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MARCH 2, 2005 @ 01:33 AM

when you need the pretty words... that is when they fail you.

there are not words to describe...

theres a feeling... an amazing feeling of being so small and so insignificant that awe takes you in such a way... that your breath catches in your throat and your eyes start to well and youre not sure why....

and its beautiful.

maybe it was the oxygen failing me as i climbed higher and higher into the mountains, but if ive ever been close to god it was then.

i stood on an outcropping of rock, suspended like a piece of soul over a valley and a view that stretched hundreds of miles... there were trees and rivers and desert and more mountains, all stretched and rolling, unfurled before me and bathed in sun...

i wanted to put down roots, never leave.

there are ghostowns all along those roads, mysteries and geological anomolies and wild animals that stare at you, puzzled, unsure of what you are...

buffalo are bigger in person. and kind of jerks.

i set out to clear my head, aching and sick and sure of only one thing...

that this place would be a new beginning for me.

its amazing how a place so close can be so foreign to what i know here...

i looked at the world with eyes as though id never seen before, as though id been blind until that moment and i blinked and in came the sun...

but its when you need the pretty words... thats when they fail you.

nothing i say will do it justice... but its locked in here.

if i could have only one wish, i would wish that i never forget.

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jonnytrrrash7

Vatican City

February 2004

MAR 02, 2005 01:45 AM

i doubt you will be forgetting such an idyllic image....yes there's nothing like the satisfaction of climbing a mountain top and surveying all around you and knowing you are just a little speck in the grand scheme of things...........

going to places like that is truly like being on a different planet!!

MrGinger

San Rafael, CA

November 2003

MAR 02, 2005 02:33 AM

those elephants wish a different thing
to remember everything?
you wish that?
than you've done much less wrong than I
'cause the shame requires rebirth
that can only start with death
than again
then again
that new begining
has powerful colors

fringes

Canada

January 2004

MAR 02, 2005 03:30 AM

Welcome to the club! Im forever in awe of what nature has unfurled before my eyes. But can it ever equal the exhiliration of the astronauts when 1st setting eyes on our LIVING BREATHING Planet! The result of billions of years of evolution of which we as man has shown so little regard for. Enjoy it before the Masters of Destruction in theirInsanity lay waste to our MOTHER! You Wont forget !

thelefthand

Duluth, MN

March 2004

MAR 02, 2005 05:15 AM

roam if you must but come home when youve seen enough....

dont forget what you wish you wouldnt, just dont forget us either

Sabre

I'm lost

June 2004

MAR 02, 2005 06:04 AM

Hi...

I'm glad you're alive....

eurisko

I'm lost

February 2004

MAR 02, 2005 06:04 AM

i never noticed it before but you are an amazing writer

rkharper

Switzerland

January 2005

MAR 02, 2005 06:06 AM

lovely benni,

just wanted to stop by and say hello...

hello

I hope your doing fine

peace

rkharper

SupremePizzaMan

Seattle, WA

September 2003

MAR 02, 2005 07:41 AM

You leave my friend buffalo alone. He was just having a bad day, his ex-gf had just smashed his mix tape.

skydancer

Woodinville, WA

January 2005

MAR 02, 2005 08:21 AM

Ahhhh.... beautiful words....beautiful scene.

I've stood on similar heights, looking out over valleys, the wind in my face...and I've stepped off and into the sky, my wing of nylon spread above me carrying me up on the lifting currents of air.

To be suspended with the air singing through my lines, sitting a thousand feet or more above the valley, soaring.

To soar, to dance in the sky....

MoralityDies

Berkeley, CA

October 2003

MAR 02, 2005 08:24 AM

im glad you had a good time.

quickness

Monroe, MI

August 2003

MAR 02, 2005 08:44 AM

i love the new set hun

porcelainheart

Lafayette, LA

February 2004

MAR 02, 2005 08:44 AM

roam if you want to.

[roooam around the wooorld]

Accessed

Culver City, CA

November 2004

MAR 02, 2005 09:04 AM

Very very seductive set Ms. Benni

grimjack

Philadelphia, PA

January 2004

MAR 02, 2005 09:42 AM

There is nothing better than waking up to a Benni set. you rock, lady...seriously.

Tjaden

I'm lost

June 2003

MAR 02, 2005 09:51 AM

kinda had a hunch that you'd come back with those words... i know exactly what it is that you speak of...

welcome back, and congrats on another beautiful set.

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