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maybe my hands are not my hands. they seem to have a mind of their own, as of late... all they can think about are my arms...
the insomnia is getting worse... a full night of sleep marred by nightmares has evolved to a couple of hours of death like sleep punctuated by a gasp awake and a couple of hours of terrified confusion before exhaustion takes me away again...
at least im still getting some sleep.
im back to work after the latest mutant arm day... the first week back is the worst... all my strength and coordination disappears, and i have to build it back in... and its hard to get pretty and leave the house when all you want to do is hibernate...
today a beautiful boy cried and it was my fault... i was sorry, but hurting too.
everyone thinks im out to get them, when in actuality i think theyre out to get me.
maybe thats the lack of sleep talking...
i cant wait to see tegan again. la for her birthday... wouldnt travel that far for many birthdays...
what can i say? i love the ladies.
JAN 23, 2005 04:04 AM
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What's not to love?
JAN 23, 2005 06:19 AM
Hi,
Remember me? I wish your arm didn't hurt so bad, after those sessions. 
It's a good time of year to hibernate, but we don't make very good bears. I can be grumpy enough to be a bear, but I'm furless and the cold makes me want to pee alot, so I can't sleep for that long of a period.
LA is a good trip to look forward to. I remember how much you and Tegan like each other, so for that alone it should be a great time. Maybe a good soak in some California sun might help. .....it' can't hurt. Unless it's still raining out there.
JAN 23, 2005 06:46 AM
still tormented by the dream gods.....what did you do to deserve as such, i wonder.......are ghosts and spirits channeling thru you?
hope the tegan visit brings some respite to the troubled nights....can't imagine it would hurt 
take care!! 
JAN 23, 2005 07:44 AM
yeah, hibernation. its the cool thing lately. 
JAN 23, 2005 08:13 AM
JAN 23, 2005 08:44 AM
No sleep.. Nothing worse than no sleep. You know what always screws up my sleep? Family always screws up my sleep. They're insidous. They ge through your defenses, becasue they have known you from before they existed. They're approval shoudl'nt matter, and they piss you off, and you try to ignore them, but somehow they throw you off track and make you feel like shit . . . sometimes without even trying!
Whatever is racing around in your brain will work itself out, and then you will sleep again. I'll bet that seeing your lady love will help too. Lucky girl.
porcelainheart
Lafayette, LA
February 2004
JAN 23, 2005 08:56 AM
JAN 23, 2005 08:58 AM
comment for the sake of commenting. 
AF71321
Fayetteville, NC
OLD SKOOL
JAN 23, 2005 09:00 AM
JAN 23, 2005 09:00 AM
I actually got to talk to the lovely Ms. Tegan on the phone the other day. I can see how one would miss her greatly, she sounds like a great girl.
Insomnia isn't something I've had to deal with much lately. I sort of react the opposite way to stress situations, in that I'm always tired and can't help but fall asleep whenever I have a moment free. Since I got dumped about a week ago, I haven't done much but sleep.
Wanna trade half of your insomnia for half of my narcolepsy?
Feel better kiddo. I'm lousy with advice, but I got a good bit of it from Mei the other day... Go read her journal and check it out.
-Trevor
JAN 23, 2005 11:00 AM
Hey. Can I get you to travel to see me? I know it is alot of distance and the expense would be great but I can guarantee you that you will fed upon arrival.
Look! Hummus!
JAN 23, 2005 11:37 AM
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