FML! So I just got back from seeing and meeting my new neurologist. He seems like a drug pusher. He didn't ask me my symptoms per se just what drugs I had taken. So he told me that he wants to test me for the JC virus. If I am negative again then he wants to continue with the Tysabri treatment. He said that the 3-4 year mark is when the people develop PML. Well that is exactly where I am at. He says that people who have been on it have a 10 in 1000 chance of developing PML buuuuuut people who did chemotherapy have a 1 in a 100 chance. Well I did do chemotherapy for almost two years. I am so fucking pissed right now. If I had a gun I would go to the shooting range and shoot stuff. I am finally getting a new life. I cannot move in with my boyfriend and have to go off the Tysabri and then have my MS come back. Tysabri has a 70% chance of stopping relapses while Copaxone (one of the daily injections I used to do) has a 30% chance. He said in MARCH they are coming out with a new oral drug. FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

so he pretty much wants me to stay on the tysabri. I do not want to. I do not want to develop PML.

I found out what happened with my neurologists. The MS clinic I went to got bought out and all the doctors are leaving. So he said 3000 people that went there now have to find new neurologists. They all left because their income was lowered.

I cried a little driving home from the doctor.

I finally came to the conclusion why I never tried to have relationships or anything. I just will lose it all again. It was hard enough the first time to lose EVERY GODDAMN THING in my life.

I seriously need a good fuck or something.

I need a cigarette.

I think I'm going to buy some.

Bites and licks,
Bitten the pissed

omg. so stressed.

that is all

NEW POST TIME!! why does writing new blogs seem so daunting? I try to make them interesting. sooooo i am sooo stoked. Wednesday 13 is coming to Phoenix February 27th. Last time they came to Phoenix I bought tickets and went to the venue to find out that they cancelled at the last minute. BIG BOO. OMG CANNOT WAIT.

So I got an MRI Monday. Then Tuesday I had an appointment with my oral surgeon. They put me in this contraption. It was kinda cool. In the X-ray you could see my septum ring shoved up in my nose. LOL
So I need two wisdom teeth pulled. This is the bill. Shit I should spoil it.

So I am getting them pull the day after Thanksgiving. No leftovers for me this year! It's ok. Itll maybe help me lose those 5 lbs I have been vying to get rid of for months now. I am thinking about going to the Vegas Shoot fest so it would be a good time to get in shape.

I am thinking about getting a new tattoo. I think I talked about it in my last blog. A cat flying a kite. I have some people who were so kind enough to draw it up for me. I looked and looked for examples in tattoos and pictures and came out with nothing.

I am addicted to instagram. here is my second #thighhighthursday



oh I found this. coolest tattoo ever.

I think the coolest tattoo on an SG is on Porphyria. Here catapuss tattoo is so cool. i wish I could steal it or go back in time and do it first.

I actually put on makeup Wednesday and took a pic. I really liked it. If I could make it the right dimensions I might make it one of my profile pictures. I think I can make it a secondary pic without permission of staff. oh here is another random pic of me.

I need this shirt

randomness.

oh btw looking for apartments with the boy tomorrow. he says we have to get up at 5 am to do it. i don't know why. I think he just likes to torture me because I am not a morning person.

ohhh totally bummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmed. our giant Lord of the Flies multi got pushed back a few weeks.

oh heard rumors that they are making a new SG coffee table book. oh how exciting!!!! I want it. Along with all the new SG stuff like the shirts and lounge pants. I need $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

My mom asked me what i wanted for christmas. I honestly didnt know. There is a ton of stuff I want and a ton of stuff i need.

attack of my giant nipples!!

Well bites and licks everyone,
have a safe and wonderful weekend.