SuicideGirl: Cristabelle
suicidegirl

Cristabelle will ruin yer life

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MARCH 31, 2008 @ 07:15 PM

im having sex again, but also arguing the whole time. sigh. i dont know that i can hack it in the relationship business. i push people away, i get wierd and i pick fights. i thought it would stop when i met the "right one" but theres no chance. im not changing anytime soon whether id want to or not. i wish i could keep my mouth shut, but that gets me in trouble too. i wanna bang my head against the wall, but im not much into the exhaustive drama of it all anymore. im just tired. i wanna go to sleep. its what i do and all i do when things get too hard. its a cop out, i know.
girlfriend in a coma.
(those bastards in highschool didnt know how right they were! haha adam kalakowski and mac 10)

what am i looking for?
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Wick87

Wick87

Coquitlam, BC
February 2007

MAR 31, 2008 07:34 PM

I know, I know it's really serious.
Do you fight DURING the sex?

Jaylin

Jaylin

SUICIDEGIRL

California, USA

MAR 31, 2008 07:37 PM

Seriously, I know exactly how you feel. Ugh, it's so frustrating sometimes. frown

I think it's funny that my boyfriend bought me the book "Girlfriend in a Coma" and that you mention it in here as well, haha.

Lexie

Lexie

SUICIDEGIRL

New York, USA

MAR 31, 2008 08:15 PM

I feel as though I wrote this, I can so sympathize. relationships are wicked tough frown

baudot

baudot

Los Angeles, CA
February 2004

MAR 31, 2008 08:20 PM

"When I was a young man, and very well thought of,
I couldn't ask aught that the ladies denied.
I nibbled their hearts like a handful of raisins
And I never spoke love but I knew that I lied.

But I said to myself, 'Ah, they none of them know
The secret I shelter and savor and save
I wait for the one who will see through my seeming
And I'll know when I love by the way I behave.

The years drifted over like clouds in the heavens
The ladies went by me like snow on the wind
I charmed and I cheated, deceived and dissembled,
And I sinned and I sinned, and I sinned, and I sinned.

But I said to myself, 'Ah, they none of them see
There's part of me pure as the whisk of a wave
My lady is late, but she'll find I've been faithful,
And I'll know when I love by the way I behave.

At last came a lady both knowing and tender,
Saying, "You're not at all what they take you to be,"
I betrayed her before she had quite finished speaking,
And she swallowed cold poison and jumped in the sea.

And I say to myself, when there's time for a word,
As I gracefully grow more debauched and depraved,
'Ah, love may be strong, but a habit is stronger.'
And I knew that I loved by the way I behaved."

- Peter S. Beagle.

SailorJerri

SailorJerri

Las Vegas, NV
October 2006

MAR 31, 2008 08:51 PM

That's what relationships are! They are un-wanted and un-needed drama. You just can't get into a relationship and not expect it. You either enter the situation chin up and know that you are going to have to put up with it sooner or later, (and it is always sooner and a frequent thing) or you stay as far away from it as possible. But then, down the road a couple months while you are content with your single status, enters the "right one." Don't be fooled by this, you will never find the one. And by some slight possibility you do, the drama will still be there, but you will want to try a little harder to stare it in the face. You just have to be happy that's all.

ED1E1US

ED1E1US

I'm lost
August 2006

APR 01, 2008 03:34 AM

No worries darlin, when you meet your 'cooler' you'll know it and those fights will turn into somethin else...you'll be fine, remember enjoy the ride, as gorgeous as you are, you can pick and choose who you want...for now anyways. When that right person comes along your mouth won't get in the way cause he will have choose you, and when the feelings are mutual the love is very powerful... biggrin biggrin

mahogany

mahogany

I'm lost
May 2005

APR 01, 2008 08:41 AM

Take a nap. You'll find what you need eventually.

ozzz

ozzz

Miami, FL
April 2005

APR 01, 2008 06:07 PM

Simply accept who you are and get someone who simply isn't gonna take your shit!
You need discipline, and someone not afraid to give it to you. That's what it boils down to.

Sure it will be an intense relationship, but then again, I'm sure you wouldn't have it any other way. wink

Jerryfab43

Jerryfab43

I'm lost
December 2007

APR 01, 2008 06:31 PM

Every though maybe you could try being single and taking care of yourself first? dumbass

Cristabelle

Cristabelle

SUICIDEGIRL

Massachusetts, USA

APR 01, 2008 06:31 PM

all i can say... is thanks. you all gave me alot to think about, and i agree with so much and i get it in my head but then everything else gets in the way instead

here i thought i was just venting and maybe even being annoying (well maybe it IS a bit annoying haha)
blush

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