And yes there is a direct correlation between the subject matter of the book and my puzzle piece heart.


Sorry to burst your bubble but the tattoo is not for Autism Awareness, though I did jack the design straight off the internet a few years ago.

So as you may have read, I recently got my own place!
It's a 2 bedroom upstairs apartment and Copper has adjusted very well and we even got a little kitty lovebug named PeeWee! (PeeWee Sherman 42 Wallaby Way Sydney, to be exact.)
Well my downstairs neighbors just so happened to move in at the same time. So we're stuck with each other for at least a year.
I was worried at first because I didn't know who they were, but turns out they're the cutest couple and they're around my age(27 and 25) and they have no kids and a couple pets, and super nerdy things in their hallway, like Dungeons and Dragons books and Stormtrooper bobble heads.
So naturally we all hit it off right away which is fantastic because I have lame friends in my new town(mostly just people I work with.)
So my neighbor gal and I have been doing a lot of bonding and turns out they are both fans of SG!
It seems we all may be going to C2E2 and Chicago Wizard World together too, so I'm super excited!
So as it turns out, they have a friend who went to Chicago Wizard World last August and he sent them a bunch of pictures from the convention.
They discovered that he had taken pics at the SG booth and TADA I WAS IN THEM!
Irony at it's finest I do believe!

So since I officially have my own place, I feel like I'm in a comfortable place to start dating again.
I started seeing a guy I work with, more as a friends with benefits thing than looking to start something serious because we didn't think we'd mesh well as a couple, but sex is sex right?
Wrong.
He got super jealous that I had a fantastic date with guy #2 and I got super jealous that he made out with 3 girls at one party(while 3 blocks away from me and texting me the whole night), got a blow job from another girl the next day, and spent the night at my house the day after that.
I was totally cool with each of us seeing other people, but to me, that was a little much and also put me at risk of contracting something...
Which I did. Luckily it was treatable, but I've definitely come to terms with how poorly I protect myself when it comes to STDs.
So I broke it off(before I found out he gave me something) and we were totally fine just being friends.
Until he decides to get back together with his ex (3 days later, I shit you not) and is no longer allowed to be friends with me/have me on facebook/have my number. And he's just being a fucking fucker about the whole situation now.
Firstly, I don't know why anyone would want to be with someone who doesn't trust them to the point that they have to delete ALL of their female friends off of facebook.
Secondly, getting back together with someone who has lied to you and used you, just because you are having a second child(which may not even be yours) just sounds like a bad fucking idea.
In any case, he shaved off his eyebrows for some unknown reason and he's just not the same now. He's miserable, I can see it when I look at him.
So in any case, since that was over, I decided to pick things up with guy #2, who I was really taking a chance on. I don't normally date older guys, I have no idea why, I just tend to stick to the younger ones, but I figured, hey why not, he's 31, more mature, maybe this will work out better right?
Wrong.
We were only casually dating, but I totally dug him and could actually see myself settling down with him for awhile and he said he felt the same about me.
Well he was casually dating someone else on the side and they decided to get more serious and I got kicked to the curb.
How lovely. At 31, you just did to me what my 19 year old exboyfriend did 3.5 years ago.
The thing is, I was honest with him from the start about the fact that I had a friend with benefits thing going on with someone, but was open to settling down with the right person.
I had no idea he was seeing someone else because he never mentioned her.
In any case, I'm left alone again and it totally fucking sucks because I'm a SUPER affectionate person and I just get really lonely.
Time to move on I guess.

This is something that has been bugging me for the last week or so.
A friend of mine at work seems to think that my "type" isn't exactly working out for me. She may be right, but I think she's using the term "type" in a different way than I am.
She's urged me to try dating outside of my "type" which I find dumb because I find "type" and "attracted to" to be synonymous terms.
So essentially, she's telling me I should try to date people I am not attracted to.
That's just the dumbest fucking piece of advice anyone has ever given me.
And typically when we get on this subject she ends up just saying, "I can't with you, I can't talk about this with you."
Now, I am of the belief that relationships should be generally 50% physical and 50% emotional, and I may even lean more towards the physical at times because ATTRACTION FUCKING MATTERS!
I look at it this way:
Interest and Attraction
If I find you attractive but not interesting, it will probably be something strictly physical because we won't be able to talk about anything.
If I find you interesting but not attractive, then you are friend and are destined to be only a friend.
If I find you attractive AND interesting, it is then okay to pursue a relationship because there is balance to the situation.
I just can't fathom why anyone would date someone they are not attracted to. That's a basic instinct, and generally not something we control.
Yes, I have dated a lot of douchebags, I've also been strictly friends with a lot of douchebags, apparently I just have a thing for douchebags.
But just because I generally like skinny guys with tattoos and dark hair, doesn't mean I don't like tall gingers with no brains, husky, shaggy haired blonde kids who say things like "I like you real big" and write songs about butterflies or the completely nerdtastic wanna be time lord.
I was attracted to every single one of these people, at least physically, if not also for some common interest, which typically just heightens the physical attraction.
What I find interesting about this friend urging me to date someone outside of my "type" is that I, at one point, showed her a picture of guy #2 from the last spoilered rant and she said, "He's not even cute."
Well fuck you very much, but whether or not you are attracted to him is none of my concern, because I am and that and the fact that we're both super nerdy and can sit and talk for 4 hours at a time should be more important than your opinion on his looks.
Also, thank you for contradicting yourself because you have made your argument invalid and I win by default, BOOM!
I just...can't with that girl sometimes.
Flawed logic on the art of dating.