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SEPTEMBER 1, 2011 @ 07:16 PM


Yay for losing 70.00 worth of bras in the mail! damn. haha thank you stupid ebay woman!
other than that i LOVE the communication im getting from all of you! And how lovely is it to see the always gorgeous Setsuka on the front page today?
As for me today i went to class only to remember that the professor had cancled todays class. ha im such a dork. I stayed anyway and got all my homework done for the rest of the week so i could get on here later! wink
Bad news is, i realized today my set will not be ready in October. For one, it will be the middle of the semester and right after Matthew leaves. Secondly I can readily admit that I HIGHLY underestimated how much work is put into a good quality set and frankly, I won't have the time to devote to it until around December. Lastly, I have yet to talk to my husband about it. I doubt he'll care. We take private sex pictures as it is and even though it's understood that neither one of us would ever show those... this is very artistic, not sexual. I realize it IS sexy but it's not porn is my point. ha I think if it's classy, shot by a woman, and i get paid, he'll be okay with it. And ya know... I grew up with VERY conservative parents, who, to this day will say the most hurtful things if i go against their judgement. I waited so long to be in my own house with my own rules. I'm certainly not going to go from living under my daddy's rules to living under my husband's rules. Fuck that. I will sincerely consider his point of view and his opinion, but at the end of the day I need to do what makes me happy and honestly I think going pink would be the most freeing, liberating thing in the world.
Can you believe I used to think SG was trashy? I seriously can't. Now I love it so much. Just goes to show, don't knock it til' you try it! As for a theme, I've totally got it. I need a photographer, a place to shoot, and some pointers. Anyone wanna help me out?

By the way speaking of my parents and their conservative views.. they literally called me a horrible mother because I have a snake. Evidently snakes are "of the devil and very dangerous" Umm let's see... if they're of the devil then how did they survive the flood? (arguing from a biblical point of view that is)So God drowns the sinful humans but lets the devil creatures survive? I don't think so. Secondly Bellatrix is NOT dangerous to me or my child. For shit's sake, shes a NEWBORN and barely takes up my palm. I'm more afraid of my daughter hurting her! Thirdly her cage is out of reach and has two child safety locks. And lets say for arguments sake that she got out; she isn't big enough to hurt Ava and wouldn't be interested in hurting her regardless! She's shy to begin with! Lastly, Bellatrix will get to be 4ft long at her biggest and that will be years from now. At which point Ava will be big enough to say "Mommy help." or "Mommy Trixie got out." Honestly my parents think I just make flippant decisions with no regard to my child when in fact it's the opposite. She is the first thing I think of! I already has a full grown ball python when i found out I was pregnant. Even then, before I even met my daughter I knew my pet had to go. I made arrangements at 2 months pregnant. How could they say such a hurtful thing to me? I also asked Ava's doctor, the pet store, and researched the topic of having a small breed of snake with a young child. They all said it is fine. I guess my feelings are just really hurt. Another hurtful thing they said is that snakes dont have feelings. They do! Trixie snuggles, plays, and even gets angry. How can they argue for the rights for a dog and a fetus but turn their backs on reptiles? Not to mention my dad had a python when he was a kid! Hypocritical? And im an awesome mother....fuckers. ugh... I'm frustrated....surreal

Comments
jayenh

jayenh

Fairbanks, AK
March 2004

SEP 01, 2011 07:33 PM

Have you ever done any pinup modeling (or modeling in general)? If not you should find someone you're comfortable working with and shoot a bunch (nude or clothed or in between). This will make shooting a set go a zillion times better, or maybe you'll decide not to do it, et cetera. You're certainly very pretty and look like you could be a blast to photograph.

Surprising your husband with a set in MR probably isn't a good idea though.

mikeyt3844

mikeyt3844

New York, NY
July 2010

SEP 01, 2011 08:02 PM

I am sure you are an awesome mom!!!!! and I love the name Ava... very pretty name

Setsuka

Setsuka

SUICIDEGIRL

USA

SEP 01, 2011 08:16 PM

You are a wonderful mom! Don't let them get to you, they are parents, they are just doing what parents do.

As for your set- I'd love to help you out! I'd even go to the shoot with you if you want and maybe give a few pose suggestions. smile And don't rush it. It is your debut set, you want it to be the best it can be.

Thanks for the mention lovey!

mikeyt3844

mikeyt3844

New York, NY
July 2010

SEP 01, 2011 08:37 PM

thats a beautiful name, congrats on your family! you're a lucky girl!!

Nuka

Nuka

USA
February 2010

SEP 01, 2011 09:47 PM

Awesome hehehe they didn't drown in the flood! Love it! Can't wait to see yur set and thanks for the add!

jayenh

jayenh

Fairbanks, AK
March 2004

SEP 02, 2011 01:13 AM

Good luck then! Keep hubby in the loop. He may or may not have strong feelings one way or the other but successful marriage by and large is more important than being naked on the interwebs. There's a difference between being oppressed by irrationally strict parents and deferring to your partner's values.

I grew up in rural Bible thumping country. I know all about the good and the bad and the just plain crazy.

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