yesterday was a good day

i hate waking up at 3 am to be able to make it to work on time..especially on saturdays..i need a new job..right now..and it needs to be in wichita instead of an hour away. stupid stupid job..ive been trying to get fired so i can sit on my ass and get unemployment..no luck there..ughhhh

i think all my exs need to fall off the face of the earth..i dont know what makes them think i care about what they are doing anymore..but apparently they have the need to find me and tell me..just leave me the fuck alone damnit.

my life is so good..i have really amazing people in my life..im still weeding out a few others..sometimes i feel like i dont deserve the amazing people in my life..when did my life do a 360 and i ended up happy? goodness i fucking love this feeling..

back to san fran on friday to be with my boo...theres so much i could say right here..but im not going to..for reasons that are very personal to me.. haha

boob job =] hahahaha

I would just like to start off and say if you were one of my OLD friends..aka one of the people i got into it with this weekend..i would like you to know that i am NOT sorry for anything i said. if anything i honestly feel like you should be sorry for not being a good friend and understanding..im sorry but i dont have time for everyone..hell i dont even have time for myself..i like my alone time a lottttt. every bridge ive ever crossed i have built and that gives me the right to burn that mother fucker to the ground

im in shock by the way.. i am not supposed to feel like this already..fuck its so out of character for me..i dont even know whats going on with me..i have such a good feeling about it though. im a very happy girl
yippeeee haha.

im officially addicted to exercising..but thats good right? haha

and ive watched every episode of the l word..now what am i supposed to watch?


amy and i making stupid faces


pooommmmmm yummy

we are so cuttteeeee..like a number 10 cute

i'ssss a sailor! haha

my 3 day weekend has been fucking greatttttt...i stayed up all last night playing kingdom hearts too..and that was amazing..then i fell asleep face down on the floor getting my back scratch...my bestie rules =] yayyyss

i need to do laundry really bad today...oh and i pretended to be a plumber last night..that sucks...since when do toilets SHOOT water out even when nobody is touching them haha stupid apartments

3 more days and im off to be with my captain in california..,my countdown is getting so close to the end..goodness im excited!! as long as i dont get lost switching planes in denver

think ill go shower and play more kingdom hearts

go buy my two new necklaces in the sales group =]

heres one more picture!

i need to fix my decapitated gloomy =[

i need to stop taking naps because then i stay up all night and have to be awake for work at 5 am...stupid stupid me..

im listening to def leppard right now..they always make me feel better
about to read some more of my jenna jameson book..its so good

i leave for cali in like 8 days...cant wait to be with my cap'n for a few days

ive been going through hell lately when it comes to psycho guys..i dont know whats going on lately..is it just me or do guys really go crazy when you start talking to someone...wtf?!?!

stalking..breaking in..leaving creepy ass shit around that freaks me and the bestie out...get the point please..youre scaring the shit out of me..will have a gun by my bed soon

dude at work freaked out and lost it and told everyone that i fucked him for $200..god damnit i better be worth more than that..and he goes you sell it online what the fuck is the difference? haha seriously?!?! and everyone i work with goes..i dont know which is worse..that you would make up such a horrible lie..or that you would admit to paying someone for sex hahahahaha oh jesus i hope he gets fired soon


my mommy called me asking if i would buy her a phone..i told her i couldnt..she asked if id take her money..i have such a hard time telling her no..im a little broke because of her at the moment..i wish i knew how to tell her no..she needs to get clean..she doesnt really have any bills..other than electric and water..so that means theres only one place that the money is going...i hate watching her go down hill...she asked me if she could move in with me this winter to get away..i had to tell her no...i cant afford the heartache and pain she puts on me..i cant afford to have her steal everything i have worked so hard for again..i just cant do it..and i feel so bad for her..but she did this to herself right?


last picture i have with her..damn its so old..i miss her when things were like this..when her bf didnt exist and she was clean

im sooo soo soooooo very tired
too much work


heres a picture i took from my tattoo artists myspace
he fucking rules and so does my new giraffe
too bad i cant bend my arm haha



i cleaned my apartment last night..lets play a little game..you figure this out you win something

so lets say you have a roomate...and they clean up the bathroom..and by clean i mean just pick up the anything off the floor...towels..brush..you know things youd find in there...

ok sooo can you figure out where my roomate put the stuff when she picked it up off the ground?
i wouldnt have ever thought of doing this..haha i was about to karate chop her though

thanks babe for taking this. everytime i look at it ill remember what a good time i had with you.

this past weekend was beyond amazing. spending time with him gives me such a great warm fuzzy feeling. haha


i dont have much to say just didnt have anything better to do

my tattoo artist sent me the drawing of my next tattoo
its so amazing
will probably go get that very soon

cant wait until sept. 4
i will see you soon