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first: catch me on twitter, now: http://twitter.com/cherryrae (yep, i caved)
i have pneumonia, it turns out. i am so exhausted. it's not so bad, i guess. hopefully i am getting better at this point.
i'm really sorry i couldn't get back to everyone, i really wanted to because so many of you left thoughtful messages on my last entry. most days this week looking at the screen too long has left me dizzy so i've been lying around "resting" as per the doctor's orders, but holy shit is resting boring. well, i guess it wouldn't be if i was able to read or do something else productive that doesn't take too much effort.
i wish i had all of the films that i've always wanted to see to hand, i think that would be the only cure for the boredom of resting. if only there was netflix in canada.
these photos are from some months ago... i do very much love living in vancouver.
it's still a shock to me when i look at my residency card and realise that i am here to stay.
there are so many films coming out this month that i want to go and see. i never really get to go to the pictures very much... maybe just a handful times a year, or less. i want to change that. my favourite theatre in vancouver is the fifth avenue theatre. it's so old and beautiful... it looks like it's straight out of one of my favourite films. it only has three screens, but that's the way they always were until i was probably about 13 and the big cineplexes started popping up in England. i should take some photos of the fifth avenue place sometime...
the films i can't wait to see this month are:
milk
the boy in the striped pajamas
quantum of solace (james bond, duh)
the day the earth stood still (yes, well, you should all know i am a science fiction junkie)
doubt (LOVE PSH)
seven pounds
yes man (i know, i know - but i love jim carey)
the spirit
gran torino
waltz with bashir
i am certain i've forgotten one or two in there, but i have no idea how i will have time to see them all... i think some will have to be pushed back for their DVD release. i've never been so excited about a month of cinema as i am right now.
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i have pneumonia, it turns out. i am so exhausted. it's not so bad, i guess. hopefully i am getting better at this point.
i'm really sorry i couldn't get back to everyone, i really wanted to because so many of you left thoughtful messages on my last entry. most days this week looking at the screen too long has left me dizzy so i've been lying around "resting" as per the doctor's orders, but holy shit is resting boring. well, i guess it wouldn't be if i was able to read or do something else productive that doesn't take too much effort.
i wish i had all of the films that i've always wanted to see to hand, i think that would be the only cure for the boredom of resting. if only there was netflix in canada.
these photos are from some months ago... i do very much love living in vancouver.
it's still a shock to me when i look at my residency card and realise that i am here to stay.
there are so many films coming out this month that i want to go and see. i never really get to go to the pictures very much... maybe just a handful times a year, or less. i want to change that. my favourite theatre in vancouver is the fifth avenue theatre. it's so old and beautiful... it looks like it's straight out of one of my favourite films. it only has three screens, but that's the way they always were until i was probably about 13 and the big cineplexes started popping up in England. i should take some photos of the fifth avenue place sometime...
the films i can't wait to see this month are:
milk
the boy in the striped pajamas
quantum of solace (james bond, duh)
the day the earth stood still (yes, well, you should all know i am a science fiction junkie)
doubt (LOVE PSH)
seven pounds
yes man (i know, i know - but i love jim carey)
the spirit
gran torino
waltz with bashir
i am certain i've forgotten one or two in there, but i have no idea how i will have time to see them all... i think some will have to be pushed back for their DVD release. i've never been so excited about a month of cinema as i am right now.
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december 3rd 2002 i took my clothes off in a park and was photographed doing so. 10 sets of my own, several thousand comments, 203 testimonials, 300+ sets that i've photographed and 6 years later here i am still updating my journal.
do me a favour and don't read those old journals. it's almost embarrassing and i'm not even sure i'm the same person i was back then. i lived in south wales, i was in a band that seemed to be going places, i was running my own clothing business and racking up obscene amounts of debt. i was possibly the unhappiest i've ever been. and along came suicidegirls. i was a member for a few months until a certain person told me i'd make a great SG and that was that.
i've moved house at least 8 times since then (4 moves in just one year) and now i am thousands and thousands of miles away from where i grew up. i've travelled more than i could ever dream and i've met some of the most important people in my life as a result of both this website and consequences that begun with events related to the website.
suicidegirls has pretty much been the centre of my life for all of these years (not to mention my main job for over 4 of them). and it is pretty incredible.
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back to the current, i'm horribly sick again. i feel like i haven't been healthy in over a year now and as it gets better something brings me back to being ill. today it's the cold sweats, sore throat, aching limbs and stomach cramps. but you don't really need to know all this... i just want to be better.
and everything looks better at sunset
thanks for all of the birthday wishes, it really made my day!
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do me a favour and don't read those old journals. it's almost embarrassing and i'm not even sure i'm the same person i was back then. i lived in south wales, i was in a band that seemed to be going places, i was running my own clothing business and racking up obscene amounts of debt. i was possibly the unhappiest i've ever been. and along came suicidegirls. i was a member for a few months until a certain person told me i'd make a great SG and that was that.
i've moved house at least 8 times since then (4 moves in just one year) and now i am thousands and thousands of miles away from where i grew up. i've travelled more than i could ever dream and i've met some of the most important people in my life as a result of both this website and consequences that begun with events related to the website.
suicidegirls has pretty much been the centre of my life for all of these years (not to mention my main job for over 4 of them). and it is pretty incredible.
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back to the current, i'm horribly sick again. i feel like i haven't been healthy in over a year now and as it gets better something brings me back to being ill. today it's the cold sweats, sore throat, aching limbs and stomach cramps. but you don't really need to know all this... i just want to be better.
and everything looks better at sunset
thanks for all of the birthday wishes, it really made my day!
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have you ever had so much to say that you just sit back and say nothing at all? yeah, that happens to me a lot. more than even i realised until now.
and still i'll sit here in silence. it's infinitely preferable to the alternative of blabbering on until everyone is just sick of my voice.
the only way i've seen new york yet.
these photos remind me of just a few of the people i miss so badly.
traditionally my birthdays have been a bit of a wash. i say traditionally because the bum ones outnumber the good ones, but that's not to say i don't have some wonderful memories. every day i have new memories to lock away and treasure and after all a birthday is just another day to collect them. my last few birthdays have been the best. i just wish this particular one i could be closer to my friends, but they are scattered around the world.
edit: it's not my birthday until tomorrow! (27th)
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and still i'll sit here in silence. it's infinitely preferable to the alternative of blabbering on until everyone is just sick of my voice.
the only way i've seen new york yet.
these photos remind me of just a few of the people i miss so badly.
traditionally my birthdays have been a bit of a wash. i say traditionally because the bum ones outnumber the good ones, but that's not to say i don't have some wonderful memories. every day i have new memories to lock away and treasure and after all a birthday is just another day to collect them. my last few birthdays have been the best. i just wish this particular one i could be closer to my friends, but they are scattered around the world.
edit: it's not my birthday until tomorrow! (27th)
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i decided that my confused and shocked journal earlier wasn't a good enough tribute for sweet elsie. so, here are some photos of her just playing and singing, that she loved so much. i know these memories will always be etched in my mind, so i want you to share them too.
Destiny... destiny protect me from the world
Destiny... hold my hand, protect me from the world
Here we are, with our running and confusion
And I don't see no confusion anymore
As the world does turn
And if london burns
Ill be standing on the beach with my guitar
I wanna be in a band
When I get to heaven
Anyone can play guitar and they won't
Be a nothing anymore
Grow my hair... grow my hair I am jim morrison
Grow my hair... I wanna be wanna be wanna be jim morrison
Here we are, with our running and confusion
And I don't see no confusion anymore
As the world does turn
And if london burns
Ill be standing on the beach with my guitar
I wanna be in a band
When I get to heaven
Anyone can play guitar and they won't
Be a nothing anymore
radiohead - anyone can play guitar
my entry from earlier as confused as it was it was my heart spilling...
elsie was one of the most beautiful, most caring, most passionate and creative women i've met from here. i am going to miss her so much.
i just can't believe just a few days ago i was talking to her about coming back to ohio and spending an afternoon together to play some music.
oh elsie, i'm just so glad i got to spend what little time i did with you. i still mean what i told you last week. stay strong, wherever you are. you are special and beautiful.
i am just going to miss her and her little emails and messages so so much. what a great loss for the world.
Destiny... destiny protect me from the world
Destiny... hold my hand, protect me from the world
Here we are, with our running and confusion
And I don't see no confusion anymore
As the world does turn
And if london burns
Ill be standing on the beach with my guitar
I wanna be in a band
When I get to heaven
Anyone can play guitar and they won't
Be a nothing anymore
Grow my hair... grow my hair I am jim morrison
Grow my hair... I wanna be wanna be wanna be jim morrison
Here we are, with our running and confusion
And I don't see no confusion anymore
As the world does turn
And if london burns
Ill be standing on the beach with my guitar
I wanna be in a band
When I get to heaven
Anyone can play guitar and they won't
Be a nothing anymore
radiohead - anyone can play guitar
my entry from earlier as confused as it was it was my heart spilling...
elsie was one of the most beautiful, most caring, most passionate and creative women i've met from here. i am going to miss her so much.
i just can't believe just a few days ago i was talking to her about coming back to ohio and spending an afternoon together to play some music.
oh elsie, i'm just so glad i got to spend what little time i did with you. i still mean what i told you last week. stay strong, wherever you are. you are special and beautiful.
i am just going to miss her and her little emails and messages so so much. what a great loss for the world.
elsie was one of the most beautiful, most caring, most passionate and creative women i've met from here. i am going to miss her so much.
i just can't believe just a few days ago i was talking to her about coming back to ohio and spending an afternoon together to play some music.
oh elsie, i'm just so glad i got to spend what little time i did with you. i still mean what i told you last week. stay strong, wherever you are. you are special and beautiful.
i am just going to miss her and her little emails and messages so so much. what a great loss for the world.
i just can't believe just a few days ago i was talking to her about coming back to ohio and spending an afternoon together to play some music.
oh elsie, i'm just so glad i got to spend what little time i did with you. i still mean what i told you last week. stay strong, wherever you are. you are special and beautiful.
i am just going to miss her and her little emails and messages so so much. what a great loss for the world.
