This weekend I ended up in the hospital and the behavioral health clinic. If anyone has ever been in this situation, you know it makes you crazier than when you wake up from your crazy.

I was going to wait awhile till my computer was back up and running and it seems like it's a hardware problem so you don't get any new pictures yet. Sorry

Anyway, we were playing beer pong next door and I only played a few games. We came home and went to bed, totally fine. The next thing I remember I swallowed a whole bottle of pills thinking "wow that was easy". I sit down and a minute later I realized what I had done and woke up my boyfriend. Come to see I had cut up my legs and called numerous numbers and got on the internet, not remembering a thing, at all.

They transported me to the hospital where I got to drink charcoal and go psychotic because they were trying to take my blood (i'm scared of needles. funny, right?). I continuously was monitored while peeing, throwing up, and doing other stuff. Awake the entire night, they transported me to the mental hospital around 9 in the morning where I stared at white walls for a total of 24 hours. I was more scared of being in my own mind than anything that had happened. The absolute boredom is the worst, and realizing I had done the stupidest things with little idea or thought.

I'm fine, it was just a reaction with alcohol to my medication. Needless to say, I'm not allowed to drink anymore and have to be constantly monitored. I've taken the week off from work because I think I'm exhausted, but I'm not sure. I'm not sad, I'm not depressed, I'm nothing really. If you saw me, you would have never expected that had happened. The support of my boyfriend and family has made me feel a little less crazy since I don't really know how to explain what happened. It was amazing how my boyfriend acted so perfect. Bringing me new clothes, snacks, staying with me even though he had about 2 hours of sleep the entire few days.

Anyway, that's basically the facts. I really don't know what happened, but all I know is that being stuck in a room with nothing to do SUCKS. You have no options and you might as well be in jail. At least everyone was nice this time, which is good.

Besides THAT, I still have a set in member review so be sure to go give that some love <3
I'll have another one coming out on the 21st as well.