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I think I'm done feeling sorry for myself and restless. It sort of just went away, the same way as it came. I'm not any more productive than I was, but it's nice to have that questionable stress off my shoulders. I've been siteseeing in my town, looking for different places to shoot. I'm scheduled to have some of the girls come over in the end of February but there hasn't been any confirmations. I can't really blame them...haha
I started wondering who would look good doing a multi with. What do you think?
I've been exercising.
Hanging out without clothes
Fake smiling
and staring at you
What have you been doing?
Lately my life has been this:
Interesting right? My life is still at a..stand still? It feels like no matter what I'm doing, I'm restless. Aside from at night when I'm smoking weed and expect to relax, everything else during the day feels like I'm waiting for something more. Like I need a vacation..everyday. I know that's how most people feel but this feels utter meaningless. I keep catching myself ask, "why?" "what for?" "whats the point?" I know it's nothing serious though, I probably just hate the winter. I'm not even sad!
Other than that I'm improving my fitness level. I can do ten more pushups than I could do before. My core is strengthening and I'm actually paying attention to my breathe. Seems like I'm always sore though and never get a break but I don't consider myself workout out too hard, trust me.
I've become obsessed with this recipe for raw vegan balls.
And last but not least, coming into member review soon...
I got to see all these lovely ladies on my LA vacation to sean's house:
It was great meeting the new ladies and revisiting the girls I consider to call friends. It's nice being around people just as weird as me 
I had only one glass of champagne and ate vegan pizza. Perving on girls quietly and enjoying the frightingly hot jacuzzi in my underwear. We also went to Necromance, the best store in the world, and I bought these things:
And took some pictures
Other than that, I've been eating healthy, smoking pot, and being really bored.
my weight loss tumblr
my regular tumblr
and this has been moved up to Feb 15:
Stay tuned
Pain is a form of meditation, for some. Not the idea of getting hurt, but the slow steady pain you must focus on in order not to go crazy. Something about healing, and getting something in return. I don't know why I've always been into body modification, and I don't really know why I do it except for the fact that I love it. But, I've noticed it's very soothing to be in pain, I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.
(must represent the tower bar in san diego when it gets cold)
Saw this in the Battlestar Galactica group and thought it was pretty realistic to my life a few months ago haha
[YOUTUBE]http://youtu.be/aQttrkzWOo4[/YOUTUBE]
Anyway,
enough of that business. I'm here to tell you my set is going to be out in March from sean!
and then later in the future you will see the set Venom shot
Seahorse did lovely art work of me
A preview from a set Venom shot of me
and a preview from sean's set
I'll be heading to LA next week to hang out with SO many ladies. Making a list of all of them scheduled to show up would give me a mini heart attack so you'll just have to wait for my pictures. Which means, you'll have to look at other blogs and put the pieces together because I always suck at taking pictures.
Since the activity feed is down ill keep this short and you'll just have to stay tuned
new videos on Youtube Channel
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weight loss tumblr
New tattoo!
I've been working on art lately
I started to think about the point in my life and how it's new to me. I've been so use to going to school, going through breakups, always changing medication, always stressed out about something and everything. Now, i'm in a point in my life right now I've made for myself, and tried really hard doing so. I'm not cured, but i live a life of stability but repitition. Wake up, enjoy the morning, hang out with my boyfriend, go to work, eat dinner with boyfriend, watch a movie, go to sleep. Do it all over again. It's peaceful no doubt, and I'm not complaining. I'm just having difficulties turning into a grown up with a mediocre life, haha. Living in the valley can get you stuck, but I'm not. I like it this way. Boring, clean, expectable. This year I plan to make more memories though, and not about which movie I saw last time. I'm going to travel as much as my work will make possible, since I work full time and just took a shitload of days off for being sick.
I think I'm rambling. Anyway more pictures
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Christmas is over and New years is coming, which means I've got approximately 1 more month of being sick. This year was neither good or bad, but merely uninspiring yet relaxing. I learned the duties of a new home, keeping calm and avoiding drama. I learned doing the dishes are more exciting than going out to the bar. I painted, I sewed, I smoked a lot of weed. My plans for next year are being developed but some things I've got so far:
1. I'm no longer spending money at Starbucks. That doesn't mean actaully drinking it or having someone buy it for me ;p
2. I'm going to do stuff and go places. This year I was lazy and nothing really happened. Which is all good, but I'm through with it. So far I've got about two things lined up for January and February with seeing my ladies from SG
That's it I think for now. I mean, of course eat healthy and lose weight but who DOESN'T put that on the list?
So with that, I bring to you my favorite sets of 2011 from January through December and why:
And with that, I say farewell. I'm off to smoke weed, possibly take some cold medicine, and stare at my heater!
I'm finished with all my christmas cards, which so far has been the highlight of my winter.
I have a couple more to send out if you haven't gotten yours yet and I told you that you were getting one. They may arrive a little late but they are still good
The wonderful Dan_draws made this for me:
love his stuff!
I still haven't uploaded the cover song from Adele on my soundcloud page thanks to not knowing where to find the song from my ipad garageband application through my pc. Help me plz.
Also so stoked to be starting a get together with the California girls! Speaking of which, there's some lovely ones in member review:
Other than that, soon you'll see two sets from me. One from sean and one from the lovely Venom as these past 2 will fall away. Maybe some new ones after that, you never know. I miss my ladies though, happy to hear they'll travel all the way to my crazy town
Hope everybody has a happy holiday!
Anyway, ive found the iPad a little challenging since my computer is still sick.
1. You cant upload anything!
No photos, no videos, no music
....and that's all my complaints. If anyone knows how to fix this, please message me. I obviously can't sync to a computer which is why I'm having such a hard time.
-I recorded a cover of Adele's "someone like you" with my guitar (on the iPad of course so it's trapped forever)
-I've been taking a lot of pictures also (my Instagram: exning)
-I've been knitting, sewing, craft making in the cold near the heater
-I've come to the conclusion I really don't have friends not counting my boyfriend, family, and rabbits
-smoking a lot of pot has made mornings exciting but the rest of the day pointless
That is all!
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