SuicideGirl: Claudette
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Claudette puts the snap in your crackle and pop.

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MAY 4, 2008 @ 01:49 AM

Cinco de Mayo is tomorrow, and for the first time ever, that doesn't mean shit to me.

Generally I celebrate this holiday more than any; I hate all traditional American holidays, and with my bazillion semesters in Spanish I've grown to love that culture more than my own in a lot of ways.
However, last year this time, I met one of the worst men that has ever happened to me. It's not that he ripped out my heart and stomped on it so much - I've been over that for some time, easy as he's sort of an idiot - but the fact that I had to give up half my shoes for him has left me a bit jaded. Long story short, he convinced me he was moving in with me, despite my concerns toward the matter, and I cleaned out my closet accordingly. A month later he changed his mind and thing obviously fell apart. I was really pissed about the shoes after all, not to mention the clothes. Oh, and his dog chewed through my $400 comforter. PISSED.

Its things like this that ruin days.

Have you ever had a band that you really loved until you met someone that loved that band too, and you listened to them together, and then they tore your fucking heart out and wrecked the band entirely? I hate that shit. You're driving along listening to a mix cd you made years back and a song comes on, one from a relationship past, and your stomach ties itself up in knots and you want to scream out of nowhere, "You son of a bitch! Why did you have to ruin the god damn Chili Peppers for me?! Fucking ASSHOLE!!!"



I met a friend's mother for the first time tonight and she automatically assumed I had a boyfriend. When I corrected her on the matter, she seemed perplexed. I said, "I don't date." She seemed even more confused, so I specified, "I'm done with it."
She said, "Well, I guess you've got a long road ahead of you of being a 'free spirit'," like I was some sort of fucking non-conformist hater.
...Maybe I am. But I'd rather be a hater than have a cd collection that's been ruined for me by another slew of shitty boyfriends. And more holidays I can't celebrate because they drudge up memories of stupid fucking shoe purging pieces of shit! ASSHOOOOOOOLE!!!



SPOILERS! (Click to view)

I came home tonight with the most overwhelming feeling of discontent that I've felt in awhile.

Too many people I know are overly dramatic, have no emotional depth at all, and never truely know shit about themselves or the world around them.

I'm too honest to read between the lines of this bullshit; just say what you mean and mean what you fucking say. Any other action is cowardice, and truely pathetic.





I'm going to order a pair of shoes tomorrow - and they're going to blow your mind.

Comments
Gaz

Gaz

United Kingdom
August 2003

MAY 04, 2008 03:07 AM

I can relate to that, Nothing Else Matters by Metallica, still cripples me, even after 12 years.

Ferretbite

Ferretbite

Mexico
September 2006

MAY 04, 2008 08:11 AM

if it makes you feel any better, it's not really a holiday for us except for one state out of 32. Definitely not The holiday, that's just a misconception, though I guess it helps give a group of people a sense of belonging.

ron4164

ron4164

Ponchatoula, LA
January 2007

MAY 04, 2008 08:20 AM

Oh that's sounds so sad Claudette. frown
biggrin Enjoy your new shoes sweetie.

aldremech

aldremech

Tucson, AZ
July 2006

MAY 04, 2008 09:56 AM

I don't understand why people react so abhorrently when you tell them you don't date? That's pretty sad. I don't date, as I am tired of getting fucked over (and giving away houses blackeyed ) and someone always has something to say about it. Fuck them right in the ass with a garden rake wink
Enjoy your shoes hun kiss

78walk

78walk

Oklahoma City, OK
July 2005

MAY 04, 2008 10:44 AM

You don't have to give up on the idea of men altogether - just search for the right guy who doesn't necessitate any sort of shoe purge! Music, on the other hand, should be exempt from spoilage. If you love a band, they can't be allowed to suffer at the hands of a failed bf. If and when needed, just make the mental jump back to the time you loved the band before the guy existed. smile

JusSumKrakr

JusSumKrakr

I'm lost
May 2006

MAY 04, 2008 07:09 PM

You know we share this shoe infatuation, right? I'm a little appalled by the shoe purging bit. Fine... much appalled.

I'm a registered independent, because I despise both parties and the system in general, much as you do. But I mostly despise the majority of people in this country that force politicians to behave the way they do. Let's face it, if a politician got up in front of the American public and said what needs to be said in order to fix this country's economic problems alone, they'd be treated like a leper. Our country wants to believe and hear that we're the best and can do no wrong, even when it's nowhere near true anymore. So the person that looks the best and talks the best and tells us what we want to hear wins. Fantastic. Flee. I said all that to say this... I'll vote democrat this year because either of those nimrods are far better options than the geezer war vet looking for further combat action.

Is a non-conformist hater a bad thing?

78walk

78walk

Oklahoma City, OK
July 2005

MAY 05, 2008 10:57 PM

Kudos on the rebuilding plan. Actually, I have quite a few shoes for a guy. Not so much in the name of fashion - more that it's tricky to find comfortable non-athletic shoes - but still I do have some basis for empathy. biggrin

Gaz

Gaz

United Kingdom
August 2003

MAY 06, 2008 01:42 AM

Yes, the baby is coming along nicely smile

My car is usually quite shiny, you should see it today though. I think we had a sandstorm in the night, it's covered in hundreds of yellow watermarks at the minute, bastard weather!! biggrin

SaraJill

SaraJill

New Haven, CT
April 2008

MAY 06, 2008 01:29 PM

No, I don't have any of the action figures...I do have an old comforter and sheet set though, and a washcloth, from back in the day. I think my family threw all the old toys out or sold them. frown

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