Oh my God,i't been sooooooooooo long since i posted anything on my Sg Blog.
So many things changed and so many stayed the same.
I left London though,an di miss it terribly!

forgot to say that on facebook u can find me under federica mia hihihi
i moved to my new beautiful house couple of weeks ago and i am simply in love with it!!!!
it's all dark wood and steps and it looks like an artist ''studio...
so sunny and just beautiful!!!!!
summer is finally here in London too,i am going to italy for 2 weeks to have some kinda of deserved holiday...
i am counting the days till i will see beautiful sky and great sea,and all my lovely friends ...
i miss so much having fun ,going out at night and don't know at what time i will be back!!!!!

Time is going so fast...my parents just went back to Italy after a week visiting me,as always i was a little bit scared of them coming here,i'm always worry they not approve my lifestyle and i would like them to be happy,but in the end ,i cried when they left and i miss having my mum around for some mother-daughter chats...Oh welll!
Working in a wonderful lingerie shop also makes me want spash all my money in sexy lingerie and i hope to get things organize to do another shoot,just for having an excuse to wear pretty underwear!!!!
Last week my exboyfriend came to surprise me in the shop,it's been 3 years since i last saw him and i was very emotional and pretty shocked at the fact that i couldn't even think straight for a couple of minutes when we faced each other.
i guess you could call him the one who will always have a special place in my heart,even if i'm in a very stable and loving relationship for the past 6 years.
I always thought that there are lots of different ways of love,and loving one person doesn't mean that you still are not be able to love another one in a completely different way.But it is very difficoult to accept and understand even for me after all these years,but this is what i am and i will not change even if the world plays with different rules..

Goodnight now,
time to dream.....

Hi everyone,first of all thanks so much for all the nice comments,emails,gifts and nice wishes for my birthday,it was awesome,the girls at work made a little surprise for me,they closed one of the shops,get all together in the main one,switch off the lights and sang me happy birthday while even people from outside were joining in,they brought me a cake and lovely presents,i was very touched,it's been such a long and hard year and i had to renopunce to many things and in this cold winter things like that make yur heart melting like snow in the spring.....

Right now i'm watching the last season of south park and i'm laughing so hard...i wish i had a sigarettte though....

Tomorrow i gotta go to work in this awful weather,i better go to sleep!
Ps:yesterday i met the actress from "Spaced",she absolutely mental and funny!
Ps II:i gotta go to lots of sessions with my new dentist,which i don't like at all,monday she will start working on my teeth,i dread the day!!!!wish me good luck!!!!
ps III:the new suicide girls book seems amazing don't you think????i guess i'll have to definetely buy me a copy!!!!
Love you all


fedy

Right.
I was veeeeery excited to go to my cousin's wedding,but that's on hold for now since unfortunately my nazi landlady wants me out of this apartment as soon as possible.
I've been living here for the last 2 years and i adored it everything about this flat and the area around ...
That's why i hope to find a place close to here,this area is kind of residential and i was very lucky to actually find a place that wasn't so expensive,of course she manage to asks more and more every so often...
So,there's that,and the fact that since i was behind a couple of months of rent,she's gonna keep my 2000 pounds deposit and i will need to give her the rest every month,so...i'm actually desperate and broke!!!

My family thinks i'm a total imbecile to stay in a city so expensive,where it rains all the time and where i will probably have my first nervous breakdown at the age of 26 -almost 27!!!!!!!

I miss my friend an di miss a little bit of joy and relax...

i'm really scared fo the amount of money i own,and i allow this to happen to myself because of many reasons,but in the end what i really really want is to start again from the beginning.

My friends are saying that leaving this house is gonna be aturning point,because it became too expensive,and in the end is probably for the best...i sure hope so because beside the enourmous amount of stress of moving out and pack everything,i 'lll have to come up with money for a new deposit and for paying back the Witch of Oz,while she leaves in a mansion with 2 Bentley and tons of money...ehehehhehe!!!

Oh well,yesterday the new expansion pack of World of warcraft came out,hope tomorrow on my lunch break to get my copy,i absolutely adore that game an di missed playing it but i had to cut down because i kept playing it for days and days...

I hop that everyone 'll have a great time,December is such a magical month and sometimes you do need to feel the warmth and the affection of your best friends and family...

Love ,love and lots of love...

I'm looking at myself in the mirrorand i see somebody who has the same eyes of the girl i was 5 or 6 years ago,only more tired.

I see the same black hole of vengeances and pupils tired of a weight that i can't recognize.Yet.

What i did to deserve this?

"If i touch here?"

It hurts.

"what's in here?What's in it?Remember."

Memories.

"Which memories?"

All of them.

"Which ones?"

All of our memories.

I stand up,i'm going to the bathroom and i keep watching my reflection on the mirror.I close my eyes and i spit blood on the sink .

If u were here now,if u were here with me,you would only hear music in my flat, i turn up the volume and i wish i could turn down the poisoneous dirt in my brain as easily as i do with the stereo . The dirt of the dream i did last nght,the dirt of the last 3000 days,the dirt all around me and inside me.

The.Dirt.That.He.Left.Me.inside.

Meanwhile,outside it rains so heavily.

It rains dogs and cats and it rains everywhere..
This city of a thousand alternatives,but all of them sick,heavy,painful.
A city dedicated to the unforgiven and the outsiders who can't bear to look at the sky above. Generations of perfect robots.

Poor little guys.Night like this are al for you.Big Empty is for you.
Your weight is my weight.But you don't have any faults. You and your black shirt with your bad bands,you put it on on saturday and you take it off for going to work on monday. You take drugs on friday night ad you live the rest of the week like ubidient little sheeps .

I miss everything.

I miss what i was before eveything went blank on me.

But i have no one to blame except myself.I wanted a soulmate so hard that i forgot what would it be the price for that.

Everything has a price to pay,and i always paid what i had to.

My cats are sleeping near me,they are so beautiful i wish i could be one of them ,even if only for one night.

I wouldn't be sad or scared then,only free.

I alway said that i wanted to be free,that this is the most important thing..but somewhere along the road i forgot that too,and the black rider took me with him and the worst thing is that i let him do it without a fight because i was so in awe of him and his wild rides.

I thought i was in control.

I thought that i was stronger.

I thought that i was above anything.

I thought that it was a fair price,that i would be beautiful and wild.

But i'm forgetting the way back home.

THINGS I LEARNED AFTER WATCHING "31 DAYS OF NIGHT"

1. It takes 30 days to search a small town.

2. Some humans like raw hamburger.

3. Vampires can't find you in a diner with the light on.

4. The main character can go outside and make as much noise as he wants without being located by a vampire.

5. you must sacrifice yourself 5 minutes before the sun comes up.

6. Small gas-powered generators will power an entire house

7. Old ladies have the best pot

8. Vampires don't use napkins

9. Frostbite and hypothermia are myths propagated by the folks who sell heating fuel. A mid-winter stroll through a raging blizzard is actually invigorating.
10. Shouting at and very obviously taunting monsters will ALWAYS get them to chase you, right into your cunningly devised trap (ok, so that's more movies than just this one).

11. Alaskans are really careless with cell phones.

12. In Barrow, Alaska, the sun comes up one day and then dips below the horizon and doesn't appear again for 30 days. Then it suddenly comes up again.

13. The gun will jam after you execute your wife and children and therefore be forever useless and unfixable preventing you from finishing yourself off.
14. There will always be a faceoff with the bad guy resulting in the death of the main character in order to save the other main character from certain death by fire, rather than running away said woman will stand IN THE FIRE with her now dying husband.

15. Men only grow very patchy facial hair in 30 days.

16. Vampires are stupid not to have thought of raiding this town before.

17. Eben was a better vampire wihin five minutes of becoming one than the big bad head vampire was after god knows how long of being one.
20. Box of dynamite can't blow house away, even a one room, if you are inside you will survive without problems it's explosion.

21. Bad guys will destroy your connection with outside world, kill dogs and destroy helicopter but don't care about cars with full fuel tank.

22. Explosion of oil pipeline doesn't care oil company.

23. Non-existent languages must be subtitled on DVD too.

24. Town with population about 560 is left by 400 citizens, which don't care about those who stayed there, that there is no telephone/internet connection with town for whole month.

24. You can have a light on in an attic, and it won't shine out of the peep-hole in the paper over the window, giving away your location.

25. Ultra-violet grow light bulbs won't fit into even the largest flashlight/lantern/spotlight.

26. Next to a wooden stake, a trencher is the most effective weapon against vampires.

27. When someone has killed all of your sled dogs, and you're sitting in your living room with your loaded shotgun on the coffee table, and your wife wants you to come to the kitchen and eat dinner, and you hear a window shattering and a sizable object crash off a table and onto the floor--take your time seeing what happened!
29. If your truck gets hit by a bulldozer with a huge chainsaw you will survive without a scratch.

30. Don't believe what vampires say, they're liars.

31. Brush your teeth twice a day or they will become black.
32. Vampires don't use napkins.

33. When vampires tell you God's not going to help you, that's the only thing they never lie about.

34. Blood is the best hair styling product.

35. Sunlight kills a vampire, but it's only painful if it believes it is.
1) Josh Harnett can shoot vampire blood like nobody's business

2) If your pure of heart you won't turn on your loved ones when you become a vampire

3) Vampires apparently speak Russian

4) Vampires have shark like teeth

5) Danny Huston can always use blood for hair gel, talk about gelling like a felon

6) When in doubt, don't ever use a flare to kill yourself

7) When a vampire says he's going to turn you, he's lying.

8) If your a vampire for two minutes, you can kill an ancient leader.

9) Vampires love children

10) Vampires can be killed in all sorts of nice ways, in a manner of speaking
18. If your dad is with you tie him up because he'll just run away and cause your death

19. If you want to fix your marrige...turn into a vampire
48. Even in the pitch black, you'll be able to spot your brother in the local diner.

49. Friends of vampires can pick jail cell locks with plastic board game pawns, or at least brag about this impressive ability.

50. Marijuana grow houses' electricity will remain on, even after the town's electrical supply has been terminated.

51. Vampire nails are a fine substitute for record player needles.

52. The noise from walkie talkies doesn't echo when you hide in the snow under a wooden house.

53. Prohibition is still in full effect, but only when the sun don't shine.


By the way,i liked the movie.
In other news,i'm in a purple phase,i bought a set of purple plates,new satin sheets and even a purple hoover!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i desperately want the Motorola U9 in purple of course!!!!
In a couple of days my parents will be coming to visit me for a week,i haven't see them in more than 16 months and we really missed each others,i hope they will have a wonderful time here,i will work most of the time but that's okay too.I love working in Soho,everyday i see amazing corsets and breathtaking lingerie,thankfully everything is so expensive that i can control myself and not buying half the boutique!!!!
My life is kinda of complicated right now,i wish i'll have a holiday because for the last 3 years i went through all kind of troubles and problems and i just wish to lie down to the beach and watch the sunset with no thoughts whatsoever in my mind,for just a couple of days even.
i read "9 objects of desire" of Mian Mian,i loved it the first time and now i love it even more,it's kinda like reading your own diary,i miss writing so much...
Hope you are all well and happy,
Oceans of ove,
Deliria

hi dudes and dudettes!
i have a question:if after submitting a set on the hopefully section,it doesn't get choose the next week,can the set be choose any other week after or if u missed it the week u sent it,they never gonna use it as a sg set?
i'm curious !
in other news...i'm selling on ebay lots of my staff,feel free to have a look here:

http://cgi.ebay.co.uk/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&rd=1&item=230223965966&ssPageName=STRK:MESE:IT&ih=013

More items will come any week!
Love you all,
Federica

I always believed it was the things you don't choose that makes you who you are. Your city, your neighborhood, your family. People here take pride in these things, like it was something they'd accomplished. The bodies around their souls, the cities wrapped around those.
This city can be hard. When I was young, I asked my priest how you could get to heaven and still protect yourself from all the evil in the world. He told me what God said to His children.

"You are sheep among wolves. Be wise as serpents, yet innocent as doves."

Hi everybody!
i just updated a new set on the hopefully section,hope you'll like it!!!

you can see a preview here:




I must admit i was upset when i read they didn't accept it,but c'est la vie they say right???!!!!
In other news,still listening to Fred Neils,i simply love "The Dolphins"...

Love you all^_^