And not to forget about Amanda,

Shelly

Star

Buddy

Kevin

my precious little baby Prozac

Ian, Josh, Havoc, Paul, and everyone else

Goddamn it I'm sick of losing friends.... Yet another one. I'll miss you Kevin.

Well it's been a long time since my last blog but things are picking up. My disability case got approved so now I'm just trying to hang in there until I get my check which I'm estimating will be in about a month or so. And goddamn it- I can't wait! I'm barely hanging in there by a thread until then. I'm currently crashing on a friend's couch until then and then I'm immediately moving into a new place. Unfortunately I won't be able to afford my own place so I'm going to have to rent a room somewhere with complete strangers. Yikes!

Damn - well my latest update is this- I just got out of a month stay at the hospital (for the 5,476th time) with a brand new pacemaker and two artificial heart valves. So now I'm 29 and I have a pacemaker. How fucked up is that?

Ok - I need to do another photoset and I need to find some photographers in or around Austin to work with. Anyone have any suggestions?

So I finally make it back to Austin and now I'm bored as fuck! I'm staying at a friend's house(who lives with her mom). I got here about a month ago and two weeks ago her mom got diagnosed with stage four cancer so the atmosphere of the house has totally changed. Now her and her mom are moving to Houston in 3 weeks to live with her dad who can help take care of her mom for the little time she has left. I'm trying to help take care of her mom and stay out of the way at the same time. And all my old friends from before I moved have either gone through rehab or had kids or are in jail. I spend pretty much all day/every day in the spare bedroom in the back of the house staring at the fucking wall. Oh- and the closest bus stop to here is 7 miles away! Unbelievable! I'm almost bored to tears. I really need to relocate and it sucks because I don't even really know anybody in this city anymore. I gotta get out man.....

Fuck yeah! I will be on my way back to Austin any day now. Finally. Screw Phoenix.

So this apartment job is coming along pretty good. Underpaid, but good. I like being in charge. Now if I could only be allowed to use one of those blow tubes with the little tranquilize darts that have the feathers sticking out of them to sedate some of the unsupervised rabid children running around here I would be set. I like being in charge. I do need to lease out some more apartments though. Anyone need one? I can cut you a deal.....

Oh my God - shit might actually be starting to work out for me a little bit... I just got offered a job being the residential property manager for a 32 unit apartment complex in Phoenix. And since my boyfriend is a plumber and has been a maintenance man before he got hired too. Sooo, we just finished moving into the 2 bedroom/ 2 bathroom huge apartment that we get for free as partial payment for our work. And part of my job is painting and cleaning all the vacancies and getting them prepped for move-ins. Finally a nice place and a job. About fucking time. And now it's off to painting for me.....

My best friend Melissa totally came through for me in saving my ass and lent me the money to pay my storage unit bill so all of my shit was saved from auction about 24 hours before the scheduled sale of it. Talk about cutting it close! But that seems to be my trademark habit - waiting until the very last fucking minute to solve my problems. Melissa - I love you. Now - back to work on trying to reimburse her the $501. . . . .



God I've missed her since I moved to Phoenix. . . . .