If you're in the Harrisburg area, you should come say hi to me at bourbon street saloon east on 22. It's super slow on Sunday's and I'm here all night. I'll try not to be too awkward

first, i'd like to share this awesomeness w/ you! DogTags now has a kick ass tattoo, and well, i'll just let you take a guess at who it was inspired by....

he's the coolest! totally made my year.

next, i'd like to say thanks for everyones well wishes and concerns. i'm ok.... i haven't seen a doctor yet, but i did wake up, so i think that's a good sign
i started a new job over the weekend as a cocktail server. it's not half as cool as the place in savannah, but i don't think any place around here is. it'll do for now.
things i've been up to....



puppy sitting this little spaz...


i'm totally smitten, so smitten in fact, that i cooked breakfast.... not once, but twice! that's kind of a huge deal for me. and it turned out ok

yesterday was amazing




hope you all had a wonderful valentines day <3

(my sister totally hacked my bangs, don't make fun of my hair! it'll grow back)

xo

edited to add: someone else is super awesome, and left this for me on my facebook...

i freakin love it, and i lurv you all. gnite

tonight i fainted, hit my head on a hard tile floor from standing up. and awoke to my sister screaming for an ambulance over the phone. i don't have health insurance, and so we told them not to come. i was pretty shaken up the past couple of hrs. now i just have a terrible headache, and am super tired.... so here's to hoping that i wake up in the morning

it's crazy how much things can change in a weeks time...
i traveled from a beach in georgia

to a beach in Connecticut


it all happened so quickly, and unexpectedly, i'm glad i had spent a couple days walking around savannah before i had left.
said bye to the awesome place that i tried so hard to get a job at.
said bye to one of my doggies

and said bye to the bestest friend i've had half my life.
packed a uhaul, and headed north.


i'm now at my moms, w/ my baby girl... where hopefully we'll have time to figure things out.




i received something awesome in my inbox from the lovely Brooklyn. which will be available for your viewing pleasure in member review next month!



oh, and i made a pact w/ someone... we're drawing one sketch a day in our sketchbooks, so hopefully i'll start making more art.

lurv you, hope you're staying warm!

i'd like to thank you all for your kind words and support. i lurv you, you make me smile, laugh, and happy

i started bartending, just on the weekends for now. i'm a new player, but i freakin love it so far, it's so much fun! i walked into a mad house on fri night, like total craziness, w/ no idea wtf i was doing or where anything was, but i guess that's the quickest way to learn

i am in need of cute girl clothes, because i tend to dress like a bum most of the time, but i made do w/ what i have so far...


besides that, my life continues to be an emotional roller coaster from day to day. but i'm beginning to trust that boy a little more. he's been supportive in any decisions i've made so far, and has said all the right things, which has really helped put my mind at ease, at least a little.



xo

warning: i've had a few drinks.... and so, i might say things that i shouldn't, but whatever, fuck it.

so, i packed up half my stuff, and then decided that maybe i should just stay in sav for now. living situation is weird though, and theres this boy who lives up north, who i'd love to see on a regular basis.... but i just can't tell if i can trust him yet or not. i might be making all the wrong choices, who knows. my life is crazy at the moment, i'm pretty sure i've completely lost my mind.

but anyhow.... last week when i was flying back down here, this really awesome couple who just opened a bar downtown, gave me their card at the airport, randomly. and they just happen to be members of the site. she painted these amazing murals on the walls, which is alone, enough reason for me to want to work there. we'll see what happens.... but if you're in the savannah area, i'd recommend checking it out, Dosha bar & lounge. it's pretty awesome, and they play good music thurr!!!!


here's what i looked like earlier today...

i was drawing a sketch for a tattoo, for the boy who lives far away... who i'm totally smitten w/, but not sure if i can trust. and w/ good reason. i'm pretty sure he'll break my heart. we shall see..... but i can't get him outta my head to save my life!!!!!

and here's me now.... i look like a fucking boy! as much as i love crossfit, my boobs have never been smaller, and idk about all these muscles, they're kinda scary maybe it's also the stress, idk. but i've eaten half a jar of peanut butter in the past 3 days, so maybe that'll put some more fat back on my chest! fingers crossed.


so thats my life right now. i've never been more uncertain about what i'm doing, and where i'm going w/ my life. but thanks for all the comments on my previous blogs, and messages. you guys are sweet, and i lurv you
and i hope your life is treating you well!

no rain, no rainbows





i'm just distracting myself from packing....

my life pretty much sucks at the moment, so i guess that means more blog updates from me

went for a run on the beach at 9am this morning... almost 5 miles, not quite. it was rough running in the soft sand, and i'm sore as fuck.


i think i might be making all the wrong decisions in life.... going through a mid life crisis a little early? i'm so confused?!?!?! and since we've already established that i'm a fucking asshole, i'll share this picture, because its one of the few things that have made me happy the past few days.

seriously, could there possibly be anymore cuteness packed into one picture?!

next time i blog, there's a good chance i'll be living up north w/ my sister. at least for a couple months, being a cocktail waitress. wtf am i doing w/ my life?!



ps. if you have lifes cheat sheet, i need it.

i am an asshole, and i feel like a terrible person at the moment. but i don't want to keep living my life to make other people happy.

i know things will work out in the end, one way or another.

first off, i'd like to say that i NEED to be here....

pretty fucking amazing, huh?

this past weekend i flew up to pa to hang w/ the fam for a few days, leaving today i sure as hell do not miss this cold weather, but besides that, i've had a wonderful time.



pa farm show


my sister loves me, and bought me things from vs.

and i made the best purchase evar!


so besides that, i'm technically unemployed at the moment. ugh. finding a decent job in sav sucks. and theres a possibility of me moving back up here in the near future.......... why's life gotta be so complicated and full of hard decisions?!

anyhoooo, hope you lovelies are all doing well. btw, my inbox has become ridiculous. i'm such a slacker, and i apologize.

xo