Not sure how I feel.
It's like I'm mourning someone, the death of a dream?
We both know it won't work, that it'd be a waste of energy to try to fix everything. I told him I was getting okay on my own, that I had a new plan. I almost feel bad for him.. I'm surprised at myself to sticking to my ground. Seeing him like that.. I just wanted to make it all better and stop the hurting but I can't. He is such an amazing guy, but he'll never be able to fill my voids. I need to do that on my own, I expected him to for years and that's why I was never satisfied. We both just gave up. That's the conclusion we came to yesterday.
At least he saw his puppies. Kaya growled at him, it made me a little happy. She's protective of her mama haha
I'm so sad. I feel drained, he sucked everything out of me. My eyes can't cry over him anymore, my hands can't shake for his touch. I just want to not care.
Fuckkkittttt I'm going shopping!
Cassh x