Good evening comrades.

Life has been another week of ups and downs for me. Christmas is approaching and this year we have real snow already. I already got most of the christmas presents because I hate running late with christmas shopping.

There is this good friend of mine who just joined SG, go say hi to Squirrel_ please!

The gastroscopy and tissue analysis turned out with no result. According to the doctor I just have an upset stomache due to stress. So all I have to do is avoid stress, yay. Fuck you. I'm still not eating properly because I'm afraid of the pain. I want to go to work regularly. I've been completely beneath myself today. When my mom and I where exchanging texts I started to cry at work, hiding behind my computer screen so no one noticed. She booked a flight to come visit me starting tomorrow night. I didn't even realize how much I missed her until this point. It's been six months with only texting and very few calls. Obviously my being-a-big-girl-abilities have just run out. Now some mommy-days to refill them. I hope it will make me feel more like myself again.

In other news, I changed again.









I like the night




I'm finally getting my thigh done tomorrow. I've waited 7 fucking months for this appointment. Can't wait. Six hours of pure pain and joy!


And you will get to see this whenever the huge kraken aka the queue is going to release it...

(stolen from Sawa's instagram, hence her dog Rosa peeking in )

I can't really promise I will be onlinethe next days as mommy time goes first but you can check my instgram @compassowl for updates.
I also have a facebook and a wishlist for those of you who fancy these kinds of things. I'm still waiting for my SG merch parcel. Another parcel from the US that was sent later already arrived today so boooo on slow and expensive SG Shop shipping!!

Take care lovelies and a great second sunday in advent for everyone