My balls man, breakin' em.

I'm having a very defeated kind of day.

Or, it may just be that I really don't care.

Ironically, I got the latest book I ordered in the mail today, Unmasking the face by Paul Eckman and Wallace V. Friesen. It's something I decided to order after spending a llittle while researching some stuff on the internet. This book is supposed to help me understand facial structure and it's underlying meanings, how each individual interprets feelings differently, and pretty much understand my own facial movements and what they're telling people about me. I've always thought that I was pretty in tune with myself, but I think it'd be interesting to see what people read off me.

So I got yelled at for something pretty ridiculous yesterday. I say ridiculous because the whole thing stemmed from someone else's lazyness and complete disregard for work ethic. And today to find out that, no it's okay, that person's gonna deal with the issue at hand from now on, so that they don't have to yell at me anymore. SO THAT THEY DON'T HAVE TO YELL AT ME ANYMORE. Anyone else think that this is fucking degrading and a little high and mighty on their part? Because the thing that I was getting yelled at for not doing right is something i've been doing 6 days a week, about 5-6 times a day, for the past 5 years. I like to think that I know how to do that. My point is if he wants to do it he's more than welcome to, but he doesn't have to make it seem like it's my fault for him having to do the work, and he doesnt have to make it seem like he's doing me a favor either.

I watched Super last night. The one with Rainn Wilson. So not what I expected. I was like meh, it looks like a so-so laugh movie, I was alone so I gave it a shot. Yeah starts off pretty funny, but it gets pretty intense there. Also I don't think I've ever seen Ellen Page that psychotic before. Here's something I RARELY say: I rather liked the ending.

it's a very defeated kind of day indeed.

Oh, I've not smoked a cigarillo for 4 days now. Pat on my back. It's harder to quit this time a round, and I feel like I probably didn't pick the best time to do that, regarding personal and work stuff. But you know what? I've already done 4 days so fuck it. I'mma stick it through.

Alright this is depressing as hell. I'll change my attitude and come clear this up with something sunny soon <

xoxo