Don't expect to relate per se sister... but have arrived at the end of a rope unknowingly, while reaching for the stars! humans are hard to trust much of the time! We(as a whole here in America) are moving away from right and wrong, and knowledge, and towards simple satisfaction and pleasure to falsely satisfy!! Take care, move forward, and don't lose faith! As shitty as things may become(or seem to!) It's illusory... Feel the flow!! Cheers

Wow! I wish I could help, but seeing as I'm a college student myself and barely making ends meet I can't. I can say that you don't have to feel like you have to rush to get into med-school. There's no hurry, I'm learning that myself at the moment, my goal is the same as yours.Take the time to get yourself healthy before anything else. I know that you can't wait to help everyone else, but you really need to take care of yourself as well. I wish you all the best and hope you get through this, hell maybe some day we'll work together.

bless you carrina<3 (((♥)))

big hugs love

it wasnt much, but I hope it helps... take care x

Good luck on your road to bettering yourself dear You are a strong person!!!

Sorry to hear about your issues. If you ever need to talk about it, feel free to send me a message. I have shizoaffective disorder, so I deal with depression and mania all the time. It has definitely disrupted my ability to accomplish things in life. I'm a little on the broke side right now, but when I get my hands on some more money, I'll definitely help out some. I'll keep this bookmarked.

I'm also sorry to hear about the suicide attempts. I hope you don't try again. It's definitely a permanent solution to problems that don't have to be permanent. I've tried 4 times myself but not recently.

You are a cute, nice and intelligent girl and your plan for future sounds good. So I hope that you believe in your dreams, and I hope also that you will get all the help that you need.

Good luck. I've contemplated checking myself in somewhere but I can't afford it and my family won't help me anymore and there's no way I can ask for a giveout. I've been struggling for the past 3 years + with BPD and it's truly a rollercoaster every single day. I've given up trying to explain who I am and am focused on becoming who I want to be. Every day I am closer and I hope you become closer every day to getting what you want in life. It's crazy, I thought you had your shit together and you had this degree and all this shit, but I'm just like you and you're just like me. At some point you can't keep your head out of the water and you need to take a step back and look real deep inside yourself to realize how fucked up shit really is and that asking for help is okay. Good luck to you girl. Every day is a struggle. I honestly use cannabis to cope and help. IT has been the only thing that has helped. That and along with quitting cigarettes,drinking alcohol and realizing that I am allergic to dairy and gluten has really changed my world and helped my mind to become as clear as day so I can deal with this temperamental mood of mine. I use food, weed, art and music to cope. I just focus on moving forward...that's all we can really do. IT's hard fighting through the desire to want to just curl up in a ball and sleep the day away or just stray away from everyone and everything. Sometimes loneliness is so soothing.

Just a bit of inspiration for you when the clouds seem to be closing in:

"Be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars. In the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul." -Max Ehrmann

Coming to terms with the fact that you need help is a HUGE step. You are really courageous and I am sure you can make it through this. Don't give up! i wish you all the best <3

Feel better you will conquer this! <3