is it me, or is therapy a waste of time sometimes? all i do is vent and dont really feel better after...so i have problems...and dreams about being paralyzed...who dosnt? i dont wanna get sucked into some big pity party. drugs dont help, i dont sleep, i feel like i run in place but am going nowhere. ive had a million pointless partime jobs...and i feel about 9o years old...i'm tired of living apart from my bf, tired of being second to the band...maybe i need a change of scenery? ive been meaning to move outta here all my life. so whats stopping me?? who knows...

i'm so blah it hurts. full house isn't helping much!

xxx