HELL YEAH!!

In my second week after I moved to Anchorage this sweet event is taking place!!

Royal, Bella, Annisa, Brite and more...

Fun with a photobooth to get your picture taken with a number of Suicidegirls, Tattoo giveaways, FREE SG Swag including stickers, all 3 DVD , all 4 comics, bring your own SG merch./ photo's for signings, a Freakshow performance, dancing, hula hooping jello shots, etc.

Only 57 days till my move to Anchorage.. I cant wait!

For now I share my last weeks in Amsterdam






Daily collected dust;








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yes or no to septum?

I had just gotten a comment on the vid me and Candee once recorded..


And after that I decided to do a brite&Candee google search.. We are everywhere
I even found out a picture of our duo set is used as a profile pic on an Sg europe myspace


http://www.myspace.com/suicidegirlseurope

And then I googled myself.. and came across this amazing drawing



http://sinnah.artician.com/portfolio/Brite-suicide/
The drawing is done by a girl called Sinnah... I'm wondering if it was actually done by sinnah .. When she was in limbo I was a huge fan of her.. Im going to do some more research and try and figure out if she really did make it..

I will update this blog later... after my research
Much to tell you all about what has been going on in my life!

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So here.. I was kinda in a semi bored/inspired mood tonight and decided to go asnwer a bunch of questions..

Enjoy




-What is it like to wake up every morning and pretend that you aren’t dying

Well I dont pretend actually.. I just wake up



-Do you believe in the death penalty? What if someone murdered your mother in cold blood? What if someone murdered a stranger’s mother, but saved your life the month before?

This is always a hard question.. I think in the heat of the moment I would 'ofcourse' want this person to die for taken a life.. But Then again we are not the ones to choose this. I hope this person will stand trail and stay locked behind bars their whole life, and ever getting out.. And having to live by strict rules and 24/7 monitoring and every day control in prison.



-If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?

It would be very weird, and at the same time mindblowing to share this amazing connection, and learn to trust and evolve in life as friends



-Would you rather be rich and paralyzed from the waist down or poor and able bodied?

I would go for rich here, because ,money can still open loads of door making it possible to live a great life.



-What’s the most expensive gift you have ever received? Is it the best gift you have ever received?

I am going to look at the last 5 years as my time period.. I was a ring given to my an ex, it wasnt the best gift ever, but he didnt care about rings, and still he got me that amazing rock, and I had never gotten a piece of jewelry from a Bf that I actually loved.



-When was the last time you lied? Is it possible to lie without saying anything at all?

I think it must have been a day or 2 ago.. A lie I told to myself.. It didnt work. I think it is possible to lie without words.. Body language given with pre-made reasons and plotted timing can easily give a person a 'wrong' impression/idea.



-Stealing is immoral, right? But what if stealing was the only way to feed a starving child?

Stealing if it makes you better when not needed so is bad, stealing in order to survive.. Is simple survival of the fittest.



-If I gave you $20, what percentage would you – really – save? If I gave you $200,000, what percentage would you save? Should there be a difference?

$20 probly nothing, $200,000 probly everything.. And keep on living from myy normal day to day salary.



-If someone could tell you the exact day and time that you are going to die, would you want them to tell you?

My first thought would ofcourse be YES! But after some moments of thoughts, I think I would say NO.. But I think there probibly will be the possibility of me regretting that i turned it down every day.



-If you found out you were going to die today, would you have any regrets? Would you be happy with the way you spent the last 24 hours of your life?

Regrets of life.. Sure no doubt! The last 24 hours.. I would not regret 'cause I wouldnt have known , but I would be sad when I realize the moment I am dying that I didnt spend my day with my dog Vega, because I was at work.



-What’s your single greatest moment of personal failure? Looking back on it now, did it make you weaker or stronger? What did you learn?

Letting myself get so lost in my bad negative state of mind, and letting it rule my life at the time, and totally swallowed by pain, grief, personal doubts and no own life control fell into a deep dark destructive 2 years.



-Do the words ‘freedom’ and ‘liberty’ mean not being persecuted or discriminated against, or do they mean doing whatever you please?

I think they are seen and lived very different by each person, and there maybe should be some more overall clearifying on what the could be meaning to us.



-Have you ever discriminated against someone? Imagine that a street gang notorious for wearing purple shirts has robbed and murdered several hundred people in your town. If a man wearing a purple shirt just rang your doorbell, would you answer it?

In this precise case as described as above.. Hell no, I wouldnt asnwer the door.



-Is it crazier to choose to be poor or to spend 40 years of your life hating 40 hours a week?

Doesnt sound crazy to me.. Hate is a very powerful and devestating emotion.. Hell I'd rather be poor!



-Do you ever feel like you don’t have enough time? How many hours a week do you spend watching TV, or playing video games, or…?

I have managed to find a god balance in my life with time and work.. It does mean I dont have the money to do all that I want to do maybe, but it sure does give me what I am here for.. To live.



-Do you ever celebrate the green lights?

what is it?



-If you could be given another talent or ability, what would you want it to be? Have you ever – really – tried to perfect this ability in yourself?

I would want to be able to really understand, read or listen to animals.. I have always tried to learn to read animal bodylanguage as well as possible and feel their energy.. I think I can, but not far enough as I would like to be able to.



-No matter how bad things get, are you aware that someone always has it worse than you do?

I totally do



-When you help someone, do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?”

Sometimes I do sometimes I dont



-Joy is found with simple awareness. What does your joy look like today?

The joy of how I always enjoy the field and it greenyness where I walk my dog on sunday morning, and the calmness of just me and her and no other people there. They joy of me loving Vega



-What’s the difference between ‘living’ and ‘existing?’

Living is just being here, exsisting is living the live you are in



-Are you willing to sacrifice the life of your child or lover to support a war?

If it would be against anything other then a war started by mankind I possibly would



-Do you ask enough questions, or do you settle for what you know?

I ask to much in others people's eyes sometimes.. I never settle..



-If you could do it all over again, would you change anything?

I would ..IF I was able to do it all over again ,with the knowing all I know now of my current life.



-If your life was a novel, what would be the title and how would your story end?

" Life is hard , buy a helmet"

The end.. pfftt.. I dont know, as long as I had have a life full of joy, happyness, grief, pain, ups, down and amazing people and animals around me



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-What color socks are you wearing?

I always wear 2 different socks.. but now I am barefoot





-If you could get away scot-free, would you kill someone?

Nope





-If aliens were attacking the Earth, would you run or make friends?

Sure as hell try and make friends, I mean if they are capable of attacking us it must mean they are ahead of us some way.. But then again, if they are attacking us, why didnt they want to become friends first? So maybe running aint that bad of an idea.





-What job do you see yourself at 20 years from now?

Runnning some sort of shop with books, coffee, raw food, and doing hair, and having animals around.





-When was the last time you burst into song for no reason?

Well this afternoon at work, but that was just because I was having a good time and enjoying listening to The Black Keys





-What song was it?

Next Girl by The Black Keys





-When you die, where do you want to be buried?

I guess so





-If you could be invisible for one day, what would you do?

Go to some huge big office company with their employees working in office cubicles and play pranks on them.





-What would the theme song of your life be?

Dude!! That changes allot.. But now I would have to go with 2 songs;

Lusine- Gravity

OR

The Black Keys - Psychotic Girl.





-You have 70 seconds to live. What do you DO?!

Grab my hoop and Vega and find a way to hoop and make her feel all my love for her in the most amazing hug ever.










-Do you wish Pokemon were real?

Hell yeah.. so much fun.. They make fun noises.. And how could is it to have have like 12 pets in your jacket pocket





-Would you take advice from a talking McDonalds sandwich?

Well maybe I would.. Seems like they are quite a world wide succes..

But I guess thats more due to the person who come up with the recipe than the burger itself..



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A couple of great small simple things in life that can make me so happy of joy inside



Sleeping In on a Rainy Day – Rain beats against the window, and you can nestle your head deeper into your pillow. The sound is soothing and your bed feels like the best place in the universe



Finding Money You Didn’t Know You Had – when checking your pockets before throwing something in the wash, or looking for something and then finding money in one of your bags or books.



Making Brief Eye Contact with Someone of the Opposite Sex – when passing on the street or in line at the supermarket .. You glance up and momentarily, making direct eye contact in a way that seems to communicate a subtle curiosity. For a split second it makes you think… and then it’s gone.



Skinny Dipping – You are naked, and probly in a hidden place or at sea or at an pool at nighttime..And naked when you probly shouldn't be, but it feels natural, a sense of unrefined freedom.



Seeing a Friend being clumsy or tripping over something – As you walk across the street with your friend, they trip and stumble around for a moment , or when walking and talking they totally dont see the streetlight and bump into it.. This can be a hilarious sight if the moment is right.



Hearing the Right Song at the Right Moment - It doesn’t matter what the setting is, hearing the right song at that moment is on simple pleasures in life that can give you that euphoric feeling instantly.





Saying the Same Thing Simultaneously – All of the sudden you and your friend blurt out the same exact set of words simultaneously. So weird, so fun, and gives a feeling of intense harmony



Realizing You Have More Time to Sleep – Something wakes you up and you think it’s time to get up. Then gazing over at your alarm clock and realize you still have 2 more hours to sleep.. Ace!



People Watching – Sitting just anywhere random where you feel like sitting, I can somtimes just really enjoy watching random strangers.. Trying to imagine what their life is like, and what they do.



A Familiar Smell – The smell of your parents house, the smell of your first girl/boyfriends perfume when smelled on someone else, the smell of your lover on their pillow when they have already got up and you snuggle up on it.. The smell of my dog Vega.. Smells can be amazing



Fresh, Clean Bed Sheets – Freshly washed fluffy clean smelling sheets.. I always sleep so good that first night



Remembering About Old Times with Your Closest Friends – The teenage days, the days off becoming an identity, an real personality.. And all the people who you were with and what 'mindblowing' things you all did.



Receiving an Unexpected Compliment – On an somewhat average day, nothing exciting happend or done... And then unexpectedly, somebody just totally blows you away by saying something nice about you..



Holding Hands with Someone You Love – sometimes holding hands is totally neglected, taken for granted.. But then somethimes you can have a moment and realize how much this person actually means to you.

Again my past week in pictures, and hoop vid..

I have dreaded my hair, and added extensions.. whoohoo

And I have an Alaskan crush going.. omg! Good news for me when I land in Anchorage!










I took a couple days off work, and went to Belgium.. My mom has a caravan in the woods there.. And I much needed a break from the always hectic, polluted and ever busy Amsterdam..

And after camping I stayed with my mom..

As for piercings and me.. I LOVE them!
But I have the WORST case of needle piercing fright and scare!!
And I had wanted a medusa for years.. And finally last year I decided I was going to do it, but the only one I trusted was Miss Candee..
So I made a trip to see my mom and visit Candee to get my medusa pierced .. Candee totally talked me through my scares and hestitations.. <3

And now I had wanted to get a double nostril but I had got my nose pierced 6 times before.. SCAR TISSUE AUW!!!
As I only want to get pierced by the lovely Candee , I went to her again.. I was going for a double nostril but ik kinda chikend out.. And Candee was having some trouble getting the dots even.. So we decided to go with one for now.. And guess what , my mom got her nose pierced to!!!

But next week I am still getting my other nostril done.. SO WANT THE DOUBLE NOSTRIL!

My past week in pictures and a new hoop vid

Again I started to try and play with double hoop, but both my 31 inch hoops are different one is HDPE tubing and one is polypro like.. so it didnt go well, due to the different weight of the hoops..
For the rest of the vid, i just had fun

SOOOOO.. I have a shoot planned for my own porto and the photographer http://www.markm.nl/ on the 21th of june.. I will be getting infront of the camera again since 2008!!
Here are some shots from our shoot in 2008





And now some old pics from a rejected set I did with cherry in 2007
I did re-crop a few, and played around with PS





some pics of me in the nature in 2010

Some pics of me and pup Vega





Me with my raw green smoothie and raw algea facial mask.. SAY THE HULK


Love Brite