SuicideGirl: Callioppe
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Callioppe dreams of flight

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FEBRUARY 29, 2012 @ 06:14 AM


I've been putting this off for a long time but now the words are getting so tangled in my brain that they're steadily making their way down my throat, into my chest, and constricting my air ways. After three beautiful years together my boyfriend and I decided to go our separate ways. So much has happened between then and now, but I need to compartmentalize this first.



Sometimes things just fall apart. There is something gnawing and awful about the slow decay. I'm mourning the amputation of a limb, the fantom pains are still bothering me. I know with time I will heal, but for now I'm walking around open and exposed. The wound is so fresh.

"One has no right to inflict one's sadness on other people. And no right, of course, to pretend that one isn't sad. One just has to accept one's grief and one's absurd attempts to be a Stoic." Aldous Huxley, Island















Luckily, my life has been consumed

















Until next time

C






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Totem

Totem

I'm lost
December 2008

FEB 29, 2012 06:17 AM

Hugs xxx

Charleston

Charleston

I'm lost
July 2004

FEB 29, 2012 06:23 AM

I am sorry for your sadness.
May you heal with happiness,
and care to go on.

be well

suispud1

suispud1

Dallas, TX
January 2010

FEB 29, 2012 06:23 AM

Discussion with such wisdom and clarity means you're stronger than you think. You'll get through it. Don't doubt me.

Chrysis

Chrysis

SUICIDEGIRL

Ohio, USA

FEB 29, 2012 06:43 AM

Oh, sweet girl. For such few words, this blog twisted my gut up and made me hurt for you. I've got confidence in your ability to get through no slower or faster than your own perfect pace, but I'm sorry for your need to. I hope you manage find your safe places, mentally, and stay there so that the damage is minimal. Sending love.

Nitroboy

Nitroboy

Canada
May 2009

FEB 29, 2012 07:01 AM

sorry to read that frown look foward and taste the freedom of beeing single and look a bit around im sure you will find someone as awesome and maybe even more soon!! be positive kiss

Tactical

Tactical

I'm lost
August 2009

FEB 29, 2012 07:13 AM

You are amazing, I find it best to cauterize, trying to leave something open just leads to things you would rather not have or do

That its just me though I hope you heal quickly and find what you need. distractions can be life savers, you are gonna come through this with flying colors, I know it is easy to say but try not to dwell on it too much, learn from it and look ahead not behind

TimmyToe

TimmyToe

Brooklyn, NY
August 2007

FEB 29, 2012 07:14 AM

so sorry to hear that, but all your points are certainly valid. One day you'll gain a clarity that you can't possibly know right now. And in that clarity you'll know yourself better than any one else ever could. After all, you're the only person you have to be with 24/7 for the rest of your life, so knowing you is far greater an accomplishment than knowing another. Only then can you truly come to share your life with another.... right? I hope all thats true, cuz other wise, I'm gonna be one lonely sun-o-abitch lol.

fake111

fake111

Bushkill, PA
October 2002

FEB 29, 2012 07:19 AM

xo

xHIGHONLIFEx

xHIGHONLIFEx

USA
July 2009

FEB 29, 2012 07:57 AM

Black Jelly fish at the Stephen Birch aquarium? Peaceful place....

tattooedbuddhist

tattooedbuddhist

I'm lost
January 2012

FEB 29, 2012 08:40 AM

I'm really sorry about what happened to you. Having not been in a relationship yet I can only imagine how you're currently feeling. Perhaps Buddha's words convey a little comfort to you

"Everything changes, nothing remains without change ..."

Vedere

Vedere

Italy
April 2006

FEB 29, 2012 08:45 AM

I'm sure if we could hear your heart it mat sound like the first chord of:



Even though your heart is fraying at the seams I hope you pull it back together.

x

BrokenEnglish

BrokenEnglish

United Kingdom
June 2010

FEB 29, 2012 09:00 AM

I'm really sorry to hear you and your boyfriend have parted. It can be a rollercoaster of emotions when you split from a lengthy relationship, I hope you're ok and can find some happiness again soon.

Although we are only random internet friends, I honestly do regard you as one of my favourite people I interact with online. You always take the time to respond to comments and messages, and really seem like such a lovely person. I send you lots of love, stoned hugs and good wishes. kiss

DrSocks

DrSocks

USA
January 2004

FEB 29, 2012 09:31 AM

Damn! Chin up and stay away from creepy people

thursday7

thursday7

Gardena, CA
March 2007

FEB 29, 2012 09:45 AM

I'm sorry for how you feel. Be thankful for the love you have, had and gain in the future.

Hyatt

Hyatt

Australia
November 2008

FEB 29, 2012 10:17 AM

Oh Callioppe! So many hugs for you. Even though you must feel the loss so acutely now, I hope that it passes soon, so you can feel full again with all the joy the world has to offer you. ♥

PS - that Huxley quote is gold.

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