SuicideGirl: Benni
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NOVEMBER 11, 2004 @ 07:58 AM


you know, ive gotta tell you... sometimes im a hard act to follow. ive been staring at this screen for some three odd hours, my fingertips hovering just over the keys, completely aware that i have absolutely no idea what i need to say.

not necessarily sure i know what i want to say either, for that matter.

there was a moment tonight where millions of pieces of red and white were bursting upwards from everywhere, and then they were falling and they were in my hair and on my hands and piled at my feet, and i made a conscious decision to live in a snow globe when i grew up...

you could shake me to keep my happy instead of shaking me to chase away my dreams.

i miss you.

im lightheaded from lack of sleep, but im afraid to find my bed... its too soon, and i think last nights dreams are still under my pillow waiting for me...

i dont want them. not yet. maybe just a couple more hours. what should we do until then?

what to do until then...

what to do...

i think this should have everything to do with a slice of pie. and i just so happen to have one left. youre going down, pie... mad

dont let that mad face fool you; im actually quite in love with that pie.

i wanted to thank all you well wishers... even in my absence, i got more birthday wishes and kind words then ill ever deserve in my life...

i never question why i love this place.

my own little slice of snow globe heaven... and pie... and... pie...

please excuse me. i must eat him.

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PaleEnchantress

Paleenchantress

Adams, MA
April 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:04 AM

kiss

MoralityDies

MoralityDies

Berkeley, CA
October 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:07 AM

hey you! mad

projectnova

projectnova

San Francisco, CA
July 2002

NOV 11, 2004 08:08 AM

hey you. just sayin' hi.

MoralityDies

MoralityDies

Berkeley, CA
October 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:10 AM

mmmm...mad pie

MoralityDies

MoralityDies

Berkeley, CA
October 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:10 AM

well sound the fucking trumpets!!! Bennis Back!! mad


edit: cant spell blush mad

[Edited on Nov 11, 2004 8:12AM]

jonnytrrrash7

jonnytrrrash7

Vatican City
February 2004

NOV 11, 2004 08:14 AM

you been in a bad place?....well, welcome back, kiddo.......damn, your prose be very elegant.....that snow globe analogy=aces!......i started a snow globe collection but stopped ooz i collect too much already.....my fondest christmas memory is of a simple cabin scene that i was so fascinated by as a wee lad.....rosebud?

MoralityDies

MoralityDies

Berkeley, CA
October 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:14 AM

HOOOOOLLLYY SHIT! Its time to break out the hot pockets and the mystery lube cuz benni's comin' to town. woo-hoo!! biggrin mad

neodrunk

neodrunk

Minneapolis, MN
May 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:15 AM

kiss

Missed you, baby, but it's good to see you here again.

pie, mmm...

And now that you're back, I'm off to Portland.

pie, mmm...

I hope to see you one last time (Tues) before the butchers cut me up.

pie, mmm...

I now want pie, mmm.

tonguemiao!!

eidolon

eidolon

Chicago, IL
December 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:15 AM

congratulations on your return from the snow globe.
*plays 'taps' for the pie*
I had a slice of sweet potato pie, myself last night.
If there are bad things inder your pillow, there's always the couch.
Problem with that is that you wake up feeling like a bit of a degenerate.
You get used to it.
kiss

dedgirl

dedgirl

Old Orchard Beach, ME
June 2004

NOV 11, 2004 08:15 AM

aww that was a most comforting entry, miss slice kiss

neodrunk

neodrunk

Minneapolis, MN
May 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:20 AM

I'm actually feeling really good, all things considered.

Pain is now constant in my lower back.

Pain has decended down into my legs like lightning.

But as long as I've been careful (no fucking in cars), things have been cool

tonguemiao!!

jonnytrrrash7

jonnytrrrash7

Vatican City
February 2004

NOV 11, 2004 08:22 AM

yep......just looking at snow globes at christmas time gets me all teary eyed.........shit, have you noticed that stores already got christmas displays up?? c'mon it''s not even thanksgiving yet!!

'tis the season to spend $$$
fa la la la la-la la la la!!

eidolon

eidolon

Chicago, IL
December 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:27 AM

If you've got stuff falling out of your head, perhaps you should look into getting the hole spackled shut. It may be weird for a while, but you'll get used to it.

eidolon

eidolon

Chicago, IL
December 2003

NOV 11, 2004 08:30 AM

I bought a short couch, too - just so I wouldn't fall asleep on it.
Giant Monroe lips, actually.
Yes, my house is decorated in contemporary brothel.
I still manage to fall asleep on it from time to time. While I never wind up on the floor, I never wind up comfortable either. I think there's just a bit too much of me for a 2-seater.

jonnytrrrash7

jonnytrrrash7

Vatican City
February 2004

NOV 11, 2004 08:32 AM

yeah let's just boycott the whole thing.......i spend enough $$ year round anyways!

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