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I fell in love with my fairytale prince in Tokyo. I left him with my glass slipper. This is a promise that he will soon be able to fit it on my foot again soon.
I seriously think I'm in love with him. The "thinking" part comes only from my heart's reluctance to be so attached to a man who's residing on the complete other side of the earth.
but distance doesn't affect how he made me feel those six days in the city.
*sigh* that's why he's prince charming. the distance makes him too good to be true.
...but i'm a firm believer that love conquers all :]
*sigh* just look at his smile...
i miss being at the cause of it...
((prince charming framed in the middle with a million dollar smile))
I seriously think I'm in love with him. The "thinking" part comes only from my heart's reluctance to be so attached to a man who's residing on the complete other side of the earth.
but distance doesn't affect how he made me feel those six days in the city.
*sigh* that's why he's prince charming. the distance makes him too good to be true.
...but i'm a firm believer that love conquers all :]
*sigh* just look at his smile...
i miss being at the cause of it...
((prince charming framed in the middle with a million dollar smile))
i love green tea kitkats.
i love sake.
i love japan.
Australian guys know how to go down under.
...but Indian guys know how to take the heat.
FUCKING HAWT.
what a multicultural experience this has been/will continue to be.
i love sake.
i love japan.
Australian guys know how to go down under.
...but Indian guys know how to take the heat.
FUCKING HAWT.
what a multicultural experience this has been/will continue to be.
in ten minutes, it's officially the 5th of march.
my flight for Tokyo leaves on the 6th of march.
i'm having trouble even comprehending this right now. i've never been on a plane by myself, let alone to any foreign country where i don't speak the language, let alone ASIA where the language isn't even remotely similar... oh my gosh. i'm. tripping. balls. not literally (at least at the moment), but i am definitely freaking out a bit. in a good way. it's nerve-wracking, but only in a way that's indicative of the massive anticipation preceding all of the unknowns of everything that could or could not happen between march 6th-16th. TEN FUCKING DAYS. whoa.
it's. going. to be. A-MAZE-ING. i'm going to take an infinite amount of pictures. i'll be in bouncing around from Kyoto to Hiroshima to Tokyo, seeing all sorts of temples and landmarks and artifacts and traditional things and museums and ahhhh...... INCREDIBLE things. i intend to be spiritually touched and potentially changed by my surroundings and experiences. i hope to expand my interest in Buddhist philosophy tenfold. i really hope to participate in a tea ceremony. and then when the spiritual and independent part of my trip winds down, i'll be taking the train (which, by the way, i consider one of the most romantic forms of travel) back to Tokyo to spend the rest of my trip with a beautiful, intelligent, polyperfect man who hails from India, but resides in an apartment complex in the city. he's been planning out the perfect weekend, and i'm absolutely thrilled to see what he has in store for me for an authentic Japanese experience! not to mention i'm just thrilled to spend time with him... tensions exploded between us on the last night we'd spend together in spring break in Jamaica... and i'm definitely anxious to see how our chemistry reacts with this second rendezvous
. ohhh and he has just THE most beautiful eyes! absolutely mesmerizing... I've never seen an Indian person with anything other than brown eyes, and i must say that the combination of the pale green eyes with the richer brown skin is completely breathtaking. he makes my heart beat really fast 
oh man. i'm floored right now. i wish i had words to even begin to describe this sea of emotions that is engulfing my heart in various waves at various moments.
but it's all good vibes.
great vibes.
actually, magnificent, luminescent vibes.
it's funny how sometimes life can begin to crash and burn in an uncontrollable downward spiral...
then, when it feels that you are weakest and most vulnerable to being reshaped as a human being, when it feels you are ready, lift you up in incredible, almost divine ways. but divine wouldn't be the word that i would be most comfortable using to describe such fluctuations. because it's all just the natural order of the universe. and this isn't divine, it's simply inherent. but we're such fortunate, multi-dimensional creatures that we can recognize the perplexity and inevitability of it all and be humbled and spiritually freed.
i saw my favorite response to the [religion:] category on facebook today.
religion: i believe in people.
amen.
my flight for Tokyo leaves on the 6th of march.
i'm having trouble even comprehending this right now. i've never been on a plane by myself, let alone to any foreign country where i don't speak the language, let alone ASIA where the language isn't even remotely similar... oh my gosh. i'm. tripping. balls. not literally (at least at the moment), but i am definitely freaking out a bit. in a good way. it's nerve-wracking, but only in a way that's indicative of the massive anticipation preceding all of the unknowns of everything that could or could not happen between march 6th-16th. TEN FUCKING DAYS. whoa.
it's. going. to be. A-MAZE-ING. i'm going to take an infinite amount of pictures. i'll be in bouncing around from Kyoto to Hiroshima to Tokyo, seeing all sorts of temples and landmarks and artifacts and traditional things and museums and ahhhh...... INCREDIBLE things. i intend to be spiritually touched and potentially changed by my surroundings and experiences. i hope to expand my interest in Buddhist philosophy tenfold. i really hope to participate in a tea ceremony. and then when the spiritual and independent part of my trip winds down, i'll be taking the train (which, by the way, i consider one of the most romantic forms of travel) back to Tokyo to spend the rest of my trip with a beautiful, intelligent, polyperfect man who hails from India, but resides in an apartment complex in the city. he's been planning out the perfect weekend, and i'm absolutely thrilled to see what he has in store for me for an authentic Japanese experience! not to mention i'm just thrilled to spend time with him... tensions exploded between us on the last night we'd spend together in spring break in Jamaica... and i'm definitely anxious to see how our chemistry reacts with this second rendezvous
. ohhh and he has just THE most beautiful eyes! absolutely mesmerizing... I've never seen an Indian person with anything other than brown eyes, and i must say that the combination of the pale green eyes with the richer brown skin is completely breathtaking. he makes my heart beat really fast oh man. i'm floored right now. i wish i had words to even begin to describe this sea of emotions that is engulfing my heart in various waves at various moments.
but it's all good vibes.
great vibes.
actually, magnificent, luminescent vibes.
it's funny how sometimes life can begin to crash and burn in an uncontrollable downward spiral...
then, when it feels that you are weakest and most vulnerable to being reshaped as a human being, when it feels you are ready, lift you up in incredible, almost divine ways. but divine wouldn't be the word that i would be most comfortable using to describe such fluctuations. because it's all just the natural order of the universe. and this isn't divine, it's simply inherent. but we're such fortunate, multi-dimensional creatures that we can recognize the perplexity and inevitability of it all and be humbled and spiritually freed.
i saw my favorite response to the [religion:] category on facebook today.
religion: i believe in people.
amen.
guess who's pink??!?!??!
this mean mug right here ;]
CELE-FUCKING-BRATIONS TONIIIIIGHT!! TANQUERAY ALL AROUND!!!!!!!
and of course.... DUBSTEP AT NEON TUESDAY!!!!
aaaand i only have one class today!
FUCKING YES WHAT A GOOD DAY!!!!
this mean mug right here ;]
CELE-FUCKING-BRATIONS TONIIIIIGHT!! TANQUERAY ALL AROUND!!!!!!!
and of course.... DUBSTEP AT NEON TUESDAY!!!!
aaaand i only have one class today!
FUCKING YES WHAT A GOOD DAY!!!!
so, if i ever thought that life could suddenly take a 180 degree turn at any given point...
i obviously haven't taken calc 2, because i do believe that there is an equation in that course for the direction that the events in my life have taken. it's some 3-d equation, like an 180 degree turn on top of another 180 degree turn, but in another dimension.
holy fucking shit. look what school does to my brain. i'm all like PHYSICS AND EQUATIONS AND EMPIRICAL MEASUREMENTS.
i hate physics, by the way. i'm pretty convinced that it's because of how my brain works. it's all like "variable x equals variable q times the inverse tangent of the angle of blahblahblahabahalaablaaaaah." ohmyfuckinggod. i can't stand it. there's like 35 different v's, several different u's, a couple different l's and j's... like WTF are you asking me to find? i just love how the questions are stated too. like: "find the magnitude of the girl's acceleration." i really would like to use that phrase in casual conversation. like, be hanging out and smoking a cig with some people in the attic, and just get up and announce "brb guys, gotta find the magnitude of my acceleration" and then like barrel down the stairs, hypothetically feverishly jamming random variables into some calculator that materializes magically from within the surroundings. maybe i'll carry a calculator on me at all times for this purpose. actually, this sounds pretty legit. *note to self*
anyway, it's fucking ridiculous because i'm in like super intro baaasic physics and i'm like "ohmyfuckinggod this shit is making the two hemispheres of my brain play twister inside my skull", but i'm in organic chem right now at the same time, and all i have EVER heard from anyone with experience in that class at my school is shit like "holy hell, that class bent me over backwards and sodomized my GPA." but, like, i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, because i guess this is abnormal and bewildering (at least to most students i've admitted this to), but i FUCKING LOVE THE SHIT OUT OF ORGANIC CHEMISTRY. i find it soooo fucking interesting. like, just being able to understand on a variety of different levels how we operate and survive as an abnormally endowed collection of inorganic particles that seek solely to attract themselves to the conditions that are most agreeable with "equilibrium." that's what everything and everyone is subconsciously and inevitably attracted toward. that's why life can be so triumphant and so defeating in such a small time frame. or a large time frame. as long as it all equals out in the end. everything gravitates toward the neutral. of course, many molecules in our bodies are reacting constantly from one state of extremity to another, typically encountering a neutral point in between, if not at some later point.
ok. i have to say as a disclaimer at this point: i'm drunk as fuck. i'm pretty sure you've only read this far into my blog if you are either a.) also drunk or similarly inebriated, or b.) having moderate-severe ADD
anyway, i shall continue.
this basic examination of the very simplistic fabrics that constitute our entire being can, i have enough suspicion to believe, be applied in a macrocosmical way toward our conscious lives. if, on our most basic atomic level, we can be reduced to a series of spasmodic but more-or-less equivalent +'s and -'s, then how, at a more complex level, are we separated from the same equilibrical (that's not a word) tendencies that are exhibited by our basic building blocks? i mean, all we are is a vast, complex network of protons and electrons operating in variable numbers and conditions. i've often heard the "consciousness and/or reason" argument, but what do those characteristics arise from? to me, sensically, just a complex arrangement of these protons and electrons into a perpetually-improving state of organization which continuously broadens our ability to understand the world outside of ourselves. following that logic, we are, in summation, a constantly fluctuating collection of positives and negatives in varying degrees and strengths. there is such an innumerable amount of the interactions between these positives and negatives, however, that we could never even begin to categorize a single event as either positive or negative. every single thing that happens has elements of both, depending on the perspective from which you approach it. it's all neutral in the end.
oy. i'm getting all philosophic-romantic.
i was all like "ohh, i was rambling" with that last paragraph. but then i realized i'm not really saying anything of legitimate, concentrated substance throughout this whole blog. baaaha. i like booze.
so anyway. i'm moving out of my co-op next year into a bigger, badder co-op with a way more chilled-out crowd. i'm probably going to Japan for Spring break. i wouldn't be surprised if, in 6 months, i come back to this blog and laugh hysterically about how confused my future plans were at this point.
i have no fucking idea what im doing.
but.
i don't mind.
not one bit.
i haven't been able to put down my guitar for about two weeks.
i'm gonna go back to that.
i obviously haven't taken calc 2, because i do believe that there is an equation in that course for the direction that the events in my life have taken. it's some 3-d equation, like an 180 degree turn on top of another 180 degree turn, but in another dimension.
holy fucking shit. look what school does to my brain. i'm all like PHYSICS AND EQUATIONS AND EMPIRICAL MEASUREMENTS.
i hate physics, by the way. i'm pretty convinced that it's because of how my brain works. it's all like "variable x equals variable q times the inverse tangent of the angle of blahblahblahabahalaablaaaaah." ohmyfuckinggod. i can't stand it. there's like 35 different v's, several different u's, a couple different l's and j's... like WTF are you asking me to find? i just love how the questions are stated too. like: "find the magnitude of the girl's acceleration." i really would like to use that phrase in casual conversation. like, be hanging out and smoking a cig with some people in the attic, and just get up and announce "brb guys, gotta find the magnitude of my acceleration" and then like barrel down the stairs, hypothetically feverishly jamming random variables into some calculator that materializes magically from within the surroundings. maybe i'll carry a calculator on me at all times for this purpose. actually, this sounds pretty legit. *note to self*
anyway, it's fucking ridiculous because i'm in like super intro baaasic physics and i'm like "ohmyfuckinggod this shit is making the two hemispheres of my brain play twister inside my skull", but i'm in organic chem right now at the same time, and all i have EVER heard from anyone with experience in that class at my school is shit like "holy hell, that class bent me over backwards and sodomized my GPA." but, like, i don't know what the fuck is wrong with me, because i guess this is abnormal and bewildering (at least to most students i've admitted this to), but i FUCKING LOVE THE SHIT OUT OF ORGANIC CHEMISTRY. i find it soooo fucking interesting. like, just being able to understand on a variety of different levels how we operate and survive as an abnormally endowed collection of inorganic particles that seek solely to attract themselves to the conditions that are most agreeable with "equilibrium." that's what everything and everyone is subconsciously and inevitably attracted toward. that's why life can be so triumphant and so defeating in such a small time frame. or a large time frame. as long as it all equals out in the end. everything gravitates toward the neutral. of course, many molecules in our bodies are reacting constantly from one state of extremity to another, typically encountering a neutral point in between, if not at some later point.
ok. i have to say as a disclaimer at this point: i'm drunk as fuck. i'm pretty sure you've only read this far into my blog if you are either a.) also drunk or similarly inebriated, or b.) having moderate-severe ADD
anyway, i shall continue.
this basic examination of the very simplistic fabrics that constitute our entire being can, i have enough suspicion to believe, be applied in a macrocosmical way toward our conscious lives. if, on our most basic atomic level, we can be reduced to a series of spasmodic but more-or-less equivalent +'s and -'s, then how, at a more complex level, are we separated from the same equilibrical (that's not a word) tendencies that are exhibited by our basic building blocks? i mean, all we are is a vast, complex network of protons and electrons operating in variable numbers and conditions. i've often heard the "consciousness and/or reason" argument, but what do those characteristics arise from? to me, sensically, just a complex arrangement of these protons and electrons into a perpetually-improving state of organization which continuously broadens our ability to understand the world outside of ourselves. following that logic, we are, in summation, a constantly fluctuating collection of positives and negatives in varying degrees and strengths. there is such an innumerable amount of the interactions between these positives and negatives, however, that we could never even begin to categorize a single event as either positive or negative. every single thing that happens has elements of both, depending on the perspective from which you approach it. it's all neutral in the end.
oy. i'm getting all philosophic-romantic.
i was all like "ohh, i was rambling" with that last paragraph. but then i realized i'm not really saying anything of legitimate, concentrated substance throughout this whole blog. baaaha. i like booze.
so anyway. i'm moving out of my co-op next year into a bigger, badder co-op with a way more chilled-out crowd. i'm probably going to Japan for Spring break. i wouldn't be surprised if, in 6 months, i come back to this blog and laugh hysterically about how confused my future plans were at this point.
i have no fucking idea what im doing.
but.
i don't mind.
not one bit.
i haven't been able to put down my guitar for about two weeks.
i'm gonna go back to that.
we painted on the walls this weekend. this is mine:
Buddhist-inspired ^_^ that's the ohm symbol in her left eye, but you can't really tell from the picture. oh well.
of course i must do the obligatory set-promoting blog since my new set is up in abouuuuut 8 hours. sooo everyone check out All That Glitters shot by the magicmaker herself, AlissaBrunelli.
don't forget to leave ya love, dolls
Buddhist-inspired ^_^ that's the ohm symbol in her left eye, but you can't really tell from the picture. oh well.
of course i must do the obligatory set-promoting blog since my new set is up in abouuuuut 8 hours. sooo everyone check out All That Glitters shot by the magicmaker herself, AlissaBrunelli.
don't forget to leave ya love, dolls
ok so...
i've finally made up my mind.
i'm moving out of the co-op, taking a year off school, and traveling southwest on a soul-searching mission. i'll be taking a car with various supplies (though not too much, the whole goal is to prove to myself that i can, indeed, live without attachment and test the hypothesis that this is indeed the best way to live) and my cat, and hopefully a friend or two.
what i need to find out from this vast network of people is whether or not anyone can hook me up with various things in different parts of the country anywhere southwest of Michigan. it doesn't really matter what... food, weed connections, a place to crash, party and rave knowledge, music to share, cigarettes, a simple conversation, cat litter, cat parties... whaaaatever, i just want to live day by day not worrying too much about tomorrow and meeting vast new leagues of people. and through these new people and new experiences, I hope to finally be able to say that I've seen enough to have at least some sort of basic idea of who i am and what i actually believe. baaaaasic, let me just say. i'll still have a hell of a lot more to experience before i really start to have a good idea what i'm all about.
because, man, i have some hints that crack into the deeper me, but really, i don't feel like i know myself as well as even some of those around me. really, i feel like i have no idea. time to fucking find out. time to break completely free of my comfort zone and live, rather than just go from class to class and party to party.
i. can't. fucking. wait.
so. if anyone has a compassionate heart and giving spirit, let me know if you can help me along my way!
i must make a disclaimer: if you are just some random creeper who wants a hot girl to stay at your house for ulterior motives, please DO NOT APPLY, because i'm not stupid. and i WILL check to make sure you're legit. otherwise, i'll be sleeping in my car a lot, so i won't mind doing it again if i feel even the slightest bit uneasy about the situation. not to sound bitchy, just gotta keep safe, ya know?
see you all on the road!
Eevie
i've finally made up my mind.
i'm moving out of the co-op, taking a year off school, and traveling southwest on a soul-searching mission. i'll be taking a car with various supplies (though not too much, the whole goal is to prove to myself that i can, indeed, live without attachment and test the hypothesis that this is indeed the best way to live) and my cat, and hopefully a friend or two.
what i need to find out from this vast network of people is whether or not anyone can hook me up with various things in different parts of the country anywhere southwest of Michigan. it doesn't really matter what... food, weed connections, a place to crash, party and rave knowledge, music to share, cigarettes, a simple conversation, cat litter, cat parties... whaaaatever, i just want to live day by day not worrying too much about tomorrow and meeting vast new leagues of people. and through these new people and new experiences, I hope to finally be able to say that I've seen enough to have at least some sort of basic idea of who i am and what i actually believe. baaaaasic, let me just say. i'll still have a hell of a lot more to experience before i really start to have a good idea what i'm all about.
because, man, i have some hints that crack into the deeper me, but really, i don't feel like i know myself as well as even some of those around me. really, i feel like i have no idea. time to fucking find out. time to break completely free of my comfort zone and live, rather than just go from class to class and party to party.
i. can't. fucking. wait.
so. if anyone has a compassionate heart and giving spirit, let me know if you can help me along my way!
i must make a disclaimer: if you are just some random creeper who wants a hot girl to stay at your house for ulterior motives, please DO NOT APPLY, because i'm not stupid. and i WILL check to make sure you're legit. otherwise, i'll be sleeping in my car a lot, so i won't mind doing it again if i feel even the slightest bit uneasy about the situation. not to sound bitchy, just gotta keep safe, ya know?
see you all on the road!
Eevie
When your spirit is floating down toward the light, you know what's behind that light? It's not God. It's me. And I'm gonna kick your poncey soul all the way down the tunnel 'til you choke on your own fucked-up ribs. Now... WAKE THE FUCK UP!
god DAMN IT do i fucking LOVE me some wubby dubby DUBSTEP!!!!! heavy, grimy, filthy shit.
if you've nevah been acquainted, or if you have been and are craving some right now, check out these beats. some of my current faves.
and Bassnectar is my FUCKIN FAVORITE so you get two for him, my lovely ^_^
ugh. MY HEART IS WOMPING.
god DAMN IT do i fucking LOVE me some wubby dubby DUBSTEP!!!!! heavy, grimy, filthy shit.
if you've nevah been acquainted, or if you have been and are craving some right now, check out these beats. some of my current faves.
and Bassnectar is my FUCKIN FAVORITE so you get two for him, my lovely ^_^
ugh. MY HEART IS WOMPING.
look i drew a pichur!
i always forget how much fun i have drawing things. then i do it again. then i remember. i need to do it more.
yay :]
ahhhh Crystal Castles in Chicago for new years!!! eeeeep i can't wait ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
i always forget how much fun i have drawing things. then i do it again. then i remember. i need to do it more.
yay :]
ahhhh Crystal Castles in Chicago for new years!!! eeeeep i can't wait ^_^ ^_^ ^_^
