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Pileated Woodpecker
Spotted Towhee
American Coot
I've been feeling pretty down lately, but immersing myself in all of the nature around here has been the only thing that makes things feel less overwhelming.
I'd just written everything out to explain it all but it just feels ridiculous and I couldn't bare to actually post it. It all comes down to a lot of pain from an injury I've been dealing with for almost two months now, on top of too much work stress and a terribly crippling feeling of loneliness thanks to months of being surrounded by people and suddenly being far away from most of my best friends, again. Even shortening it to just this couple of sentences it's not even interesting.
There's just something about the smell of the forest and even the beach at this time of year. It's my reset button. It's a shame I have to find that button so much lately, but it does mean I've been in my favourite places for many hours in the past few weeks. I've seen so many of my favourite bird species and I've even been meaning to find out more about various tree, fungi, moss and lichen species. I just never seem to have the time to cram even more information in my brain.
Which brings me to something else that I've been trying to avoid. This weekend I turn 30. T H I R T Y. That seems so old to me I just don't even know how to process it mentally. Maybe it's because much of the work I do I'm surrounded by people a lot younger than me but it really seems like I should be somewhere else by now.
Again, I don't want to ramble on about something like this so I won't. But just one (of my many) irrational fears is that there's a finite space in my mind for useless facts. I'm already pretty full up so every time I want to learn something new (every other hour it seems) I'm pretty scared that whatever I learn it just pushes out something else I already knew.
I swear this actually happens but I know the level of fear I have about it is totally unnecessary. It doesn't actually stop me trying to learn things constantly. So, while I really want to learn about all of the other things in the forest, what if I then forget everything I know about the amazing birds? Silly, I know.
NOV 23, 2011 04:23 PM
Nooooo! So sadness!!! I love you and I'm here if there's anything I can do...since we keep planning a visit that get's pushed back I have a massive pile of stuff to send you that I should just send to you. So, you have a robot-filled care package on the way. 
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NOV 23, 2011 05:01 PM
Brighten Up Butter Cup!!
This just takes my breath away..
..It takes me back to when I was little.. and i used to play in the forest with my friends..build little houses for animals and 'dolls' to live in.. 'once upon a forest' like, you know?
thank you for sharing..
NOV 23, 2011 05:10 PM
Amazing pictures
Glad to hear it's been helping you...sorry to hear about your problems,I hope things improve!
That is lovely that you can go to those places to feel again and reset...and age isn't about a number..it's about how you feel...
Hope that you can feel better soon...
NOV 23, 2011 05:14 PM
your pictures are so amazing!
you are super talented girl!
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NOV 23, 2011 08:19 PM
Missing you terribly, wish I was there for your birthday and to cheer you up! 
I miss you so and like always I could really use your advise! Maybe this weekend you will have time for a birthday phone call with me?!? Haha
Feel better my beautiful friend, you deserve the world! 
NOV 23, 2011 08:31 PM
A walk in nature would be nice.
I hpoe you have a nice birthday when it arrives.
Never ever sweat the numbers. They mean nothing really.
Take care Cherry.
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