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I hate when you stare at a cover letter so long that you send it because it has to be perfect by now, right? And then from your outbox, going over it again you see a glaring, blindingly obvious error.
*sigh*
*sigh*
Today is starting out significantly better than yesterday. I just compiled and set out several months worth of backlogged garbage and holiday recycling that has been building up on the back porch, I put some effort into a website proposal I've been working on. I brushed up on some of my skills. My brain is working overtime, if I can't find the job I want I have to figure out something to do to make some dough between websites.
heheheheh. there are monkeys on tv.
heheheheh. there are monkeys on tv.
Remind me to never leave my house again.
I am waiting around at a strip club for pop-a-lock to show up. Now I've pretty much spent the money i was going to use for a dr. Appt. Life is annoying sometime, and the only thing making these bits tolerable is the whiskey in my belly, keeping me from being too bored. The owner of this club has been an asshole, i keep hearing about how i'm not supposed to come and go.. .well there isn't many other ways to talk on the phone with the pop a lock people that are now running three hours late.... also apparently i'm not supposed to park in his lot for so long. well, his dumb ass had to park behind me, so when i went to leave i had to wait, and then go back to the club to call him out to remove his vehicle from 6 inches up my blazer's tailpipe. and when i went back to call him out I locked myself out. *sigh*
black eyed peas are on and some dumb kid borrowed 50 cents for one more beer before home, from broke me. also i lost the stylus for my treo somewhere in the dark bar. Hopefully it will poke some annoying stripper in the ass next week and she will require stitches. pay it forward....
I was super disappointed today. Better now than later i guess. It really has just been one of those days, where you can't quite explain why or how but it seems like the whole world is against you. I spent more than a fair amount of time waiting patiently today. and paying too much for things I didn't require. and worrying too much, and arguing too much, and not enjoying anything really at all except a few moments stolen from genuine people.
it's just one of those days that my eyes well up with tears randomly, even though i know it's silly and i know it's not that big of a deal.... it's just and pressure and boredom and listlessness which has been building up on me for quite a while now. i have no good reason to feel so shitty, and yet I do.
I'm still the luckiest girl i know, and none of you bastards can take that away no matter how hard you try.
I wish i was eating the chinese food that is locked in my car.
edit for clarity : PMS is a bitch.
I am waiting around at a strip club for pop-a-lock to show up. Now I've pretty much spent the money i was going to use for a dr. Appt. Life is annoying sometime, and the only thing making these bits tolerable is the whiskey in my belly, keeping me from being too bored. The owner of this club has been an asshole, i keep hearing about how i'm not supposed to come and go.. .well there isn't many other ways to talk on the phone with the pop a lock people that are now running three hours late.... also apparently i'm not supposed to park in his lot for so long. well, his dumb ass had to park behind me, so when i went to leave i had to wait, and then go back to the club to call him out to remove his vehicle from 6 inches up my blazer's tailpipe. and when i went back to call him out I locked myself out. *sigh*
black eyed peas are on and some dumb kid borrowed 50 cents for one more beer before home, from broke me. also i lost the stylus for my treo somewhere in the dark bar. Hopefully it will poke some annoying stripper in the ass next week and she will require stitches. pay it forward....
I was super disappointed today. Better now than later i guess. It really has just been one of those days, where you can't quite explain why or how but it seems like the whole world is against you. I spent more than a fair amount of time waiting patiently today. and paying too much for things I didn't require. and worrying too much, and arguing too much, and not enjoying anything really at all except a few moments stolen from genuine people.
it's just one of those days that my eyes well up with tears randomly, even though i know it's silly and i know it's not that big of a deal.... it's just and pressure and boredom and listlessness which has been building up on me for quite a while now. i have no good reason to feel so shitty, and yet I do.
I'm still the luckiest girl i know, and none of you bastards can take that away no matter how hard you try.
I wish i was eating the chinese food that is locked in my car.
edit for clarity : PMS is a bitch.
I NEED STIMULATION
edit to add: or a job would probably work, also. GAAH i'm so bored and broke.
edit to add: or a job would probably work, also. GAAH i'm so bored and broke.
If I never hear of another person that is too busy, too poor to take care of their 'beloved' pet I will gain a little more faith in the world. I think people that acquire pets that they don't have time or energy for are immature, selfish people. A carpeted, temperature controlled prison is still a prison to a living thing that is bored and helpless.
My boy (see below) is so rad.
Look how cute he is. Last night we went out with my friends and he told it the way it is. "Men are lovers, and women are perpetually dissatisfied with men, and try to change them. Women don't want a perfect man, they want one who is almost perfect so they have a project to work on."
"Men start a relationship saying, 'you're perfect, I love you'... and years/months later still think the same thing. Women start a relationship thinking, 'you're perfect, I love you' and six months later will be saying, 'you'd be absolutely perfect if only you'd....' and then once the man changes to be how the woman wants, she will find something else to work on. That is why good guys have a hard time with the ladies. She won't date him if he's already perfect, because then what will she have to feel self-satisfied about?"
He also said women don't change easily because we are stubborn. And that's ok, because men are here to serve women, simply because there is no other way. Women won't have it, because we are stubborn.
So I thought about that and said, "Well then, that's a good point. Women want to be needed, we want to help you..."
To which he replied, "But that's the thing women won't understand. Without women, men are perfect. We don't need women to tell us how to be better. We are just fine with being just how we are."
So then. Why do men need women? Why do men put up with this tyranny?
"Because you guys are cute, and adorable, and we love to make you happy."
Today he woke me up to my Christmas presents. Perfectly suited for me, every one. Now i have an indoor jungle! Also i smell and look delicious.
Cheers to the lovers of the world, and happy new year.
Look how cute he is. Last night we went out with my friends and he told it the way it is. "Men are lovers, and women are perpetually dissatisfied with men, and try to change them. Women don't want a perfect man, they want one who is almost perfect so they have a project to work on."
"Men start a relationship saying, 'you're perfect, I love you'... and years/months later still think the same thing. Women start a relationship thinking, 'you're perfect, I love you' and six months later will be saying, 'you'd be absolutely perfect if only you'd....' and then once the man changes to be how the woman wants, she will find something else to work on. That is why good guys have a hard time with the ladies. She won't date him if he's already perfect, because then what will she have to feel self-satisfied about?"
He also said women don't change easily because we are stubborn. And that's ok, because men are here to serve women, simply because there is no other way. Women won't have it, because we are stubborn.
So I thought about that and said, "Well then, that's a good point. Women want to be needed, we want to help you..."
To which he replied, "But that's the thing women won't understand. Without women, men are perfect. We don't need women to tell us how to be better. We are just fine with being just how we are."
So then. Why do men need women? Why do men put up with this tyranny?
"Because you guys are cute, and adorable, and we love to make you happy."
Today he woke me up to my Christmas presents. Perfectly suited for me, every one. Now i have an indoor jungle! Also i smell and look delicious.
Cheers to the lovers of the world, and happy new year.
