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I need advice.
I like someone and I'm trying to figure out whether I should initiate something or not. (I have never asked anyone out before.) My plan thus far has been to just ask him if he would like to hang out sometime, something casual and friendly, but I still haven't found the right moment or more importantly the courage. And of course there is always the fear of rejection. I also don't know him that well, just someone I chat with on a semi-regular account, just someone I have particularly good chemistry with, someone I'd like to see more of. I'm just afraid it might come off a little presumptuous or overbearing (my mother, bless her soul, has done everything to engrained in me that men find it emasculating when women take the reins). The intelligent part of me tells me not to do it. But the romantic part of me tells me to go for it.
What do you think?
I like someone and I'm trying to figure out whether I should initiate something or not. (I have never asked anyone out before.) My plan thus far has been to just ask him if he would like to hang out sometime, something casual and friendly, but I still haven't found the right moment or more importantly the courage. And of course there is always the fear of rejection. I also don't know him that well, just someone I chat with on a semi-regular account, just someone I have particularly good chemistry with, someone I'd like to see more of. I'm just afraid it might come off a little presumptuous or overbearing (my mother, bless her soul, has done everything to engrained in me that men find it emasculating when women take the reins). The intelligent part of me tells me not to do it. But the romantic part of me tells me to go for it.
What do you think?
Two words; long underwear. It's fucking cold here.
I should be working on the countless papers I've have accumulating, but I'm here instead, wasting time.
Some photographs I picked up today,
somewhere?
we drove all the way from Los Angeles to New Orleans in a mini cooper.
mis hombres y yo.
san antonio, tx.
az.
tropical storm fay.
full moon.
my old apt. in the barrio.
el barrio.
more fay.
el paso, tx.
and
something I shot last weekend, that we'll hopefully see more of soon,
an early birthday present for myself,
me now, trying to keep warm,
I can't believe October is already over.
I should be working on the countless papers I've have accumulating, but I'm here instead, wasting time.
Some photographs I picked up today,
somewhere?
we drove all the way from Los Angeles to New Orleans in a mini cooper.
mis hombres y yo.
san antonio, tx.
az.
tropical storm fay.
full moon.
my old apt. in the barrio.
el barrio.
more fay.
el paso, tx.
and
something I shot last weekend, that we'll hopefully see more of soon,
an early birthday present for myself,
me now, trying to keep warm,
I can't believe October is already over.
I replanted my garden; basil, orange mint, sweet peas, elephant ears, creeping rosemary, bee balm, patchouli and pennyroyal. It is looking gorgeous again, maybe even better than before. One of my corn plants managed to survive and has grown about a foot! My favorite plant right now is the sweet pea I'm weaving into the front fence.
Recently I began drinking coffee again, a vice I warded off years ago. Caffeine and I have never really been great friends, coffee gives me anxiety and soda makes me fucking sick. But recently I kinda started experimenting with espresso drinks and to my surprise I've been getting a really great unanxious bust of energy that is perfect for work. But here I am on a Sunday, not at work, not really tired, craving coffee?
I am swamped with homework. I have three essays to write today and all I've come up with so far is about half a page of unorganized thoughts, due monday by 10 am. Midterms begin next week but I can't remember learning anything yet this semester. I can already tell it's going to be a long week.
My lost roll of film has been found and is being developed as we speak. I finally found somewhere to develop professional film in the city. I'll post them soon.
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Recently I began drinking coffee again, a vice I warded off years ago. Caffeine and I have never really been great friends, coffee gives me anxiety and soda makes me fucking sick. But recently I kinda started experimenting with espresso drinks and to my surprise I've been getting a really great unanxious bust of energy that is perfect for work. But here I am on a Sunday, not at work, not really tired, craving coffee?
I am swamped with homework. I have three essays to write today and all I've come up with so far is about half a page of unorganized thoughts, due monday by 10 am. Midterms begin next week but I can't remember learning anything yet this semester. I can already tell it's going to be a long week.
My lost roll of film has been found and is being developed as we speak. I finally found somewhere to develop professional film in the city. I'll post them soon.
Everyday after work I come home and the first thing I do is water my garden, todayI came home to find all my plants cut down. Everything, my basil, my rosemary, my pumpkins, corn, onions, just everything. I know things can be replaced and this may seem slightly trial to some but I raised everything in my garden from a little seed and I really put a lot of love into my garden and now it's almost to late in the season to start new vegetables. I want to cry.
I am just fucking livid.
I am just fucking livid.
Before I get into my travels and running from hurricanes, I want to know when was the last time you climbed a tree?
I've been doing a lot of climbing lately and I believe it's working to my advantage.
To tell you the truth, I don't think I've ever been so happy with my life. I can hardly believe the things I've done and seen in the past month. The best part about it is that I can accredit it all to myself. I deserve everything that I have achieved, I've created my existence and accomplished my goals, mostly through down right stubbornness but I did it none the less. I could not be happier.
School is great so far (other than the common disappointment I get beginning every semester when I realize that more than half the students in my classes would rather not be there). I am so enjoying the live oaks, walking through historic halls, sitting in classes rooms were countless intellectuals before me have studies more than you could imagine. My major has become my life, I live and breath it, which as you could imagine makes school really awesome. My only worry with school is that I won't be able to afford it. I got into a program this semester that enabled me to pay about 6% of the actual tuition, unfortunately it's not a program I can stay in for long.
I began working at a little coffee place. The job is great and the pay even better. I planted pumpkins, basil, rosemary and corn below my porch. I got rid of my car and bought a bus pass, knitting and reading on the street car has replaces anxiety over sitting in traffic and paying for gas. I sleep better now.
The best part is the city. I wish I knew words eloquent enough to explain this city.
As far as the hurricane goes, everything is mostly in order, overall it was just a very expensive experience. I'm just greatful to be home.
So I plan to shoot a set soon and I'm thinking about shooting it myself. I've been kinda dragging my feet over it though because lately I haven't been feeling particularly sexy, more awkward and childish, which is what I've always been I guess. I also haven't been that excited about the sets I've been seeing lately which makes me a little less motivated. I guess we'll see, eh?
I will be in Austin, TX in two weeks for Austin City Limits. I got backstage passes to The Mars Volta and I've never been to Austin so I'm very excited. I love my new pattern of running about all over country.
Here are a few photos I took during my travels. I cannot find one roll of film which was the roll I thought was going to come out the best, hopefully it'll turn up. Enjoy.
I've been doing a lot of climbing lately and I believe it's working to my advantage.
To tell you the truth, I don't think I've ever been so happy with my life. I can hardly believe the things I've done and seen in the past month. The best part about it is that I can accredit it all to myself. I deserve everything that I have achieved, I've created my existence and accomplished my goals, mostly through down right stubbornness but I did it none the less. I could not be happier.
School is great so far (other than the common disappointment I get beginning every semester when I realize that more than half the students in my classes would rather not be there). I am so enjoying the live oaks, walking through historic halls, sitting in classes rooms were countless intellectuals before me have studies more than you could imagine. My major has become my life, I live and breath it, which as you could imagine makes school really awesome. My only worry with school is that I won't be able to afford it. I got into a program this semester that enabled me to pay about 6% of the actual tuition, unfortunately it's not a program I can stay in for long.
I began working at a little coffee place. The job is great and the pay even better. I planted pumpkins, basil, rosemary and corn below my porch. I got rid of my car and bought a bus pass, knitting and reading on the street car has replaces anxiety over sitting in traffic and paying for gas. I sleep better now.
The best part is the city. I wish I knew words eloquent enough to explain this city.
As far as the hurricane goes, everything is mostly in order, overall it was just a very expensive experience. I'm just greatful to be home.
So I plan to shoot a set soon and I'm thinking about shooting it myself. I've been kinda dragging my feet over it though because lately I haven't been feeling particularly sexy, more awkward and childish, which is what I've always been I guess. I also haven't been that excited about the sets I've been seeing lately which makes me a little less motivated. I guess we'll see, eh?
I will be in Austin, TX in two weeks for Austin City Limits. I got backstage passes to The Mars Volta and I've never been to Austin so I'm very excited. I love my new pattern of running about all over country.
Here are a few photos I took during my travels. I cannot find one roll of film which was the roll I thought was going to come out the best, hopefully it'll turn up. Enjoy.
After weeks of running around the country, I am finally home.
But not for long.
I have one week to pack my apartment and then I'm on to the next location. It's been my dream for a while to leave California, and finally in a few days I will on my way to Louisiana. I am overwhelmed with excitement. A few days I ago I signed a lease on a beautiful little house with a yard and porch. I cannot wait to garden. I begin university at the end of August, I must be a huge nerd because taking the next step in my education is secretly the most exciting aspect of my move.
There are, however, always repercussion to change. I will miss my friends and family a lot.
I mentioned in a previous that I had begun writing for a local magazine; here are a couple samples.
But not for long.
I have one week to pack my apartment and then I'm on to the next location. It's been my dream for a while to leave California, and finally in a few days I will on my way to Louisiana. I am overwhelmed with excitement. A few days I ago I signed a lease on a beautiful little house with a yard and porch. I cannot wait to garden. I begin university at the end of August, I must be a huge nerd because taking the next step in my education is secretly the most exciting aspect of my move.
There are, however, always repercussion to change. I will miss my friends and family a lot.
I mentioned in a previous that I had begun writing for a local magazine; here are a couple samples.
Because I am moving to a remote area with no official photographer, I would like to start photographing girls in the area. If there are any girls in Louisiana who would like to shoot a set, hit me up, I have a professional camera and a fairly good eye for photography.
I've been experimenting with some new film and developing processes. Here are some recent photos:
I've begun story boarding for my next project; a comic book!
I miss Bee.
I will try and post a picture of my new house later.
