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To long legs and big titties...
First big news! I have a new set, Home, shot by the love of my life Milloux! It will be hitting your computer screens March 11th so please make sure and keep your eyes peeled for that! Maybe a spoiler???
First big news! I have a new set, Home, shot by the love of my life Milloux! It will be hitting your computer screens March 11th so please make sure and keep your eyes peeled for that! Maybe a spoiler???
Things have been a little hectic since being back up north. I feel like I am really stuck at a crossroads. I feel a little lost lately. I miss southern California and my little family that I became a part of down there more than words can express. Both my SG family and the family that I became a part of through the club that I worked at are such huge and important parts of my life now that not seeing them regularly is really killing me. I know that this move isn't permanent and that I am only up here for a limited time, I am just really having problems adjusting.
On the bright side, I found a cute little apartment in midtown Sacramento (just steps from the block of bars that I like to refer to as the blackout block...for obvious reasons), enjoy seeing my family everyday, and am hopping back into work with both feet. I also got a job bartending at Toby Keith's I Love This Bar and Grill. This means my uniform consists of daisy duke's, cowboy boots, a tiny tank top, and a giant bedazzled belt, plus I get to do a couple cute little dances on top of the bar a few times a night with the other bartenders, kind of like what I used to do when I worked at Barwest. I also get to be closer to my best friend/cousin, Tiffany, and my new nephew Carter, who is just 7 weeks old. I am the proudest aunty you can imagine
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In case you just missed it in the last spoiler...here is something crazy! Check this out...
Thats me and my mom, my picture and her high school year book picture...ya we just might be related huh? haha.
Here is what I have been up to lately....
I got some new tattoos...
I've been gogo dancing a lot lately, its a crazy workout, I get paid decently, and get a few drinks out of it. Can't complain.
I paid a visit to one of my best friends ever, Alicee.
Working like a mad woman...
Having family drinking nights, of course...
Got in a car accident...luckily I'm okay, although my beetle is going to need some work. Blahhhh.
Had a literal PARTY in my pants...yes, you are all invited
Took a random booby picture so you can see my nipple piercings...
And being an all around silly goober...
I am really hoping that I adjust to everything that's going on and really hoping that times flies so that I can get back to my little world in Orange County.
Here is my playlist at the moment of random shit that I've been listening to today at work....I'm all over the place obviously.
1. Shwayze, Get You Home
2. Swollen Members, Porn Star
3. Lana Del Rey, Million Dollar Man
4. Jack Johnson, Hope
5. Iration, Falling
And in the spirit of Christmas....
Make to check me out on....
Instagram @BradleySuicide
Twitter
Facebook
I love little fun presents, they bring a smile to my face...
So check out my wishlist of silly fun little things!
Love you guys oodles and thank you for all of the support you all have been giving me!
Let me leave you with a toast to our future children...may their parents be rich as fuck.
xoxo
Bradley
Hey! Boobs!
Want to see more form this set, check it all out here on Darling House!
Now that the important things are over....
It has been a season of changes in my life lately. As you all know I have been living in Huntington Beach for some time now. I love Orange County and definitely fit in there much more so than up north. The beach, the sun, the tattooed bros...I am pretty sure that SoCal was made for me. However, I was recently offered a position running my own loan team up in Northern California. Getting back to my roots. Back to the only career that I have known since I was 18. I am a fully licensed real estate agent and loan officer and am damn good at what I do. Due to some changes that internally went on with my company that I did not really agree with at the time I decided to move on and left the mortgage business. Those circumstances have now been eliminated from the company and they have made me an offer that I would be an idiot not to take. The bummer of the situation is that it requires me to live up in the Sacramento area again while I go through my training and marketing hoops so that I can effectively and efficiently run my own branch in Newport Beach, which is slated to open within one year.
There are positives and negatives to being back in Sacramento. The good thing is that for work purposes I will have to return to Orange County once every 4-6 weeks to meet with clients and network with realtors and title reps, so even during my year back up here, I will still be able to see all of my Southern California loves on a regular basis. This also means that I get to be closer to my family, which I am extremely happy about. My family is my world and missing them was incredibly hard on me.
One thing that was incredibly difficult on me was leaving people that I love back in SoCal. I have some of the best friends I could ever hope for down there, they truly became an extension of my family. In addition, I had to leave behind someone that I very genuinely adored. He came into my life out of nowhere, without any expectation, and definitely put my heart through the ringer while I was there, in both good and bad ways. Regardless, he has a very special place in my heart and I miss him very very much. Its one of those relationships that I have to look at with the old saying, if you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was.
I have been gogo dancing quite a bit. Tomorrow night I will be at the Powerhouse Pub in Folsom shakin what my momma gave me. Come and say hi, buy me a drink or ten!
I updated my wishlist also...go and check it out HERE Buy me something silly
Also, have you seen the smokin hot set of myself and Alicee thats chillin in MR right now??? Even if you have, go refresh your memory and leave some love on ALONE TIME.
AND last but not least, I got a new tattoo...I said if the Giants won the World Series again I would go for it so....
Remember to follow me on...
Instagram, @BradleySuicide
TWITTER
FACEBOOK
Until next time my loves.
#OTPYF
XXX
Bradley
Want to see more form this set, check it all out here on Darling House!
Now that the important things are over....
It has been a season of changes in my life lately. As you all know I have been living in Huntington Beach for some time now. I love Orange County and definitely fit in there much more so than up north. The beach, the sun, the tattooed bros...I am pretty sure that SoCal was made for me. However, I was recently offered a position running my own loan team up in Northern California. Getting back to my roots. Back to the only career that I have known since I was 18. I am a fully licensed real estate agent and loan officer and am damn good at what I do. Due to some changes that internally went on with my company that I did not really agree with at the time I decided to move on and left the mortgage business. Those circumstances have now been eliminated from the company and they have made me an offer that I would be an idiot not to take. The bummer of the situation is that it requires me to live up in the Sacramento area again while I go through my training and marketing hoops so that I can effectively and efficiently run my own branch in Newport Beach, which is slated to open within one year.
There are positives and negatives to being back in Sacramento. The good thing is that for work purposes I will have to return to Orange County once every 4-6 weeks to meet with clients and network with realtors and title reps, so even during my year back up here, I will still be able to see all of my Southern California loves on a regular basis. This also means that I get to be closer to my family, which I am extremely happy about. My family is my world and missing them was incredibly hard on me.
One thing that was incredibly difficult on me was leaving people that I love back in SoCal. I have some of the best friends I could ever hope for down there, they truly became an extension of my family. In addition, I had to leave behind someone that I very genuinely adored. He came into my life out of nowhere, without any expectation, and definitely put my heart through the ringer while I was there, in both good and bad ways. Regardless, he has a very special place in my heart and I miss him very very much. Its one of those relationships that I have to look at with the old saying, if you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was.
I have been gogo dancing quite a bit. Tomorrow night I will be at the Powerhouse Pub in Folsom shakin what my momma gave me. Come and say hi, buy me a drink or ten!
I updated my wishlist also...go and check it out HERE Buy me something silly
Also, have you seen the smokin hot set of myself and Alicee thats chillin in MR right now??? Even if you have, go refresh your memory and leave some love on ALONE TIME.
AND last but not least, I got a new tattoo...I said if the Giants won the World Series again I would go for it so....
Remember to follow me on...
Instagram, @BradleySuicide
Until next time my loves.
#OTPYF
XXX
Bradley
I am sorry for the lack of updates.
Life has been interesting lately, to say the least. In both good and bad ways. I am moving forward and making some very intense life decisions these days that I am very happy about with. Things are getting very interesting in my life and I have a feeling that I have some very bright skies in my near future. I am staying positive and focusing on myself and what is best for me.
I am thinking of leaving whole foods. After some very intense things have gone down within my location with the company I dont know if it is a company that is right for me any more. These days I have been stretching myself so thin between working two jobs that I don't have anytime for Bradley any more and have been letting my relationships fall to the wayside on top of it all. I think I need to get right with my soul again and make time for the things that are important to me. I am not 100% sure what I am going to do with whole foods at this point but I do know that something has got to give. I make enough bar tending to pay my bills and am thinking of doing that and going back to school.
I love living in Huntington, but I think I am going to be finding myself up in LA a lot more very shortly so that I can visit girlfriends and get some time in with the ladies down here that I love so dearly.
The next few weeks are going to be slammed. We are going out for Ackley's birthday on the 27th to see Jane's Addiction (all access baby!), gogo dancing at club suicide on Halloween, and doing Long Beach Comic Con after that...all while working 70 hours a week. Never a dull moment.
I love you all and truly appreciate all of the support everyone has been giving me.
Bright skies ahead.
xoxo
Bradley
Life has been interesting lately, to say the least. In both good and bad ways. I am moving forward and making some very intense life decisions these days that I am very happy about with. Things are getting very interesting in my life and I have a feeling that I have some very bright skies in my near future. I am staying positive and focusing on myself and what is best for me.
I am thinking of leaving whole foods. After some very intense things have gone down within my location with the company I dont know if it is a company that is right for me any more. These days I have been stretching myself so thin between working two jobs that I don't have anytime for Bradley any more and have been letting my relationships fall to the wayside on top of it all. I think I need to get right with my soul again and make time for the things that are important to me. I am not 100% sure what I am going to do with whole foods at this point but I do know that something has got to give. I make enough bar tending to pay my bills and am thinking of doing that and going back to school.
I love living in Huntington, but I think I am going to be finding myself up in LA a lot more very shortly so that I can visit girlfriends and get some time in with the ladies down here that I love so dearly.
The next few weeks are going to be slammed. We are going out for Ackley's birthday on the 27th to see Jane's Addiction (all access baby!), gogo dancing at club suicide on Halloween, and doing Long Beach Comic Con after that...all while working 70 hours a week. Never a dull moment.
I love you all and truly appreciate all of the support everyone has been giving me.
Bright skies ahead.
xoxo
Bradley
Trying to remember....
After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises.
You begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and eyes open
With the grace of a woman,
Not the grief of a child.
You begin to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So, you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul...
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
You learn that you can endure,
That you really are strong,
& you really do have worth.
You learn and learn,
With every goodbye you learn.
Trying.
After a while you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises.
You begin to accept your defeats
With your head up and eyes open
With the grace of a woman,
Not the grief of a child.
You begin to build all your roads on today
Because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain
And futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So, you plant your own garden
And decorate your own soul...
Instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
You learn that you can endure,
That you really are strong,
& you really do have worth.
You learn and learn,
With every goodbye you learn.
Trying.
Fuck dating.
I am finished with these assholes I've been picking. Fuck em.
I'm gonna do me now.
Show me and Alicee some love on our set Alone Time
Check me out on Darling House. Super hot and sexy. Here's a preview of whats on there....
Time to harden the fuck up.
xoxo
Bradley
I am finished with these assholes I've been picking. Fuck em.
I'm gonna do me now.
Show me and Alicee some love on our set Alone Time
Check me out on Darling House. Super hot and sexy. Here's a preview of whats on there....
Time to harden the fuck up.
xoxo
Bradley
After the nasty and hurtful message I received I feel that this is necessary to post. I promise there will be an SDCC blog of epic proportions soon. I just apparently am damned of I do or don't at this point so here it goes....haters are gonna hate I guess. I am sure people will give me a viscous beat down for this as well.
Dear Keyboard Warriors,
I chose to share one night of my life and do not feel that it is necessary to be defensive about it. I was planning on not even responding to all of this but I was recently berated for not doing so. I am a real person with real feelings, and yes, they can be hurt. You are all entitled to your opinion, as am I, and I am sorry that you feel the need to personally attack me from behind your keyboard.
I wrote about a night that I had that I have zero regrets about. I thoroughly enjoy going out and partying from time to time and I do not feel that there is anything wrong with that. I am a 23 year old girl living in a beach town, it happens. Are you honestly going to sit there and tell me you have never had a drunken one night stand? Hmmm. I call bullshit. And even if you personally havent, I find it highly unlikely that you judge everyone who has so harshly.
I chose to write about one small part of my life. In case you care to know, I am an incredibly hard working and career driven girl. I work my ass off and am extremely proud of my career and the goals that I have accomplished. I not only work extremely hard, but I also help raise my three disabled siblings. I have been in serious relationships most of my adult life. And I had a crazy weekend that I chose to share, sue me.
I am sorry that you feel the need to tell me how terrible of a person I am and how I need to reevaluate my life. I am glad that yours is so on track that you feel the need to focus on mine to the extent of telling me that I am a horrible human being because I had a weekend that I got a little crazy.
I dont expect praise for everything that I do and I completely understand that everything put out to the public will be met with some degree of criticism, just like when I put out a new set. I do not mind you sharing your opinion and if it makes you feel better to personally attack me, please go right ahead. I do not lose sleep over it and hope that it makes you feel better and am very happy that your life is so perfect that you can pick apart mine for me.
I'm sorry that you don't think that my column is newswire worthy, you are entitled to feel that way, and simply suggest that in the future you just dont read it. Problem solved.
-Bradley
Dear Keyboard Warriors,
I chose to share one night of my life and do not feel that it is necessary to be defensive about it. I was planning on not even responding to all of this but I was recently berated for not doing so. I am a real person with real feelings, and yes, they can be hurt. You are all entitled to your opinion, as am I, and I am sorry that you feel the need to personally attack me from behind your keyboard.
I wrote about a night that I had that I have zero regrets about. I thoroughly enjoy going out and partying from time to time and I do not feel that there is anything wrong with that. I am a 23 year old girl living in a beach town, it happens. Are you honestly going to sit there and tell me you have never had a drunken one night stand? Hmmm. I call bullshit. And even if you personally havent, I find it highly unlikely that you judge everyone who has so harshly.
I chose to write about one small part of my life. In case you care to know, I am an incredibly hard working and career driven girl. I work my ass off and am extremely proud of my career and the goals that I have accomplished. I not only work extremely hard, but I also help raise my three disabled siblings. I have been in serious relationships most of my adult life. And I had a crazy weekend that I chose to share, sue me.
I am sorry that you feel the need to tell me how terrible of a person I am and how I need to reevaluate my life. I am glad that yours is so on track that you feel the need to focus on mine to the extent of telling me that I am a horrible human being because I had a weekend that I got a little crazy.
I dont expect praise for everything that I do and I completely understand that everything put out to the public will be met with some degree of criticism, just like when I put out a new set. I do not mind you sharing your opinion and if it makes you feel better to personally attack me, please go right ahead. I do not lose sleep over it and hope that it makes you feel better and am very happy that your life is so perfect that you can pick apart mine for me.
I'm sorry that you don't think that my column is newswire worthy, you are entitled to feel that way, and simply suggest that in the future you just dont read it. Problem solved.
-Bradley
So much to say and not nearly enough time!
For now I will leave you with this preview of the amazingness that is going to hit MR shortly. Alone Time with Alicee and myself, shot nby the one and only, now STAFF photographer Milloux (if you haven't congratulated her yet, please go do so asap).
And, make sure and check out my man's new music video. It's pretty fucking awesome.
I love you all and will have a real update for you soon! Promise!
I hope to see tons of you at SDCC!!
xoxo
Bradley
Instagram and twitter are @bradleysuicide
For now I will leave you with this preview of the amazingness that is going to hit MR shortly. Alone Time with Alicee and myself, shot nby the one and only, now STAFF photographer Milloux (if you haven't congratulated her yet, please go do so asap).
And, make sure and check out my man's new music video. It's pretty fucking awesome.
I love you all and will have a real update for you soon! Promise!
I hope to see tons of you at SDCC!!
xoxo
Bradley
Instagram and twitter are @bradleysuicide
Two things of EPICNESS!
ONE! The one and only CameronStewart made me the happiest little SG ever and did an epic drawing of me! Best believe a print is going to be on its way for some framing action!
TWO!! I was featured in the new New Found Glory music video for Summer Fling Don't Mean A Thing along with the amazing Ackley and Taye! Check it out!! Soooooo fun!!
XOXO
Bradley
ONE! The one and only CameronStewart made me the happiest little SG ever and did an epic drawing of me! Best believe a print is going to be on its way for some framing action!
TWO!! I was featured in the new New Found Glory music video for Summer Fling Don't Mean A Thing along with the amazing Ackley and Taye! Check it out!! Soooooo fun!!
XOXO
Bradley
Boobs!!
So, I'm listening to the radio and I hear this song and almost get in a wreck haha. My boy had taken me on the road with him and while we were on the trip he had played me some songs that he had written, there was this one that he called "The Goods" that totally got in stuck in my head. It was catchy and really fun to listen to. He ended up not putting it on his EP (which is out on the 12th...cough cough) and I was bummed. Didn't think too much more about it until I heard it on the radio this morning. He sold it to another artist with Atlantic. Its gonna be a smash. So without further ado, take a listen to the song that almost made me crash my car haha.
It goes "la tee da" and its hits like a symbol.
Oh and here is this slice of awesome <3
Life is beautiful.
I love yall!
xoxo
Bradley
So, I'm listening to the radio and I hear this song and almost get in a wreck haha. My boy had taken me on the road with him and while we were on the trip he had played me some songs that he had written, there was this one that he called "The Goods" that totally got in stuck in my head. It was catchy and really fun to listen to. He ended up not putting it on his EP (which is out on the 12th...cough cough) and I was bummed. Didn't think too much more about it until I heard it on the radio this morning. He sold it to another artist with Atlantic. Its gonna be a smash. So without further ado, take a listen to the song that almost made me crash my car haha.
It goes "la tee da" and its hits like a symbol.
Oh and here is this slice of awesome <3
Life is beautiful.
I love yall!
xoxo
Bradley
Confessions Of A Reluctant Dater: Champagne Wishes and Rockstar Dreams
I am generally the girl that thinks like a guy when it comes to matters of the heart. I try and turn off emotion and build up my walls as a matter of shear self preservation. I don’t think this is the healthiest of things, but it is what it is, and at least for now it seems to work for me. That is until I run into that one dude who pulls at my heart strings.
I have a thing for boys with rockstar mentalities, who live life in the limelight. I must be a glutton for punishment. These are the only boys who are able to get under my skin, and with whom I let my guard down. Sadly, these are also the boys who drag me through the mud.
The worst part is that I can see how things will end from the very beginning. And yet I jump in head first anyways. I think a small part of my normally jaded brain wants to still believe in the fairytale ending.
I have recently found myself falling head over heels for someone that I have been seeing for some time now. However, I didn’t know how deep I was into him emotionally until today. I guess I was in denial, telling myself that if I didn’t want to have feelings for him that they just wouldn’t formulate, a mind over matter sort of situation. Well that definitely didn’t work.
I told myself from the beginning that I needed to tread lightly and not have any expectations. I thought that I was doing great at this and that I was walking into the whole situation with a good mindset. I told myself that I was just there for fun and if it led to something else great, but I wasn’t going to count on it. Maybe I thought that if I told myself that enough I would be able to escape the fate that I knew in my heart of hearts was inevitable. I don’t think I could have been more wrong.
The worst part is that there really isn’t anything to be mad at him for, he is being a typical guy. Maybe this is all karma coming back around to bite me in the ass? After all, I am generally the one who, unintentionally mind you, will crush a dudes heart within a week’s time.
Want to hear the worst part of all of it? This just makes me want him more. How screwed up am I? I am knowingly walking into a situation where I am going to get the living shit beat out of my emotions. My head is saying to cut and run, my heart is saying to stick around, and my pride is telling me that I am not a quitter and that this has become a conquest.
So here I go, embarking on a game of cat and mouse that is going to end with me either getting what I want, getting caught and squished, or, what generally tends to happen with me, a mixture of all of the above. Wish me luck in my endeavor. I know that I sound like a crazy person who doesn’t have my head screwed on straight, and that is a pretty accurate assessment, after all I’m knowingly getting myself into this.
Someone get me a shot of Jack a let the games begin.
Until next time.
Bradley
xoxo
I am generally the girl that thinks like a guy when it comes to matters of the heart. I try and turn off emotion and build up my walls as a matter of shear self preservation. I don’t think this is the healthiest of things, but it is what it is, and at least for now it seems to work for me. That is until I run into that one dude who pulls at my heart strings.
I have a thing for boys with rockstar mentalities, who live life in the limelight. I must be a glutton for punishment. These are the only boys who are able to get under my skin, and with whom I let my guard down. Sadly, these are also the boys who drag me through the mud.
The worst part is that I can see how things will end from the very beginning. And yet I jump in head first anyways. I think a small part of my normally jaded brain wants to still believe in the fairytale ending.
I have recently found myself falling head over heels for someone that I have been seeing for some time now. However, I didn’t know how deep I was into him emotionally until today. I guess I was in denial, telling myself that if I didn’t want to have feelings for him that they just wouldn’t formulate, a mind over matter sort of situation. Well that definitely didn’t work.
I told myself from the beginning that I needed to tread lightly and not have any expectations. I thought that I was doing great at this and that I was walking into the whole situation with a good mindset. I told myself that I was just there for fun and if it led to something else great, but I wasn’t going to count on it. Maybe I thought that if I told myself that enough I would be able to escape the fate that I knew in my heart of hearts was inevitable. I don’t think I could have been more wrong.
The worst part is that there really isn’t anything to be mad at him for, he is being a typical guy. Maybe this is all karma coming back around to bite me in the ass? After all, I am generally the one who, unintentionally mind you, will crush a dudes heart within a week’s time.
Want to hear the worst part of all of it? This just makes me want him more. How screwed up am I? I am knowingly walking into a situation where I am going to get the living shit beat out of my emotions. My head is saying to cut and run, my heart is saying to stick around, and my pride is telling me that I am not a quitter and that this has become a conquest.
So here I go, embarking on a game of cat and mouse that is going to end with me either getting what I want, getting caught and squished, or, what generally tends to happen with me, a mixture of all of the above. Wish me luck in my endeavor. I know that I sound like a crazy person who doesn’t have my head screwed on straight, and that is a pretty accurate assessment, after all I’m knowingly getting myself into this.
Someone get me a shot of Jack a let the games begin.
Until next time.
Bradley
xoxo
