesnt find out after i re-up...but be prepared for that at some point in time...

but other than that... just livin life one day at a time... so happy that my mom is getting home to relieve me of the stress ive had to deal with, ill be soo happy to get back to my own life... although i wouldnt trade the experiences ive had for the past 2 years for anything, they have made me stronger and see things in a different light. i definately WOULD NOT want to relive them, but i wouldnt trade them at all.

well i guess thats about it, i gotta try and get started on this damn homework so i dont have to worry about it...

xoxo

started a new class... my instructor is pretty cool so far... other than that not much else goin on... gotta hve those injections in my back again, but it will b about a month before my next procedure... its ok though...that sedation was the shit!!!! lol got to sleep the rest of the day, lol....

had a great shoot with Alissa Brunelli last week!!! cant wait to see the set later on!!!...


well i think thats it...bout to get on this dinner break then back to class..

xoxo

so i shot my next set with alissa brunelli today at the AZ biltmore... so cant wait to c it, but its gonna be awhile. after we got done shooting, i got tio sit around and hang out with Alissa Brunelli, Frolic, Sunshine, and Lainey.. and boy are they a rowdy bunch....BUT I LOVE IT!!!!!

so tomorrow, after i get done with the gym and watever household stuff i gotta do, im head back down to the Biltmore and play with the girls some more and hang out, since i wont get to see them again til prolly Hell City in August... but overall i had a great time today.

well i guess thats all for today... gonna finish some other stuff then get to bed.....

night night

sittin in class bored as SHIT!!!! wanna go home, or at least go see my new boo, lol got a photo shoot with the lovely Alissa Brunelli tomorrow...cant wait to see wat shes got in store!!! whoo hoooo!!! lol other than that, not much.... my back is feeling a little bit better, still a lil bit sore sometimes, but other than that im good... went to the lake on saturday and had soo much fun, but my ass hurts from riding fkn jetski's, but it was worth it....

had my procedure done today, it is called a "lumbar spine bilateral L2-L5 medial branch blocker". basically they injected blockers into 8 different spots in my L2-L5 region of my mid and lower back. i was sedated, so it wasnt bad. i dont remember my sis in law driving me home, lol or talkin to me on the way... i slept for a few hours today, my back is still sore, but mostly from getting up and sitting down on my bed which is kind of low (no frame, but i like it that way), i should have just kept my ass in bed all day, but i kno i neede to be up and moving, thats what the percs are for.. so i cant go back to the gym til prolly friday... i want to take a shower tonight, but i cant shower for 24hrs... not drive for 24 hrs either...so bedrest tomorrow but i have no problem with that...

other than that, things are goin ok.... countin down the days til my mom gets home..hate when shes away on business for prolonged periods of time, but this is the last time..yay!!!

well im off here, gonna play a game and watch tv..



night all xoxo

here is a pic of the 8 injection sites from my procdure...

i swear if its not one thing its the other...last week it was my sister, this week it my brother!!! wtf cant i catch a fuckin break...but the only difference is that hes still young enuff that i cant kick his ass and make a difference...so i got to do that tonight...wrestled his ass to the ground... i got a good 35lbs on him... it all started because i wouldnt go out to see wat was wrong with his bike...AT 940 at night...its too fuckin dark!!!! helloooooooo....ugh!!!!! cant wait til my mom gets home so i dont have to fuckin deal with this bullshit n e more!!!!! im bout to fuckin lose my mind!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG and i dont have enuff time to get to the gym and work this stress off.....gggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr