That's kind of what I was talking about it my blog--I feel ugly and frumpy, and don't feel like myself. I wish my body still looked like it did in my set. I'd be so thrilled. But at the same time, I don't feel like hiding either. I know you're feeling self concious, but I don't think you should hide. In my experience, hiding only makes me feel worse. but then it again, it is different for everyone.


OMFG, salt water taffy?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? Oh my lord. I know exactly what I need to send you with the camera.

Have you ever had Marini's Salt Water Taffy from Santa Cruz?



and yes. I should enjoy those moments while they last. I know I'll miss them once I'm out of here. I guess though I'm just the kind of person that doesn't appriciate things completely until they are far away.

I had the same problem and literally the only way I could get rid of it was by going on the pill.

I still have scars.

yummmmm

I will be in Santa Cruz next weekend, and I am absolutely sending you some of that taffy. Everyone in the WORLD should experience it.

Random sort of related story, but I met this girl in college who I had the hugest crush on for the longest time but always figured her way out of my league because I thought she was so pretty. I found out down the road that she actually had self esteem problems due to a lot of acne on her face, and figured me out of her league.

People who are worth liking will like you for you, no matter what shape you're in.

Sorry that's my random inspirational message for the day.

Well regardless of whether you show the world through photos, if you ask me, it seems even just the thought process you laid down up there about how you feel and why you'd even want to document it via photoss probably means you're at least moving toward resolving how you feel in a more positive way.

And I'm sure there's plenty of people who can tell you the same thing, but as understanding as it is that your self-confidence took a hit from this experience, I obviously don't really know you, but it seems you certainly have quite a few other reasons to be quite confident in yourself ... your photography being one giant reason.

Hey Cherry. If people judge people solely on looks, I say look in the mirror! There isn't one "perfect" person on the planet! Everyone has what they perceive to be flaws. Some noticeable, some not.
You are a beautiful person, I hope you see that. Take care and don't worry.

You must forgive me but I have to disagree about a number of things. You had the courage to put all of this into words and you're both talented and beautiful. I think your guess about the dairy is probably right. My friend Tuuli had a similar problem and she concluded that our food was so different from the stuff she unsed to eat in Finland it messed her up real bad. So it's "just" a matter of adjusting.

I've always felt lucky that I never had acne bad when I was younger. That said I never made fun of others in that situation cause I felt that one day it could very well happen to me.

Much like you I'm very unhappy with the weight that I gained in the last few years. I'm very critical of that cause I have gained about 40 to 50 pounds and feel really bad looking at myself.

Reading what Gatsby has written above me I have to agree that maybe stress has played a factor in what is happening.

You are still one of the prettiest girls on here

you're pretty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

glad to see things are getting sorted with your visa too

plans are coming together that should help me get out to candialand sometime later this year...
which is rad.

I have a feeling that the food quality on this side of the Atlantic has quite a bit to do with it. I want to say that it's probably not as bad as you say, but what do I know. I don't know you very well, but I must say, you're pretty damn beautiful to me... inside and out, as cliche as that sounds...

you are so so brave! every single one of us has parts of ourselves we don't want to show the world..

as far as the health thing goes... i have three words for you: probiotics and rice milk.

I don't care about Canadian dairy: you're still one of the foxiest broads up in this piece. And I'm an expert on ugly, so really, my opinion matters.

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^^It's all about the chins, boo.

I know the feeling, the medication I am on has made me balloon to an astronomical size, I even watch what I eat but it is one of the side affects and there is not much I can do about it, and will just have to deal with it, maybe I could exercise, but that is insanity talking. I am off to the Seychelles for a holiday and I am also conscious of my body, even though I am not that large still feel people may think I am a beached whale and want to roll me back into the water.

I think it is brave to accept who you are. Life is just way to short.