Hello wonderful world of naked beauts and crazies!

As said in my previous post, I was supposed to have a Halloween set come out, but some things came up.
In January I had a miscarriage. I never thought it would be as life affecting as it was. I was only 2 months into the pregnancy but hell, that's kind of when you stop freaking out and start adapting to the idea of having a spawn running around and repeating all your naughty words. I was, and honestly still am quite sad about the loss. Alas,I hope to one day be ready for a baby- and have done all the things in life I want to do be checked off on that mysterious invisible list we all have floating around in the abyss we call our "minds".


Speaking of that list I got to scratch one thing off. I got a job at an amazing flower shop. If you know me, you will know that I've fallen into a great love of flowers and horticulture in the past couple of years.
On my first day I was taken around the building and shown where things were kept blah dee blah then sent home, as I would start the next day (that being an orientation of sorts). I got home and was all high on life, and grabbed my pup to go for a walk at the park. Things were fine and then they weren't. I started to kind of hallucinate and feel really weird/(awesome?). Next thing I know there are four (more or less) people around me asking me if I was okay yet, telling me I was having a seizure. I've never had a seizure, nor have my parents. It just isn't in our bloodline, but my dad is adopted so maybe they fucked things up for me. Dazed, lost, scared (2 hours later than the last time I had checked the clock mind you) they helped me remember who I was and where I lived. Since then I've had many other episodes and full on big ass seizures. I've been diagnosed with Epilepsy and I couldn't be more terrified. My darling boyfriend came from tour to take care of me. It really hasn't been pretty and we are still working things out.

It just seems like every time I try and make a come back on this site, something awful happens and I need to aim my focus at fixing my life. But I thought maybe I'd come ahead and try to mix both together.
Thanks so much for reading!
And now bum ba da daaa a spoiler or two from le set:

IM GOING TO COME BACK NOW.

I LOVE NICE PURSE.

I MISS BEING NAKED.

beep.

I am doing an inch or so better. Thank you for all of your concern and time. EVen the shortest, smallest comment affected me in a positive way.

I need a break from life. I need a break from life and some new fuckin' friends. Be my fwend?
I should probably just run away to Spain and forget all of this ever happened.


Ghost Ship on Etsy is great! I bought a cute lil Worry Locket.


Someone save me from this dreadful life of absolute disgrace and battle.

MAINTAIN!

maybe a new set will exist for me soon, if we ever get finished with it. its a little too creative! haha
the last two pictures are from it.
MAINTAIN.

EDIT: I want to change my default photo but no matter how many times I resize any other photo it stays as that one. I don't like it. I don't look like that! Weird. If you can trouble shoot, lemme know.

"What is being jaded and cynical doing for you?"
Fulfilling the comfort that gives me the warmth and knowledge that I at least know what's up in life. Of course I'm envious of the people who live laughing, sharing the rights words with the right people. I'm not where I want to be. I don't think I ever will be. Being content with yourself and your life is like finding a one hundred dollar bill at the mall during Christmas time. It just doesn't happen to hardly anyone anymore. I'll say that I'm going to go to the gym more, draw and paint more. I'll dust off my camera again, recreating things that only feed the viewers mind with an over all mediocre sheet of dark hues and undertones. I'm changing my wardrobe and changing my hair. Gathering money to step up closer to my wants and needs. Contentment and happiness is simply a superficial success. It's 2010 and I don't think I've ever wanted to party more in my life. I should be hitting the books, saving up for a new place or a new car but I just want to be free. Do things I'll never do again. Race death to happiness. To become an optimist would be a jump shot over the world for me, but I suppose I shouldn't be so close minded.

If your an optimist, let me get some of that happy breath yo. Vitamin B hit me up.
Funny, how I feel happier already!

::BLONDIE::

Holy shit I'm back and blonde!
I'll post photos in the near future. Also, shooting a set in the near future as well!
Yay! Hope you all had fabulous holidays and you didn't feel the urge to carve up your family along with the holiday birds as I wanted to! I bet 2010 is going to be the same shit as last year, don't you?

I have SO MANY set ideas all of a sudden, I swear my head is going to explode all over the place!!!!!

There are these new rules on here that I don't quite understand, but I hope one of my photographer friends that I met in Vegas can help me understand them better.
I'm still not so satisfied with my first sets, but I'm sure everyone starts out kind of rocky right? Maybe? Haha who knows. I just need to drink a little and then I'll be fine and not so shy. More creative too

ALSO is anyone going to the Tattoo Convention in Minneapolis on the Sept.18 weekend???

I'm not sure if SG is gonna be there, but I hope we are so I can go and have tons of fun!!!!

My best friend and I are going to have a collaborated painting session with a massive 4x6 canvas and another with about 20 8"x12" connected canvases. I'm really excited to see what we come up with. We've decided to tune into our crazy side and block out any normality. Meaning we're gonna do whatever it takes to have an alternative reality for at least a couple hours.

OH, oh mis gatos I almost forgot. I saw the greatness of CLOUD CULT play last night at a local college. THEY ARE SO FANTASTIC. I CAN'T EVEN STAND IT@!!#!#! AH!

Love you all.
xDawsen