Hey friends!i have two tumblr blogs; my sex blogs, and my tumblr. as for my instagram my screenname is bettejeansuicide. i have a day off with hollywood so i'm watching him sleep and will prolly koala up to him. :3

Living life a day at a time. i'm doing excellent with my job so i am very happy about that. living with my dude, hollywood, still and things are going swimmingly.
i just got a phone today that has a data plan so i am tumbling up a storm and got an instagram account.

I'm at my mom's house for the weekend which means that having the munchies is like winning the lottery, and I finally have access to a real computer as to an ipod touch. fortunately i haven't missed much I am loving my minimalist lifestyle. I could grab all my possessions and leave for anywhere in the country in an hour. I could grab all my possessions, drop what i can't fit into a duffel bag off at the goodwill, and leave for anywhere in the country in an hour. It's very freeing, but also lets the mind wander a little too much. It makes the flight response a little itchy and you try not to scratch it. Just take it. Deal with it.
My meds are working out way better. I can deal with things that would usually shut me down, such as an unwanted text. Sure at first my response will be anxiety but I straighten myself out and handle it. I have a wonderful guy for a support system and we just take life a day at a time.
I'm journaling the shit out of my journal. It's such a relief. I'm smoking the fuck out of some amazing bud lately. And my nympho needs are being met daily, which is awesome except for when I'm away for a weekend. frustrated.
if I could explain my life in 3 movies at the moment it would be:
finding nemo
the dark knight
an american tail: fivel goes west

yep.
strawberry kush
i love you.

What's up friends?
I'm just chilling at my new crib with my new guy watching Finding Nemo for the umpteenth time. We live watching it on various recreational adventures. I'm on the Hollywood workout which basically consists of getting it in every fucking day. :3
Today was a day off and I enjoyed a morning workout in the cumnasium, a little blunt cruise, watched Happy Feet, took a nap, then grabbed my mang for some frolf.
I'm living in a minimalist dream. I have 2 laundry baskets of clothes, my pillow, and 2 quilts. I have an my journal, an xbox, some games and a pile of tv series on DVD. And that's my possessions at the moment. I'm donating all my clothes left at my old place to a women's shelter
My dad is going to be helping me trade my van in for a more efficient car. I've figured out what my triggers are when it comes to my depression/anxiety/mania issues. I'm experiencing a lot of self discipline. My work discipine is transferring into financial discipline, mindfulness, and fitness discipline. I have no internet unless my iPod gets wireless from my boy's iPhone. I'm going to try and sell my cameras and get an iPad.
Hope all is well.

Hey mangs,
Just checking in. Things are going well with where I'm staying. So much eye candy. So much sexy time.
I'm pretty geeked out at the moment. Dudes are playing left 4 dead. I'm melting into the couch.
Okay bye.

Well, I'm alive.

I feel terrible for not posting but I really have had difficulty bringing myself to SG and sharing my life. I'm in a place right now where if I list off all the bad things going on in my life I'd probably lose it. But I love all of you on here and I know this community is the perfect support for me.

So what's been going on?

I'm separating from Ryan which is the big thing going on right now. It will mean that I'm pretty much starting my life over. I don't know if I'll have a car anymore, I will probably lose all my friends that I've known for 6 or more years, I won't have my cats anymore for sure, and I may have to either transfer to a store that is closer to where I am now because I can't afford all the gas to get to my work, or I'll have to find a new job all together, which really really sucks because I have the best job I've ever had in my life as a beauty adviser.
My mental health is on the edge and I'm dangling my feet. Finally figured out with my doctor that I'm bipolar and we're taking the steps in medication to help me with that and my high stress life at the moment.

I'm living life a day at a time. Each week I have $50 to live off of, that include gas for my mini van (which takes $100 to actually fill) food, and recreation (weed.) Somehow I'm managing but you can imagine it's rough. I'm definitely learning the difference between wants, needs, and absolutely needs.

I'm living in a place with no internet and I don't have a computer with me anyways. I'm bringing my iPod with me today so hopefully I can be on more but yeah lately I'll maybe get to touch the internet twice a week. So I've been reading magazines, watching movies (I swear I've watched Finding Nemo 5 times in the last week and a half.) To all who have sent me messages, thank you I think of all of you all the time, and you are missed.

I don't have much else to add at the moment, please send good vibes, I'll try to check here more because I miss you guys so much.

Hello Lovelies,
I haven't blogged much lately because I don't have a lot to talk about.
My birthday was last week and it did not go very well
BOTH my cars died on my birthday. The trans went out in my van and something exploded underneath my car. Because of this misfortune I couldn't go to a rave in Chicago that I'd been planning on going to for weeks. And that was my birthday week.
But I try not to let things knock me down. Tonight I get to have the car that we're borrowing from Ryan's parents and that means only one thing on a Wednesday.
WOBBLE.
Wobble Wednesday is a night at a bar in town and they play only dubstep and the place gets packed. It's my favorite day of the week. I love wobble but wobble doesn't usually love me. I usually lose shit or end up at home at 6 am. But it's always a good time
Even though my luck isn't very good at the moment, I am still very happy. I have known my two friends Shana and Blake for a month now and I wouldn't trade them for the world. Blake is my buddy for sure. He's my beer buddy, my weed buddy, my get into close calls with trouble buddy. Unfortunately he's allergic to cats or I'd be set for life.
My new friends are different from any other friends I've had, they grew up in the hood and there are a lot of times they'll talk and I'll have to stop them and say, "I don't know what that means." My slang vocabulary is constantly growing.
January has really been a lesson in "good people" and knowing the difference. I'm happy to report that it has nothing to do with how smart you are, if you went to school, what your family is like, and how you make your money. Good People is all about heart and how you treat people and how you go about personal gain. If I get my thoughts more organized about this I'll try to write more about it later.
Until then, have a lovely day everyone, and send good vibes to my cars.

I finally have a day off after working 7 days in a row.

But I've managed to pack in a lot of adventure time with my friends Blake and Shana after work.

We spend a lot of time in my mini van. I have some fun plans for it this summer.



I like to tweet conversations from our matching times, here are some of my faves:

"But seriously, my dicks laced up." - Mooney

"That ain't gunshots, that's bullshit." - Old Lady at Ghetto Kroger's

Blake: "do you have 4 quarters?"
Me: "no."
Blake: "oh i thought you would because you drive a mini van."
Me: "i'm not a mom!"

Me: "You were running around and squealing"
Shana: "I know, like a happy little piggy."

"All I asked for Christmas was a new pair of lungs."

Shana: "oh god, i hope it's not a dick picture."
Me: "i'm so glad i'm not the only one that thinks that."












That's all I got for now.
Peace, kitties and titties

I already did my good deed for today, drove my friend to his court date.
I work today, have tomorrow off and then I work 7 days in a row.

I'm so glad I am in love with my job because I think if I even a tad indifferent about my job I would hate working this much.

Here is some extra fun things from my tumblr. Follow me I'm gonna take a nap before work.

Happy New Year, lovers!
Let's start it right with cute animal gifs!












How are we feeling now?
If I could describe 2011 2 words it would be "mindful adventure."
My 3 resolutions last year were to:
*Complete a 365
*Finish my sleeve
*Grow my hair to my shoulders
Well, I failed my 365 miserably, but that was probably a good thing. I don't think I'd want to see this year in pictures. My sleeve though looks amazing. I'm just one 5 hour session away from completing it but a lot of people don't even notice that it's not done. I absolutely love how it turned out, and my customers adore it. I've had little old ladies oooh and aaah over it, I've had women thank me for sharing it with the world, I've had moms point out to their young children how pretty my tattoos are.

My artist is Rick Serna, he has done a lot of BelleBane's work too. We fucking love him I even named my unicorn pillow pet after him.

This one's named Jimmy.
The back of my hair is to my shoulders. What really helped me keep growing my hair was wearing wigs when I was getting anxious about that awkward stage. I also became an ace at tapering my own hair with clippers so I didn't have to spend money on a trim and it always looked exactly how I wanted it.




Next goal for the year is hair to my boobs. Here are my hairspirations:







Also I want to learn juggling. Why not?
And I'd love to complete another year at my job. I absolutely love it and I'd love to see how I improve in sales within the year. My accomplishments in my job that I've had since March is pretty fucking cool. I got a raise and a mini promotion that has more responsibilities, and then I got promoted again 5 months after to Senior Beauty Adviser and shortly after was Employee of the Month for Customer Service. For December my department did better by $3000+ than last year. This job also brought me up to full time so I work 40 hours a week. I find myself saying under my breath every day, "I love my job." and it could be for many different reasons.

Most importantly I want to continue practicing mindfulness.






I hope the best for everyone this year. BetteJean loves you.
xoxo