Help me if you can
It's just that this, this is not the way I'm wired
So could you please,

Help me understand why
You've given in to all these
Reckless dark desires

You're lying to yourself again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the faultline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Over this. Why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess. I don't want to watch you.

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

Medicated, drama queen, picture perfect, numb belligerence
Narcissistic, drama queen, craving fame and all its decadence

Lying through your teeth again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it, put it on the fautline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Go with this, why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, I don't wanna watch you...

Disconnect and self destruct one bullet at a time
What's your rush now, everyone will have his day to die

They were right about you
They were right about you

Lying to my face again
Suicidal imbecile
Think about it put it on the fautline
What'll it take to get it through to you precious
Over this, why do you wanna throw it away like this
Such a mess, come to this, come to this

Disconnect and self destruct, one bullet at a time
What's your hurry, everyone will have his day to die
If you choose to pull the trigger, should your drama prove sincere,
Do it somewhere far away from here

A new blog is wayyyy overdue so here goes...

First off, the reason I have not been around much lately.
8 months into my new life here in Israel I have been spending my time 'nesting'.
Spending time building relationships with people around me, settling into a new apartment and learning Hebrew.
This has left me without much time to spend online, truth be told I have missed this site and I plan on being my old active self once again from now on.

Sooooo first off, I came to Israel never having lived on my own, I got here and one month later signed my first lease on my own apartment and not only was it not as hard as anticipated living on my own but I actually learned to love and appreciate my own space.
After my 6 month lease was up though, it was time for a change.
My best friend and I decided to move in together and we found an amazing apartment in central Tel Aviv..
Here are some pictures from our insane off the hook house warming party.

My SG book was a hit...


My brother (who is my twin even though he is younger than me) pulling his best dead face...
Notice: New septum ring


Me and my girl <3


We have a really big balcony so we bought a pool So much fun!! (.... him <3)


My girl with her best party face on and her pill tongue ring, me and him....


Hoodlums on the roof (him <3)



It was an AWESOME party that involved many flashes of boobies, vomiting in the toilet and falling on my ass.
Great success.

In other news I have a new set coming up... I shot it with Talamia before I left SA and I can't wait to put it up, I am really proud of it and super excited.
I have a clue for you about the concept....

If you have a few seconds to spare I would really appreciate it if you could help a good friend of mine out, he is in an awesome band called Missing In Action, they just got back from playing at Wacken fest and they are in the running to play at Ozzfest Tel Aviv.
All I ask from you is to like this facebook group and then like this music video.
I mucho appreciate it <3

The plan here was to do a full long blog but my internet is fighting with me at the moment and its not letting me upload pictures but as I said before, I will be around much more often now... I promise.

Much love
xxxxxxxxxxx

So I'm back, working up the energy to write a full blog with all my news but in the mean time you can check out my column here.

I have been busy doing a lot of this:


I hope you haven't forgotten about me.

Sometimes I wear nothing on the outside
because there's too much on the inside
the bouncer wouldn't let me in
he said my emotions were too close to the skin
and at this point a touch would feel like a cut.

I am taking a little break from SG for the first time in my three years of being on the site.
I'll be around, see ya

Thank you SO much to everyone who commented on my set and made it front page,
I am so so happy <3

Please take a look at the GORRRRRGEOUS voodou's new set.
She totally deserves to go pink...







Find me on facebook here.

Lots of love

I have been really bad at updating due to the fact that I haven't had internet for the last couple of weeks.
The good news is I moved into my VERY OWN apartment and I am now back online.
Here are some pics of my cute little slice of paradise...

This is how it looked as I moved in, it is furnished..





Pretty ceiling..



It is so cute, in the heart of Tel Aviv with a great view of the city from my window.

Things have been really great and I have settled in well.

My friends and I organised a Zombie Walk for Purim recently (Purim is the closest thing to Halloween in Israel, its so fun. For the whole week people dress up.)
Here are some pictures..









It was such a huge success we made The Times, The Washington Post AND a Reuters news network were there covering the entire event.

In other news you will find me twice in this months issue of VIXXEN magazine, I did a fashion spread and also an article about my adventures so far.

My set Choke is still in Member Review, thank you so much to everyone who has commented so far.
Each and every comment brings a smile to my face, I have not managed to thank each of you personally for reasons I mentioned above but please know I am so grateful for your wonderful feedback.
I am nearly on 500 comments and I really want this set to go live so if you haven't seen it yet, please check it out and give it some love if you feel so inclined.



You can find me on facebook here

Lots of love.
xxx

After a shaky start my new set Choke is up in MR, for some reason it was uploaded in two parts and we have had some re ordering issues but it should be all good now.

Love it, you know you wanna





I have had a lot of people asking me about the dress I am wearing in the shoot.
It is by Smells Like Psycho, a South African label. She is amazzzzing, you should check it out!!

I know its been a while, things have been very busy so I apologise for the lack of updates.
Well, after much preperation and many farewell parties I find myself in Israel, happy as a kid in a candy store.
Everything is so new and exciting, people, food, bars, clubs, smells, sights ~

Here are a few pictures of my adventures from the beginning.



Tel Aviv here I come!!



The longest check in queue ever, it took me four hours ... I was 19 kilos overweight and I absolutely HAD to make a plan to get everything through so I spent some time finding two people who were underweight enough for us to check in together and get all my luggage through.

I learned in packing my entire life into 60kgs that books are more important that shoes, I left behind practically all my shoes so I could have my precous books with me.



My dad came to see me!!
It was the first time I've seen him in two and a half years <3

Some sights....





The beautiful Tel Aviv


Old Jaffa


The Western Wall


This is at a wishing bridge in Old Jaffa, it is said if you stand by your horiscope and look at the sea your wish will come true.


I went jeeping in the desert, that is the Dead Sea in the background




All in all it has been a smooth ride with a couple of bumps in the road.
I am very happy here, I suppose it is all very romantic for me still as it is so new.
I miss my friends terribly but I am meeting great new people and having an amazing time so far.

In other news I got some great new fan art from Rydell



Please go give some love to Tarion's new set it is so gorgeous.

Also give some love to the gorgeous Skyla with her new set

Also my gorgeous friend Aeson is the editor for a great online mag called Vixxen and she has asked me to do a monthly column called ' A South African Suicide Girl in Israel - A Travellers Guide' so I will let you know when the first one is up.

I also did a shoot for SOS MC (sons of satan motorcycle club)
I only have one image so far, I will post the rest when I get them.

Sometimes life presents you with few choices. The hand of fate casting the dies of your life. It's at these times that character is defined. The choice to keep the gas on or shut her down. To push for the podium or settle for the top five. These are the choices we have in life. This is Death or Glory.




Thats it for now.
Lots of love

New ink!
Its Lucy in the sky with diamonds on my inner left arm done by Ryan 'Buster' Bolton @ Spooky Tattoonz




So in preperation for my leaving the country I have been spending as much time with all my mates partying up a storm as possible.
Here are some random party pictures..






The gorgeous Aeson, Latara, Cygan and my unusually large tounge...



We fell on the pavement and rolled around a little...





How many girls does it take to lift him???.......4!



I love boobs!!! (Cygan's in particular )



Played silly buggers in the back of the car..





The gorgeous Voodou



It has been so much fun, I just can't shake the sadness in the pit of my stomach for leaving all my friends.
I should only wish to be so lucky as to find such amazing friends in my new country.
*wissshhhhhh*

I have decided to do a video Q&A for my next blog.
If you have anything you would like to know/ask/hear about just comment about it and I will answer everything in my next blog.



P.S.... I am shooting a new set soon

ETA: Please welcome the gorgeous Cygan. She rocks my world and she will rock yours too!!!