SuicideGirl: Benni
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Benni likes Professor Tad "Snakie" Snakenstein.

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MAY 31, 2004 @ 12:57 PM


i had nightmares last night... a lot of scattered imagery to be sure, but goddamn... i have nightmares probably too much, so you'd think i'd be used to it. damn kids. here's a list of repeated imagery/scenarios in my dreams. feel free to analyze (and feel free to be hilarious, as you children often are. just another reason i love you so):

i'm a chainsmoker. cigarette after cigarette after cigarette. i've never even TRIED smoking a cigarette in my life, but i can even taste it, and apparently know how to hold it, ash it, etc.. so very odd.

i go to the hospital to take care of an illness and come out... and they've given me breast implants instead. i start to cry and go back to the doctor demanding they fix it and take them out, but they explain that even if they take the implants out my breasts will never be back to normal. so very sad.

tornados come... sometimes one, sometimes many. i'm always in my car, and when i try to seek shelter all the doors are locked.

i can't walk or use my legs.

i'm handling tad and he gets away and/or starts to bite me and won't stop. sometimes there are other snakies involved in this scenario, and they hurt tad.

the chinchillas get out and i never see them again.

im driving and my car suddenly has no brakes, or the steering is almost completely nonresponsive. usually happens while driving at night, or next to a very tall rocky cliff with no guardrails. go figure.


yeeeeaah... so anyways... am i insane? maybe. but now me and snakie are going to have a mouse and steak barbeque... my family this memorial day is a snake. that's beautiful.

last night i was hanging out at a bar, and there was this young guy smoking this old fashioned pipe. i thought it would be funny for one of my friends (read: one of you) to start smoking one of those, so everytime i was right and you were wrong i could be like, "ha! put that in your pipe and smoke it!" uh... not that i'm ever right, mind you... blush

off. love you guys. expect me late tonight... and hopefully filled with barbeque... uh... hopefully i'm lucid enough to feed tad the mice. puke

luuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurve! love love love

to lazy for a lot of smilies. but SOON! mad

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projectnova

projectnova

San Francisco, CA
July 2002

MAY 31, 2004 01:06 PM

*hug*

i have dreams like that... i just woke up form a nap adn the entire time i was dreaming about being able to float around and not touch the ground... like... i can always float like 6 inches above the ground, but it take a litle more umph to actually FLY.

enjoy your bar-b-q stuffs. i'll try to be online layte tonight... email me and gimme the lowdown yo.

_Mrs_TLB_

_Mrs_TLB_

United Kingdom
December 2003

MAY 31, 2004 01:08 PM

find a book on the meaning of dreams. the books probably mean shit but it is interesting! plus makes you feel a little less crazy!

i have weird dreams every night! some are really weird! not nice at times!

SillyZebra

SillyZebra

Los Angeles, CA
September 2003

MAY 31, 2004 01:15 PM

aww nightmares suck
love love love love love love love
keep the bad dreams away

[Edited on May 31, 2004 1:19PM]

Iggy73

Iggy73

I'm lost
May 2004

MAY 31, 2004 01:18 PM

1. You love to smoke..

2. Fixation of your beautiful breasts and thinking they could be better (but thats is not possible)

3.You have many uncontrolable events in your life and they all seem to hit as same time, you just cant figure out a way to deal with one at a time.

4. see number 3

5 and 6 /shrug fear of losing someone close be it human or otherwise.

7. see number 3 again.

Sounds like your VERY sane to me not like I am a expert but I can identify with those same dreams when I do dream.. most time myself I cant ever remember squat of my dream.

robot

MoralityDies

MoralityDies

Berkeley, CA
October 2003

MAY 31, 2004 01:21 PM

you need a vacation, and i dont want to hear this "i dont have the money" crap. i'm sure that would make you feal much better.
mad biggrin mad biggrin mad

scatmonkey

scatmonkey

Canada
January 2004

MAY 31, 2004 01:45 PM

Sometimes a cigar is just a cigar, and a pipe is a parrot squawking on the shoulder of a fabulously dressed pirate. ARRR!!!

Anyway, first off, no more chicken pot pies for you before bed.

Honestly, I haven't a clue. I'm just guessing from what I've gleaned from the Discovery Channel.

But I figure if you went to a Freudian shrink they'd tell you it was all about sex. And another one would tell you they were dead wrong.

The tornados thing (or any natural disaster) is something about being afraid of elements you cannot control.

The cigarettes and snakes thing would probably fall under the category of "phallic". I'll just leave that hanging there like a dead trout, stinking up the joint.

The legs/can't walk thing is pretty common, I think. Well, I have them all the time, so I'm saying they're common so I can feel less crazy.

A lot of it is probably different fears manifesting themselves as either realistic portrayals (Tad getting attacked, Tad attacking you, the Chinchillas getting away, loosing control of the car --since you drive late at night a lot on your own) to more obscure metaphorical representations (the Tornado, the implants, heck, even the stuff with Tad).

Dream analysis is like horoscopes a lot of times; vague enough to fit, but completely without enough details to clarify.

Now, if someone can tell me what it means when I have dreams that I'm in High School giving a speech nekkid and I suddenly realize it, but instead of running of in embarrassment, I start doing a gymnastics routine and get pelted with sardines, then it morphs to me running over the hills of my homeland with a pack of wild Pomeranians, all of us yapping and snapping at each other, I'd greatly appreciate it.

*vague dreamlike pelvic thrust*

[Edited on May 31, 2004 1:46PM]

johnnyxcliche

johnnyxcliche

Minneapolis, MN
March 2004

MAY 31, 2004 01:52 PM

I've smoked an old pipe for years, since in high school...always had a fascination of them, grew up with my grandfather smoking one...it's nice, I'll find some pics of me with it someday...or you could just come over and watch me put stuff in my pipe and smoke it...I'll even let you say silly things like that...

toneski

toneski

Minneapolis, MN
January 2004

MAY 31, 2004 02:12 PM

Was this pipe smoker a black man with dreads? I bought him that fucking pipe!

Soma

Soma

HOPEFUL

Oakland, CA

MAY 31, 2004 04:11 PM

damn I hate nightmares! but in some ways they ar good cos when you wake up you're relieved instead of like with a good dream where you wake up and are disappointed...

AcidEvangelist

AcidEvangelist

Minneapolis, MN
March 2004

MAY 31, 2004 04:24 PM

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO breast implants!
If any nightmare hack touches them, I will rip
off his implanting arm and beat him to death
with it.

TheJuanupsman

TheJuanupsman

Hopkins, MN
April 2004

MAY 31, 2004 05:04 PM

i have nothing funny and am staying away from trying to interpret any kinds of dreams these days. But I hope you are doing well. smile

tarzan

tarzan

I'm lost
February 2004

MAY 31, 2004 06:12 PM

nightmares suck. i normally dont rember my dreams, but when i do their always the nightmares. i had a stretch of about a week where thats all i had. hopefully it will pass for youto. smile
hope your barbeque-for-two went well. if i was close id come burt meat with you, though i dont really care for snakes all that much,id make an exception just for you.
later hun ooo aaa <-- seemed appropiate tongue

TheJuanupsman

TheJuanupsman

Hopkins, MN
April 2004

MAY 31, 2004 07:08 PM

Heart u2

grizz3rd

grizz3rd

Clearwater, FL
February 2004

MAY 31, 2004 07:28 PM

You are the greatest love kiss love kiss love kiss I am pretty red in that picture. I was born and raised on the beach that is how tan I was.

curmudgeon

curmudgeon

Lincoln Park, MI
February 2003

MAY 31, 2004 07:30 PM

reading your journal is like watching a lynch film.
good day.

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