Tomorrow I leave for my first ever San Diego Comic Con! I am so beyond excited.

By the way, I received a couple of emails from members this week (who will stay anonymous) asking me if I'm really a nerd or if I'm just going to the show to "be an SG". Well, I'll be there photographing and helping out at the booths, but if you really have to ask if I'm a nerd and am truly excited then you don't follow me closely enough!

I was going to write a big entry about why I really am a nerd and all of the things that I get excited about that apparently are nerdy AND all of the useless stuff I know about things many people find boring. But, I ran out of time, so instead you'll just have to feast your eyes on the results of some online tests one person suggest I do to prove one way or the other.













And there we have it. Still not convinced? Stop by the SuicideGirls booths and find out.

That will have to do for now, upon my return in a week I'll update with photos of the whole thing and no doubt stories of stuff that got me more excited than a grown woman should be...

PS No, I didn't cheat and search any of the answers how dare you think so! You know that kind of thing is important to us nerds!

all of my friends are suicidegirls (it's true)

thought you might be interested in upcoming previews and candids. also expect some live shoot photos in the future.

in other news, i am so busy that i might actually be crushed by the weight of everything i have to do, so if i am not terribly active replying to comments/messages then these might be some of the reasons:







(almost 7000 photos total (!) )








Okay, I am sure you get the picture. But, so you are not left with the wrong impression... I have been working on creating beautiful things.


(Amina)


(Nya)


(Shanti)


So, as I always say... there will be a real update soon. In the meantime don't forget to update your RSS readers/bookmarks:

spillinglight.com
all of my friends are suicidegirls
twitter.com/cherryrae

good question!

wouldya look at me ruining someone's boner with incessant use of "blur"!






also, i read somewhere else today that i'm apparently overrated. i would probably even agree with that on some days.

thanks for keeping me in check, world. i'm being quite sincere even if this does sound sarcastic. really!

edit: aw, you guys!

i like this one:

i keep trying to say something (profound or otherwise). but, like a lot of things lately... i forget what i was even trying to do before i started. that's been kind of tough.

so, where was i? busy... that's where. also, i kind of stopped the 365 because i got sick of every photo being of ME. i just don't think i'm cut out for that level of constant self-introspection. i'll turn it into a 52 weeks instead.

so, what was i saying again? oh nothing, really.



P.S this is mine and Archie's ode to cinema. without my love for cinema and my obsession with achieving a cinematic presence my photos wouldn't be what they are today...







not to mention i am so lucky being able to work with beautiful women with their own input and intensity.

Please take a moment to help out with a charitable cause, and maybe even get an awesome print that I photographed of a group of half naked, sweaty suicidegirls?



Help with the fight for cancer and those that care for people near their end. See more of how you can help on Fractal's page

I also recently helped Wendy by "designing" * the 2009-2010 Calendar for the awesome Pinups for Soldiers project (photographed by Alissa!) that helps support those currently stationed in Iraq. So, look out for that coming soon, I will of course let you know all details.

*I'm no real designer, but I wish I could be. I don't quite have the eye for it like CourtneyRiot, though.

sometimes when you love something enough you have to take a gamble...











yes, it was a bit of a gamble going with blue toned black and white. black and white has almost always been dismissed on SuicideGirls, and generally for good reason.

but, i loved this too much to not go for it. india, thank you for trusting in my vision. i heart you so much.

i thought i had a lot more to say... but for now... don't be afraid to gamble, sometimes.

i am back to filling the holes in my heart left behind by the most amazing friends that live far too far away, with drowning myself in work and escaping into films that make my imagination run wild.


i need to pick that 365 back up.

i want to learn to draw. again.

i mean, i used to be able to i know it. i was one of the top in my class for "art" in highschool and my illustrations and paintings were convincing. i need to know where to begin and how to reteach myself. any ideas, tips, links? especially from those of you out there who can do this well... help me?

i am facing one of the biggest challenges of my life right now. i realised today that what i saw before as challenges weren't really so; they were merely one crisis after another. now i am at a time where i am not on the verge of another crisis and it is time...

i know, i'm vague. hasn't that always been the case? if i could offer more insight into the situation i might actually know the answer to all my troubles. and then where would i be? i mean, who doesn't have troubles? we are what we are.

funny how, when i feel like i came to the edge of breakdown, only to pick myself back up and trundle on i want to relearn something old. you'd think with everything else i need to be doing i don't need yet another project...

and that's when i realise oh but i do, for where would i be without all of the things i long to be good at??


i look down and nothing seems real anymore


this is stronger and bigger than us - the world always looks this way to me. so big.


please don't melt away




life is one big dream and everything overwhelms me so much.