edit* i set up a carrina is freaking out and stressed beyond belief fundraiser... so if anybody would like to contribute just go to my . any little bit helps=(




super fucking stressed out right now. i am honestly a mess and crying spirratically and i can't seem to calm my nerves. the following are the reasons:

i need help. really bad.

1) i get a call today from my dad yelling at me bc our insurance agent called him to let him know my license has been REVOKED....bc of a fucking SEATBELT ticket.... that i got a while back and totally fucking spaced about.... it is now 456$ to get it back in addition to 55$ DMV processing fee... i have no money... i have no job...im not in school right now so i have no financial aid.... i dont know how in th efuck im going to pay this..... im like a gypsy right now an di dont have anywhere to live so im kind of bouncing around on couches and i need to drive my car to get from place to place... if i get pulled over i'm getting taken to jail and my car is getting impounded for 30 days... AWESOME. i have no fucking idea what im going to do. =( hence the spirratic crying

2) im trying to get reinstated at UCSB...i took a leave of absence this past fall bc my mental status took a dive for the worst bc of a few uncontrollable and really unfortunate shitty fucking things that happened...and in order to do this i have to pay 60$ to the billing office IN SANTA BARBARA..even though im in the bay... i have no idae how im supposed to do this...in order to get my application processed...wtf.. i just want to get back in school i NEED school because i have nothing else...

i don't know what im going to do and im so completely and utterly hopeless right now if anyone has any advice and or help they may be able to give me let me know i would be eternally grateful.