Hey everyone, how are you?

I'm sick, again, but this time it seems to be really bad. I'm coughing up nasty stuff all the time and can't sleep properly. This morning I woke up with a horrible headache so my breakfast was a pain killer. Ugh.

The most eventfull thing during last week: I cut my hair!



then I bleached my roots again and it got really yellow there. I need to get some white toner now x/



It's pretty much all platinum now again and I'm debating whether to put some pastel blue on it again or let it this way. What do you guys think?

My friend who shot Panty Shot and Leopard will be over for the weekend and we'll do some fashion shots, I'm really excited. Haven't spent time with her alone for quite a while now
Hope I will be better then, especially since my mom is arriving tomorrow and stays with me and my bf until saturday. I don't want to be lying down sick all days. x(

Oh and my new set will be in member review in about 37 hours and I'm slowly getting excited again!

Don't you dare not love it

That'll be it for now, I'm listening to a lot of classic music and Ravi Shankar lately, makes my head all wonky. I'll be back as soon as I feel a little better. Hang on in there guys <3

Alright,

I survived new year's eve, halleluja.
I'm still pretty wasted, I got so drunk haha
Picture spam!



You wanted a spoiler? Won't get one

I really hope work will start again, soon. If they don't call this week, I'll call next monday, I'm slowly going insane. I wish I had money to buy fabric and start sewing my cosplay but no money no hobbies, unf. At least I could pay some stuff from my christmas money. This sucks so much.
Sorry, I don't want to rant so I'll just leave it at this.

I'm getting excited about my next set, only 10 days until it goes up annnd I could use the money, actually

Hey guys!!!

I am sufferin from insomnia again. Yesterday I met with people from school that I haven't seen for almost six years, it felt really weird and I got really drunk. So I'm hangover today and my neck hurts from dancing. I didn't do anything useful today. I ate, did some laundry and played Zelda. And I dyed my hair again.



I couldn't decide if blue or lilac so I went with both













We'll be having a party tomorrow, I'm excited!!
Also, feel free to take a look at my lost set and leave me a comment, it's not like this is goin to be anymore useful anyways x)

I hope everyone's fine, take care of yourselves and don't party too hard
I really hope 2012 will be better, 2011 wasn't bad, but I want to work again and finally get my life in order...

Kisses <3

Merry belated christmas, everyone!!!

I hope you all had wonderful days. I spent most of mone with my bf's family. Yesterday my dad and my sis came around but I still haven't met my other sister who came over from italy four days ago. I told her to call me when she's free and she'll fly home again in three days...I really doubt I'll see her D:

I got some cool presents, my bf's mom and sis gave me the Sorting Hat. I mean, the SORTING HAT!!! That's so cool. I also got a lot of money because I told everyone I needed some. I can pay for some stuff I reserved so that's all fine!
I gave my bf a N64 for christmas, he was really happy and now we're playing Zelda all day

However, my photographer's hard drive crashed some weeks ago and now it's official, the data can't be saved. I'm really sad because there's a complete set that waited for editing and sending that is lost forever now. I'm glad se sent me some low res files the day after shooting, so I did some automatic color correction on them and uploaded it. Feel free to take a look here: I hope you like it though the pictures are realy grainy and blurry now

Keep it up everyone, thanks for being so awesome everyone <3

Hey guys!

I did all of the laundry today and now I'm really exhausted. Christmas is coming closer and I still don't feel any christmas-y. I fought with my grandma some days ago. She is really annoying because she always has to meddle with my stuff though it's not her business. Also, she broke her foot some weeks ago and now she's angry because I didn't call her and asked if I could help her the last weeks. She just doesn't understand that I can't talk that much to her because she's driving me insane with all her meddling, and she's really wearing a tinfoil hat at times and that is super wearisome. I mean, she's not stupid but sometimes her simplemindedness is just driving me insane because she still insists to be right because she's 70 and I can't know better because I'm so much younger. I mean, she literally said "You mustn't order from japan now, all the parcels will be atomically radiated and you could get sick!"
Phew. However, I called her, listened to her complaints and how much I disappointed her and how bad her foot ist and now we are allowed to spend christmas there.
You need to know, my dad is celebrating with his girlfriend's familie and I can't stand her a but so I really don't wanna join them but my mom and her fiance are staying in italy because the flights were to expensive and only my sister is coming but will spend christmas eve at her dad's and his girlfriend's family. Yes, I have a huge patchwork family. So I'm going with my bf to his family and they are just all really weird. I mean, I like them a lot but their christmas tradition is so different from my family's and they are not very heartful with each other. However, I assume this year's christmas will just suck :/

I want chocolate

I had a photoshoot last weekend and got the results. A friend of mine wanted to take some night shots with lights and stuff so we went. It was freezing cold and stormy but I love most pics









And, just as usual, I took some webcam pics for you guys















I'll keep watching movies with Kevin Costner now x)

Yeah so far.
Hello guys to another blog. I'm fine again, though I feel like the empress of procrastination.



This is my desktop background. For reasons.

I went christmas shopping today and got a load of stuff. My boyfriend hates it when he has to get presents and go into stuffed malls and stuff so he's almost freaking out whenever I don't go with him. We got some body butter for his mom, a kitchen dictionary for his sister, a hat for his neece, a tea service for my granny, a pullover for my dad, a handbag and a necklace for my sisters. I also got everything for him in the last days and got something for my girls except my best friends. She's the worst, I never know what to buy her
However, I spent a lot of money and at one point snatched a jar of blue hair dye because I was sick of the purple and now I'm blue



(SG, why the FUCK are you incapable of showing my pictures roted? I have opened that pic on my PC, in GIMP, in Photoshop and in paint and it's rotated in every single each of them graaaah )

It's a lot more blue in real life and natural light, I think I really like it though my hair is starting to annoy me again. Hnng, why can't I just be satisfied with my hair?

This is what I wore today:



I fucking LOVE this coat
That's a very old pair of jeans, I bought them in 2006 and never really wore them. I was only wearing baggy pants at that time and wanted to get a more girly pair. Now while they fit perfectly on the hips, the had a flare leg and I find that really ugly. I hoped they'd grow on me but yesterday I just took my sewing machine, made drain pipes outta them and gave them a used look. I really like how it came out, yay for new old jeans!













Errm, I think that's it for today. Take care, lovely people

It doesn't hurt me
You want to feel, how it feels?
You want to know, know that it doesn't hurt me?
You want to hear about the deal I'm making
You, you and me

And if I only could
Make a deal with God
get him to swap our places
Be running up that road
Be running up that hill
Be running up that building
If I only could, oh...

You don't want to hurt me
But see how deep the bullet lies
Unaware I'm tearing you asunder
there's a thunder in our hearts, baby

so much hate for the ones we love?
Tell me, we both matter, don't we?
You, you and me
you and me, won't be unhappy

And if I only could
make a deal with God
And get him to swap our places
Be running up that road
Be running up that hill
Be running up that building
if I only could, oh

Come on, baby, c'mon c'mon darling
Let me steal this moment from you now
Come on, angel, c'mon, c'mon, darling
Let's exchange the experience
oh...
And if I only could
make a deal with God
And get him to swap our places
Be running up that road
Be running up that hill



Thanks BEN_B and jsnoopy1213

This is a rant post, feel free to skip if you don't want to read angry nonsense.

Though I usually have a lot of things on my mind, several hobbies and a lot of friends, my current financial situation doesn't allow many of them. I love to sew cosplays but I need supplies that I can't buy. I need to buy fucking 16 christmas presents of which I have 2 atm and I seriously have no money. And I don't want to diy something, I have no ideas. I would like to meet my friends, hang out and stuff but there's a fucking storm here so going out is no debate. Also, tickets for public transport are expensive. So I'm sitting at home all day, browsing the web and checking stuff on livejournal and SG.
Actually, atm SG is really the only entertainment left for me. All my friends work during the day. I stay up late and sleep long. I do nothing. And I'm freaking out. My confidence is at its end. I feel ugly and useless. I try to dress up everyday now, that helps a bit but I'm used to buying new stuff every few days so I'm getting bored of my clothes. Yes, I could do the laundry, clean our flat, do the stuff I wanted to do since we moved in here but I have no energy. I have all the time in the world and make no use of it. I don't even want to play Pokemon or Zelda anymore. I turned into a fucking zombie.
Yesterday I called the place I usually worked and asked for news. The usually scheduled our return for december and we were told to call in at the beginning of december to ask for an update. When I did, the person in charge was on holiday for the next 10 days. Maaan. I called her two days ago and she said, they'll talk about it asap and she'll get back to me. Haven't heard from her until now. If she doesn't call on monday I'll freak out. And all the time I try to remain calm because my boyfriend is even worse, He's freaking out since september. So I try to cheer him up and tell him everything's gonna be alright.
On SG I still feel really alien, everyone is really friendly but hey, everyone is always friendly on here. Every one gets compliments and said how hot and pretty they are so it doesn't really feel special to me though I know it's bad to think like this. Two days ago I really loved the new set I sent and today I have doubts I did my best to look sexy. I feel like I should work out and lose some weight, at least around the hips because there are so many pretty girls with flawless curves on here. At the same time I feel like a complete idiot for comparing me with others. I really really wanna be a Suicide Girl and I feel bad when I think how much more I would be suited than others sometimes because I know I'm not superior and have no right to judge them like this. I am just really fristrated right now.

and yes, first world problems, everyone else might suffer a lot more from whatever reasons, I know. I still feel like shit.

Hey folks!

I went christmas shopping today. I bought a jacket for my bf and a hat for his neece. And got myself something at the H&M sale.



This is what I wore, I have to admit I really love my purple today. It changes everyday, lol. Later it started to rain like hell and now the part where the bandana was is darker than the part that got wet. Derp.



This is what I bought. (man I look fat on this pic)



I love the different patterns, I'm a sucker for lacey stuff





Annnnnd my set is finished and will be sent tomorrow, so that means I can finally post some previews!!





I really hope this'll get bought, Lavezzaro did an awesome job!


see you <3

Hello, lovely people <3

I want to start this blog with saying how awesome most of you guys are.
When I joined SG and became a hopeful I was sure most people on here were just pervy pervs and superficial and stuff. But lately got to know so many friendly and nice people on here that surely do not only like me because they like my tits (there isn't much of them to like anyways, size-wise lol). Sure, there are those pervy pervs I suspected but still I am surprised how many lovely and interesting people are on here. And how open-minded, helpful and pleasent so many people on here are. <3

That being said, I'm returning to my usual blogging routine of showing you some pics of me :3





my little girl <3



I got back to purple yesterday, this time for the last time I think. I will stay platinum for a while now again!



This me eating more pizza while my bf is playing <3



this is me eating ice cream. I sure eat a lot



and this is me sprawling around once more










I shot a new set with the fabulous Lavezzaro today. I am so glad, the pictures turned out awesome, I'm already loving this set to pieces. It's gaming themed and full of nerdiness! Have two previews I snatched from her fb :>



u better not ask, lol



I'm really really excited, I hope they'll buy this one

Thanks everyone for leaving so much love on my previous sets <3

I hope everyone is fine, take care lovely people!! <3