Cyber fuckers,auntie Carol's boyfriend,Gabriel(also knowend as Batata)does not aprove her sucide girl side,so I might be leaving you all soon,hope no hurted feelings but you can understand,can't you?
Wanted to thank you all for the birthday wishes,that's very kinda of you!!!!
Ironic of it all is that he's a badass photographer too but he'll refuse to shoot a set for me cause he doesn't like me naked on the internet!heheheheh!!!

Other than that,we might me heading to far away lands soon,cross your fingers for us!!!!!!
Ah,those lousy sea rats....heheheheheh

Too dumb to surrender,too drunk to remember.....
Ciao Leo.

It's official:Ladies and Gentelmen,Auntie Carol has a boyfriend!!!!
He's a jiu jitsu fighter,brown belt(fuck,I sleep with a white weapon!)with lovely balck eyes and hair with the sweetes smile...

His ears are deformed from rubbing them too much on the tatame but I don't care,he's perfect,and we have so much fun together,and we TALK too!!!!Plus I feel so safe with him,and cared for!

Meu bicho mau,amore mio,il piu bello del mondo,meu minhoquinha lindo!!!Nem vou falar nada....

Ok,so I'm telling the story from the begining the way I always do,with the lyrics of some tunes that are the soundtrack of my life...

The last blog I posted "Gorecki" by Lamb and it was dedicated to Jungle Boy,(wich you can see his guts on the pic I posted) but then things started to go like this:

Holding on thats what I do
Since I met you
And it wont be long, would you notice
If I left you
And its fine for some
Cause youre not the one,

All night long, I laid on my pillow
These things are wrong
I cant sleep here
So lonely, so lonely

I have decided to leave you forever
I have decided to start things from here
Thunder and lightning wont change
What Im feeling

And the daffodils look lovely today

Ol in your eyes I can see the disguise
Ol in your eyes I can see the dismay
Has anyone seen lightning
Has anyone looked lovely

And the daffodils looked lovely today
Looked lovely

And like this:


This could be the saddest dusk
Ive ever seen
Turn to a miracle
High alive
My mind is racing
As it always will
My hand is tired my heart aches
Im half a world away here
My head sworn
To go it alone
And hold it along
Haul it along
And hold it
Go it alone
Hold it along and hold, hold.

This lonely deep sit hollow
Im half a world
Half the world away
My shoes are gone
My life spent
I had too much to drink
I didnt think
And I i didnt think of you
I guess thats all I needed
To go it alone
And hold it along
Haul it along
And hold it
Blackbirds backwards forwards and fall and hold hold.

Oh this lonely world is wasted
Pathetic eyes high alive
Blind to the tide that turns the sea
This storm it came up strong
It shook the trees
And blew away our fear
I couldnt even hear

To go it alone
And hold it along
Haul it along
And hold it
To go it alone
And hold it along
Haul it along
To go it alone
And hold it along
Haul it along
And hold it
Blackbirds backwards forwards and fall and hold hold.

This could be the saddest dusk
Ive ever seen
Turn to a miracle
High alive
My mind is racing
As it always will
My hands tired my heart aches
Im half a world away and go.

Then I decided that it wasn't worth it and that was when I met Leo and our nights kinda went like this(but this is really just the tune,lyrics nothing to do with the current situation):
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Then it was Gabriel's mess,and I was wreckless with his feelings,I feel so bad,well,all 3 of us weren't what you can consider the most correct and our attitude was really mad,he shouldn't have come to "mess about" in his friend's territory and I shouldn't had done my "whatever"feedback,well,I tried to like him,but it's not something you can choose,can you?
So then after 2 weeks met Leo again and I felt kinda like this:


Every time I think of you
I feel shot right through with a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine
But it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind
But there's no sense in telling me
The wisdom of the fool won't set you free
But that's the way that it goes
And it's what nobody knows
Well every day my confusion grows

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

I feel fine and I feel good
I'm feeling like I never should
Whenever I get this way
I just don't know what to say
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday
I'm not sure what this could mean
I don't think you're what you seem
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be

Every time I see you falling
I get down on my knees and pray
I'm waiting for that final moment
You say the words that I can't say

And the mess was set:we went to the same club we did when we first made out and again on acid...the recepie to a mass confusion night...
And all this in front of Gabriel!!!Then the "every you,every me"tune in my last post...shit I felt so bad...

So then there was the tune for Leo wich is this:

Ti sento nell'aria che è cambiata
che anticipa l'estate
e che mi strina un po'
io ti sento passarmi nella schiena
la vita non è in rima
per quello che ne so
ti sento nel mezzo di una strofa
di un pezzo che era loffio
ed ora non lo è più
io ti sento lo stomaco si chiude
il resto se la ride appena ridi tu

qui con la vita non si può mai dire
arrivi quando sembri andata via
ti sento dentro tutte le canzoni
in un posto dentro che so io

ti sento
e parlo di profumo
t'infili in un pensiero
e non lo molli mai
io ti sento
al punto che disturbi
al punto che è gia tardi
rimani quanto vuoi qui con la vita non si può mai dire
arrivi quando sembri andata via
ti sento dentro tutte le canzoni
In un posto dentro che so sempre io oh oho oh oh

io ti sento c'ho il sole dritto in faccia
e sotto la mia buccia
che cosa mi farai?

And now I need to urge for patience,virtue I never really had,guess need to see what's going to happen...
Any suggestion?

Sucker love is heaven sent.
You pucker up, our passions spent.
My hearts a tart, your bodys rent.
My bodys broken, yours is spent.

Carve your name into my arm.
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed.
Cuz theres nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.

Sucker love, a box I choose.
No other box I choose to use.
Another love I would abuse,
No circumstances could excuse.

In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone.
Cuz theres nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every me...he

Sucker love is known to swing.
Prone to cling and waste these things.
Pucker up for heavens sake.
Theres never been so much at stake.

I serve my head up on a plate.
Its only comfort, calling late.
Cuz theres nothing else to do,
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every me...he

Every me and every you,
Every me...he

Like the naked leads the blind.
I know Im selfish, Im unkind.
Sucker love I always find,
Someone to bruise and leave behind.

All alone in space and time.
Theres nothing here but what heres heres mine.
Something borrowed, something blue.
Every me and every you.
Every me and every you,
Every me...he

Every me and every you,
Every me...he



I'm sorry,I really am...

if i should die this very moment
i wouldn't fear
for i've never known completeness
like being here
wrapped in the warmth of you
loving every breath of you
still my heart this moment
or it might burst

could we stay right here
'til the end of time, 'til the earth stops turning
wanna love you 'til the seas run dry
i've found the one i've waited for

all this time i've loved you
and never known your face
all this time i've missed you
and searched this human race
here is true peace
here my heart knows calm
safe in your soul
bathed in your sighs
wanna stay right here
'til the end of time, 'til the earth stops turning
gonna love you 'til the seas run dry
i've found the one i've waited for
the one i've waited for

all i've known
all i've done
all i've felt was leading to this
all i've known
all i've done
all i've felt was leading to this
wanna stay right here
'til the end of time, 'til the earth stops turning
gonna love you 'til the seas run dry
i've found the one i've waited for
the one i've waited for

wanna stay right here
'til the end of time, 'til the earth stops turning
gonna love you 'til the seas run dry
i've found the one i've waited for
the one i've waited for

the one i've waited for...


Per te tutti i "bacini"del mondo,"poverino" mio....Grazie d'esistere...

Welcome to the Jungle...

This entry is ALL to Jungle Boy...my jungle angel,your skin is like a blessing...

"Shine on forever,shine on benevolent son.Shine upon the broken,shine until the two become one"..

BREATHE IN UNION... BREATHE IN UNION...BREATHE IN UNION....


ps-I'm trying to attach a pic of me but my computer seems not to respond to my comands...
Maybe is the fever I have right now....

"Forza tutti all'arrembaggio,vincerà chi ha più coraggio!"...



That's us and the ship is the Tocorimé!!! Go and check it out if you feel like and if you feeli like coming aboard I'll be more than happy to take you around the wonderful Green Coast !!!
www.tocorime.net (I'm sorry I'm a dumb idiot and I don't know how to put those pink letters that you can link right away!Mea Culpa,Mea Culpa!)

Some people that need to be named and that I want to send my public and explicit love
Markus: Oh,Captain,my Captain!Will follow you until the world ends!Remind me to bring some rum and mint to make some mojitos... THANK YOU SO SO SO SO MUCH FOR EVERYTHING!!!!
Jungle Boy:"Enquanto isso,na sala de justiça"...heheheheheh You're the best Post Modern Mogli ever!!!More and more hikking and tracks with no shoes,alright?
Lina:Sweetheart,glad that I found you in my path!
Good/Bad "News": "Si que dá","só sei em Danish"...I make better pasta than you do,you lousy half italian!!!I'm a better half italian than you!!!heheheh
Paddy:last but not least,thanks for being such a good partner,perfect team and the Maya Gods for sure have good winds for us!!! Thanks for helping me wash my soul and thanks for being such a good friend,this is just begining,my brother...

..."Il tesoro non'è più un miraggio"...


And there's this song from this very famous Brazilian band called Titãs (titans)that I heard recently and the lyrics are like the materialization of my emotions.
I have a new aurea,a new energie,like the ocean had washed away all those dark things inside of me,it's like taking a deep breath and inhaling fresh salty oxigen after stuck in traffic breathing smog...
I'll translate this lyric cause I guess it could be inspiring for so many others,the ones going throught the same phase,the ones who will be in a while and also for the one who are wondering what the fuck am I talking about or that are still fascinated by the "castle",like I was for so many years...
Ladies and gentelmen,I proudly introduce you to Titãs,The Blinds in The Castle


I no longer want to lie
Or use nails that only cause pain
I see no longer the hell that fascinated me
I say farewell to the blinds in the castle and go
walking by foot until I find a path,a way
Cause I am

I no longer want to sleep
With my eyes open
The sun warms me up
I don't expect that a gun will come and explode
On my fronhead
It was announced
Faith walking slowly by foot
Fate runs away from the bad luck
That remained

And if you can look at me
If you want to find me
And if you bring your home along
I will take care of it
I will take care of your garden
I will take care of it
I will take very good care of it
I will take care of your supper
I will take care of the sea and the sky
And will take care of you and me...

This one is dedicated to myself,200%!!!

Wish me all good winds and safe travels,my cyber pirate fuckers!!!null

"...and together,we'll be like pirates and sail the seven seas and we're going to find treasures..or maybe looooooveeeeee"....
That's Mitsu's song with his imaginary guitar and then I decided that I needed something in my life to straight me out and so I left and now I became a post modern pirate!!!!
Oh,freedom at last....my soul is becoming clean at last....feels great....



Hope one of you get my message in the bottle....

Here comes johnny yen again
With the liquor and drugs
And the flesh machine
Hes gonna do another strip tease.
Hey man, whered ya get that lotion?
Ive been hurting since Ive bought the gimmick
About something called love
Yeah, something called love.
Well, thats like hypnotizing chickens.

Well, Im just a modern guy
Of course, Ive had it in the ear before.
I have a lust for life
cause of a lust for life.

Im worth a million in prizes
With my torture film
Drive a gto
Wear a uniform
All on a government loan.
Im worth a million in prizes
Yeah, Im through with sleeping on the sidewalk
No more beating my brains
No more beating my brains
With liquor and drugs
With liquor and drugs.

Well, Im just a modern guy
Of course, Ive had it in my ear before
Well, Ive a lust for life (lust for life)
cause of a lust for life (lust for life)
I got a lust for life
Got a lust for life
Oh, a lust for life
Oh, a lust for life
A lust for life
I got a lust for life
Got a lust for life.

Well, Im just a modern guy
Of course, Ive had it in my ear before
Well, Ive a lust for life
cause Ive a lust for life.

Here comes johnny yen again
With the liquor and drugs
And the flesh machine
Hes gonna do another strip tease.
Hey man, whered ya get that lotion?
Your skin starts itching once you buy the gimmick
About something called love
Love, love, love
Well, thats like hypnotizing chickens.

Well, Im just a modern guy
Of course, Ive had it in the ear before
And Ive a lust for life (lust for life)
cause Ive a lust for life (lust for life)
Got a lust for life
Yeah, a lust for life
I got a lust for life
A lust for life
Got a lust for life
Yeah a lust for life
I got a lust for life
Lust for life
Lust for life
Lust for life
Lust for life
Lust for life

Yeah,Carol is back! Even worse than before!!!!

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