All I've been doing is crying. Need some strength right now and I feel really lost and don't know how to make the pain stop. I refuse to self-destruct any longer and just need to learn some good coping skills and ways to self -soothe. Thank you to everyone on this site who has had a kind word, advice, support and love for me this past few weeks. You have no idea how much it means to me, especially since I am not getting support from some people who I thought I would. I love that I have a place where I can share my feelings-- it helps process my emotions much healthier than delving into self destruction continually.
Walking bravely through the fire. It's burning the shit out of me right now.

YAYAYAYAYAYAYYYY!
Thank you so much Suicide Girls staff and members for your support and getting me on the front page today!!! I'm so happy to see that you all liked my set so much. Brooklyn is not only an amazing photographer, but a wonderful person and great friend so I am very happy that I get to collaborate with her to make such great sets, and spend time with her and all of the other wonderful ladies I've forged friendships with over the years here. We had so much fun shooting and hanging out in Vermont when we shot this set.

On another note, I am going through a tremendously tough personal time in my life right now and really am happy that my set being on the front page today could make me smile a bit-I've got to stay strong and think positive and it's a challenge I know I can overcome. Thank you to the members and friends here who have extended thier support to me and helped get me through this. It's just another reason why SG is such a great community. I really feel that.

Happy Mother's Day to all of the moms out there as well. I hope you had a great day and spent it surrounded by family and love.

Hi SG Land!
So I'm sad I did not get to go to Hell City this weekend. Boooo! But I am stoked because I have lots of fun adventures planned including some photo shoots and new tattoos. The weather is also warming up! My set,
Misty Morning is doing so well and I am very happy that you all like it! I'm thrilled. If you haven't checked it out I invite you to. NOW. GO. I COMMAND YOU.

Things are still messy with my life right now but I'm trying to have fun, ya know? Life's biggest questions don't get answered overnight. I'm gonna get through anything no matter what. I know it. But hey, I need fun, too!
Thanks for all of your love on my set and on me. Check me on Instagram, too: @fabriziasuicide. I am always on there posting pics.

xoxo,
Fab

Life is confusing. Messy at times. But there is always hope. There are mysteries and answers I hope that will reveal themselves to me. I want to know what the right path I should walk is, and I know that I must trust the universe to give me the answers I seek. I have to be patient. I am giving it over to the universe.

Thank you for all of your kind words on my last blog. Today I'm having a good day. Friends can really be a source of strength. If they make you laugh, that's seriously medicine for the soul. Today was good.

Walk through the fire bravely. That was the advice a good friend gave me this morning. I'm going through changes. Having a very rough time right now. All of you mean a lot more to me than you know... I appreciate you each very much and am glad to have a place where I can write in a journal and feel like I can get things off of my chest. Life can be confusing and painful sometimes. At the end is something beautiful I was told. I look forward and will be brave. Hold my hand.

Oh My
I just got back from Jamaica last night and of course, I immediately logged in to SG (I have withdrawals!). I am truly overwhelmed and happy to see the response I have gotten on my set! You guys are the fucking best ever. Really, I mean that!
I had the best vacation and am in the prcoess of uploading bunches of pictures from my I-phone so I can share them with you. In the meantime, if you haven't done so take a gander at my new set shot by Brooklyn called Misty Morning, which we shot at the Vermont shootfest over the summer. It was a blast being there let alone shooting sets surrounded by babes and creeping on them while they were shooting. I'm a master creeper. Haha! Again, thanks for the love. I'm a pretty humble person so I'm always pinching myself when I get this kind of response from you all.

Love you guys!
xoxo
Fabrizia

Hi Friends!
I'm in Montego Bay, Jamaica right now having an amazing time....but I have very limited internet access so I decided to just pop in for a minute to make sure I remind you to check out my set when it hits MR TOMORROW!!! I'm having such a gret time here. The people are great, the sun, beach and food are fantastic. I promise lots of pics the minute I get back. In the meantime, you can see what I've been up to on Instagram : @fabriziasuicide.

preview pic from "Misty Morning" shot byBrooklyn:


XOXOXOXO,
Fabrizia

Hello Suicide Friends!
I'm not usually one to neglect my blog for so long but I have been a busy bee! As promised, though, I am here to provided you with a photo filled update, including a recap of the Las Vegas shootfest that took place late January! I've been busy with school, getting new tattoos, working and the usual but I have been lurking on everyone's sets and posting naughty pics on Instagram, so if you're not already followingh me there please do: @fabriziasuicide. You can see tons more photos from the shootfest there. So, I flew out of JFK with my lovely friend, Brooklyn, and we arrived in Vegas on Thrusday night. We ended up meeting up with Brewin, who I missed terribly, and Dimples, who I want to keep forever! We stayed at a hotel that night but met up with all of the other Suicide lovelies at a breathtaking mansion overlooking the city, complete with a bowling alley, movie theatre, arcade, hot tub and a huge well stocked bar! This came in handy, which you will see via photo evidence! Alicee and Bradlee organized the shootfest and arranged our stay there, and I have to say, these ladies totally outdid themselves! Thank you girls so much for setting up a really amazing weekedn no one will ever forget! There were so many girls there, and photographers, that I might miss someone if I attempt a list so instead I'll compile a photographic journey for you...

Ok I'm back here goes: Babes lookin at babes

Sneak peek at shoot I did with Sawa

Hot tub boob grabbing during Sunshine's shooting of Zombie

The adorable Toxic, perched atop an arcade game in the actual ARCADE that was in this fabulous place!

Me in a photo by DarrylDarko for an upcoming book he's working on, Brooklyn shooting beautiful Dimples, and a pic of all of our butts! Well, most of us at least

I shot a set with Brewin! I can't wait to see it!!

This was perhaps the coolest thing ever. Prussia got married and we got to attend her Star Wars themed wedding!! I also got to meet the lovely Terrox who was her bridesmaid. SG is so full of once in a life time situations and opportunities like this. It's why I love it here so much. I even cried a little at the wedding!! (I know I'm a sap.) SG wedding attended by SG's, Darth Vader and the groom who I think was the only guy there besides Darth..

Exning shooting with Sunshine--yes that is a telescope!!

Kemper shooting with Sunshine, while Zombieand I creep.

Ackley prepared an amazing raw vegan meal for everyone!

Fuckin kitchen porn! Want!

Damsel holdin it down at the bar

There was an impromptu bachelorette party for Prussia

Look at this view!

Hot tub babes

Brewin checking things out

Thanks to all of the girls I did and did not mention for making that weekend so much fun. You are all so unique, amazing, beautiful and special.
Oh and, P.S.....
I have a new set hitting Member Review on March 20th. Ya might wanna take a gander at it. Hahaha..shot by Brooklyn in beautiful scenic Vermont with, yet again, the company of moar babes. (Being a SG is soooo hard.) Here's sneak peek. I'm very excited about this set!



I will be updating my blog more frequently once this semester of school is done, in about two weeks. Stay tuned for more boobs, adventures and updates!

xoxo,
Fabrizia

Guys, I've got what appears to be the flu or some shit so stay tuned for a real blog soon. I'm sorry I've been so inactive! Love you all lots!