Ok..so i am about to do another set on Dec 26th ...but i need a ride cause i know that i won't have my license by then...aaggghhhh..i'm sure i will find a ride though but i hate this having to depend on others..soo..if any of the NC SG's can give me a ride that would be good but until then i continue my search..i am really excited though..to meet other SG's finally..it ought to be fun. But what to do for New Year's i still have'nt figured that out either. But that's it for now.

Love,
~Butterfly Suicide~

Ok people so i know it's been a while but i'm here..i finally found out the right part for my and it will be here in like two weeks :WOOT:. I am talkin to a girl i use to be friends with we always had this love/hate relationship ..i was missing her like crazy we talk things over at a party adn so were friends again I see some other modeling agencies i want to try out for...no i'm not leaving SG i would'nt do that..but i do want to try for some others so i guess i need to email SG and tell them that and all that Jazz. Halloween was a ball two days before Halloween i went over a friends house she was having a party got kinda drunk and atlk to a bunch of old friends and so people i was thinking about. It was a Meat-Free party which i was happy about..i told my friend to make some meat sandwiches for others but when everyone got there all they did was drink anyways so it really did'nt matter. I want a girlfriend or something i'm getting lonely over here but by next October at the latest i should be out of my moms place it's just hard when you've already lived by yourself then you have to move back in with your parent..but it's not that bad i just want to be on my own. Then after the first party me and my good friend nikki went to charlotte and had a ball..went out to the clubs and started butty dancin' with random people but they did'nt mind. I was really drunk then though cause me, nikky, her cousin and a bunch of others had a pre-party and her cousins house had jello shots..which i need to find other jello now cause i can't eat the geltin..but anyways mixed that with everclear and that will fuck your ass up fo sho..we went to the Breakfast club it was'nt that many people cause it was a week day and all but it was still fun..the girl in a purple fishnet shirt showedme her boobs and then shook them in my face they were nice..gosh i'm such a whore with girls..On New Years me and nikki adn others are going back down to Charlotte i can't wait. On the something else i'm sooo thinking about getting my back & neck pierce i think its sexy i want the bottom of my navel that was the only piercing that did'nt really feel that good..but it was'nt really really bad. But that's it for now and i love everyone.

Love & kisses,
~Butterfly Suicide~

Hey everyone..so i am finally going to do another set..this sunday..i want to do 2 sets i have an idea for the second now so i will probably do it..i am soooo excited i hope that it gets excepted. I want to do one with another girl but i better start asking around now since it is already friday..but i just realized that i wanted to do one with another girl. I'll be in Chapel Hill- Carrboro area so if any other SG's are reading and would like to be in it..send me a message so we can get in contact with each other. My car might finally be getting fixed..and i am starting ro get my soap business thingy started so i can out my stuff up on here. I want to go to Scarowinds really bad but i don't have the money for it...uuggghhh..maybe i'll sneak in or something..haha..we'll see but i'm going to go and send some other girls some messages about the set...*CROOS YOUR FINGERS FOR ME*

Love,
~Butterfly Suicide~

ok..so i am back from my little trip is was fun i went to a couple clubs got kicked out..and then went to another club where i was about to kick some guys ass for my friend. I have signed up to be in the burlesque show in charlotte i hope i get it ..it will be my first show ever..cross your fingers for me!!!!! And on October 10 i will be 21 whoa..i'm getting old..haha..but i will be going now ..but i will be back later though.

love you,
~Butterfly Suicide~

ok..so actually i wrote the other day but the computer fuck up..so hey everybody..what the fuck is up..ummm.let's see i am going to South Carolina next weekend with my good friends. And i never went to Ohio because my brother never got back with me..so whatever with that i'm sure i will go at some point. I finally got my starter in my car but now i can't get one screw in so i am goign to get someone else to do before i strip the screw and fuck some shit up. My friend Janice came down from Savannah, GA and we hung out went to this weird ass concert..i have pics that i will put up when i get my plug which i should be getting before next weekend..so i can put some pics up of me and other stuff. what else i have been in a fairly good mood so i am happy about that..i have some spots on my legs which are going away . Figures..right as soon as i find someone to take some pics of me... i have damn cheetah legs. But i'm not complaining. I'm thinking about getting a monroe what do you think..what would it look like...i like it so i probably will get it. I've drawn out my next tat and i love it. I have to start really drawing so that i can have a portfolio for the tattoo artist to look at so i can be a tat apprentice..oooo..i hope someone will take me and that people are looking for tat apprentice.

Love,
~Butterfly Suicide~

Hey Everyone,
Ok so i am not going to Ohio..i just did'nt really want to. What else O' Yeah...well my car is still having problems i hope that it is the starter..which is still going to be like a 120 dollars..uuuggghhh. But, still after that it will be running so i can drive the damn thing i have been cleaning it and everything..adn i can't drive it that sucks big elephant ass!!. I finally might have found a photographer to shoot with he seemd nice now i just have to find someone to go with me when i do the shoot all these ropes to swing on. But..hey at least i finally found one. I want to get another piercing and tat..that will be my present to myself when i get a apartment and everything together. I going to go and take my dog to get his first shots tommorrow..i'm a little scared for him..but i believe that he can handle it. I finally made my first shirt..out of the material i got and now i just have to make the rest of the clothing i am suppose to make i made some soap too. My birthday is coming in two months i am so excited!!! but what am i going to do i wonder? What should i do other than of course as everyone is telling get wasted..uuummm?

Love,
Butterfly Suicide

Hey,

Ok..so i hope that everyone is doing good. Me i am doing good i'd say I am getting my car inspected tommorrow. I am going to Ohio in a couple of days to go see my brother with my neice..it ought to be fun. It's only going to be for a couple of days but still..i'm getting out of the house. I still have'nt found anyone to do my set UUGGHHH!!!. O' yeah i have a new guy..but not a new girl..which sucks. I am sooo ready to move out of my moms house and be on my own again. So, since my car can get on the road now i can apply to places..so i can have some green coming in.I need to put pics up so everyone can see me with my new piercings. I am going to color my hair but i don't know what color yet if you have any ideas just tell me..and where can you get some good dye. Another thing is that i hope that it will work on my hair. I saved a turtle from getting ran over in the street. I'm going to the beach in september...maybe.. wilmington or something. girls only though. So, if anyone would like to hang out with me and my friends hit me up at nikatat2@gmail or send me a message on here. No, serial killers or anything though..haha...seriously. Damn nomes in my fridge turned vegetarian now it use to be the meat would go missing in the fridge now it's my vege lunch meat..what the hell is going on..i'm on to you nomes..i want a freakin' sandwich. Well i have to eat something i'sa starvin' haha.

Love,
Butterfly Suicide

Hey everyone,

So i am planning to go to the beach this weekend..finally i am going to the beach. I want to go more than once though so i just have to get some people to go with. I actually had someone come up to me and notice me from being on here it was a little i don't what i guess i just was'nt excepting it..it was a girl she was nice. Something weird that happen was that i was talking to this girl at weaver street i was getting my veggie food. Let me just let anyone that's a vegan know i have nothing against you but this girl was vegan and i told that i was vegetarian and i had to ease myself off of meat and that i eat everything except meat etc..etc...but i will cook some meat for someone i just won't consume it myself. Now this is when it gets crazy. First she asked me if i had any animals and i said yes i do a dog..then she asked me if i ate ice cream things that come from animals and i said yes..she told me that i was a killer and that i have no respect for living things. I don't understand some people really...i guess she though that it was going to make a difference to yell at me about it. In nature everything lives off of everything it's just a cycle of life deal with it. No i don't eat meat but i eat animal by products like ice cream..butter etc..but i still love animals. Not all vegans are crazy but i have met three in my life and they all end up yelling at me because i eat ice cream and other animal by products like cheese etc. If there are any cool vegans please tell me what is wrong with the three i have met..and tell them to chill out. But before i left i gave the women a hug and told here that it is going to be ok..i think she need that.But on to something else..i went to SouthPoint to see"Pirates of the Caribbean 2 dead man's chest" I think i spelled that wrong..but it was good. Johnny Deep is really freaking hot!!! If anyone that's in NC wants to go to the beach with me between now and September let me know..no serial killers though..haha..ok well i am going to stop writing for know.

Love,
Butterfly Suicide

Hey Everybody,

I am sorry that i have'nt been writing in here it just seemd like lately everything has been happen. But i will seriously stop neglecting everyone. Soo, i hope that everyone has been doing good..i have ..well kinda. I just broke up with this guy that was with for 5 years. It was bad for him but not that much for me. I guess because he really was'nt that good to me and i pour my heart out to him for five years and i just did'nt get the same treatment from him so ..yeah. Now that i am single i don't know it feels weird.? I was with him since i was fifteen..one day it just was'nt there anymore and when that happens you have to pay attention to yourself because in the end that's who you have to think about yourself. now if your reading this give me some advice ok.. he still calls me and sometimes i call him just because i guess i am use to that and we still see each other on saturdays. The problem is how do i tell him or show him that it's really over. But i don't want to be rude about it?
Ok..on to something else i finally got my car fix and i am still trying to find a photographer in my area so if you know of one that i can trust tell me about it. I have guys on myspace saying that their photographer and stuff..but i don't know about that. And i really wanted to do the Suicide Girls tour thing to but i just don't have the money which really sucks ass . But next time they do one i will be going. O' yeah i have pics that i take on myself to acting crazy so when i find the plug i will put those up as soon as possible. But i am going to stop writing and make some soap that's another hobbie i have now. And i promise i will be writing in here every week.

love,
Butterfly Suicide