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Ash An experimental genetic labratory disaster gone horribly wrong

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MAY 6, 2008 @ 03:07 PM

May rocks. It seems that almost *everyone* in my life that's close to me has a birthday in May (myself included) which is kind of odd, considering there are 12 months in the yr. Why everyone I love is crammed into just one month will remain a mystery.

Everyone is having such a difficult time lately, why is that? With the only common factor being "myself", I've got to wonder if maybe I'm just ... bad luck? I dont even know if I believe in "luck", but what else do u call something that happens, be it positive or negative, that's out of your control?

I hate being kicked while I'm already down. Sometimes the kicking is repetitive. Sometimes the kicking is accompanied by being spit in the face, or a nice "curby" resulting in the loss of your entire row of front teeth, and also a baseball bat smashing your face in. It's times like these where all you want to do is lie there and recover, no matter how long it takes. But everyone around you is continuously screaming "GET UP!! GET UP!!", and you're just thinking:

"listen, man .. I've got 2 broken legs, a missing arm and a shattered skull, how the bloody HELL am I supposed to get up right now?! On my OWN, no less?" blackeyed

I think inside everyone there is the strongest person in the world, but also the weakest person in the world. I'm sending my most powerful, Ashtastic vibes to everyone who has to get off the ground and stand on broken legs right now.


So yeah, I'll be turning ... 21. For the .. 5th time? 6th time? lol! Shhh! You're only as old as u feel! Only as old as you FEEL!! blush

Q's

~Do u think that beauty can/does effect a persons success in life? Do you typically go for ppl that are what is considered "conventionally beautiful"? What do YOU define as "beauty" in your own words/terms?
~Have u ever received a service for something (like for instance .. eaten in a restaurant) and realized *after* u received the service that u left your wallet at home? (haha Ive always wondered what one does in a scenario such as this!)
~Whats the worst joke that was played on you or that you played on someone else?
~Post a photo of something here for whatever reason ... make sure it's entertaining in some fashion wink

R.I.P Neo, u are forever loved.



R.I.P Parker, I thought we still had more time.

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Ence

Ence

HOPEFUL

I'm lost

MAY 06, 2008 07:21 PM

R.I.P Neo is so cute.

The_Boss

The_Boss

I'm lost
June 2007

MAY 06, 2008 07:41 PM

Well the next time we are down in chitown we'll let you know?

DevilsReject

DevilsReject

Cleveland, OH
February 2007

MAY 06, 2008 08:15 PM

I have had a camper at this campground since i was 21, now that i am 21 (+12 or so) i still have a camper there. I started out with an old 75'ish camper and in 2001, upgraded to something better. I pretty much live out there in the summertime once the kiddo gets out of school.

I am in school for....Computer and Electrical Engineering Technician, i am going for my bachelors and i am going to follow it up with an associates in Programming. I shall be uhber geek.

OOOH! Questions!

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~Do u think that beauty can/does effect a persons success in life? Do you typically go for ppl that are what is considered "conventionally beautiful"? What do YOU define as "beauty" in your own words/terms?



I think that in some cases beauty does affect someone's success in life. Sometimes it dictates what a person does with their life depending on how they manipulate their beauty. Some people make millions of dollars being a model, some use their gray matter to gain success. In some cases beauty (or handsomeness) can be used as an evil tool to get what people need. I wish those people would stop it.

I don't know what "conventionally beautiful" is to tell you the truth. I think the barbie doll image is often sought after all too much.

Beauty comes in more than just looks. In my eyes you can have a beautiful woman who has horrible intentions and does horrible things in so much that it ruins her physical beauty for me. Beauty is a beautiful mind, a beautiful heart, and what i consider physically beautiful. Even that changes from person to person, what i find physically beautiful the next person may not.


~Have u ever received a service for something (like for instance .. eaten in a restaurant) and realized *after* u received the service that u left your wallet at home? (haha Ive always wondered what one does in a scenario such as this!)



I have filled up my gas tank and forgotten my wallet. I walked into the store and said "I forgot my wallet, but here is my cell phone, i will be back in ten minutes with my wallet". They agreed, it also kind of helps that i go to the same gas station every time i fill up so they know me. Honesty is usually the best policy in that situation.

~Whats the worst joke that was played on you or that you played on someone else?



Too many to list. i love practical jokes. and people love playing them on me. Mostly because they know i won't get mad.

~Post a photo of something here for whatever reason ... make sure it's entertaining in some fashion



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(my friend asked me what i thought of something and i replied with this, and the message "it was so dumb i had a stroke")

Jamila

Jamila

HOPEFUL

USA

MAY 06, 2008 08:28 PM

My birthday's in May too smile
I'm gonna be on the downslope of my twenties.
That's weird...I think they forgot to flip the adult switch.
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DokuroChan

DokuroChan

SUICIDEGIRL

Philippines

MAY 06, 2008 09:51 PM

condolences to your pet...
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i miss my guine pig...

anyways thanks for your comment in my blog. my babies had a fight with yakisoba hehe...
btw about your Q's?

~Do u think that beauty can/does effect a persons success in life?
I think so, in negative and postive way of course...

~Do you typically go for ppl that are what is considered "conventionally beautiful"?
it depends...

~What do YOU define as "beauty" in your own words/terms?
for me beauty is within, a beautiful person can be so fucking ugly if he/she had the most worst attitude ever... he or she may look pretty but the thing is it just the way it looks but it always counts in it's mind and soul not really in the heart...

~Have u ever received a service for something (like for instance .. eaten in a restaurant) and realized *after* u received the service that u left your wallet at home? (haha Ive always wondered what one does in a scenario such as this!)
nope.

~Whats the worst joke that was played on you or that you played on someone else?
nothing. it's all about the timing..

~Post a photo of something here for whatever reason ... make sure it's entertaining in some fashion
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Tallboy66

Tallboy66

USA
January 2005

MAY 06, 2008 10:02 PM

Your rats died frown ?

I love the sun and the beach in the summer, I mean how would you classify me? a preppy beach bum who loves industrial/synth pop/electronic music whatever surreal

I'm doing better $$$ wise but I still feel you, maybe have a house party b.y.o.b. that would help your socializing.

~Do u think that beauty can/does effect a persons success in life?

Yes somewhat. We've all heard the stories of how the handsome/pretty person is making it big.

I say personality goes a long way too.

Do you typically go for ppl that are what is considered "conventionally beautiful"?

Sometimes, they are good looking but... I tend to go for offbeat,eclectic types.

What do YOU define as "beauty" in your own words/terms?
Attitude and personality are great.
~Have u ever received a service for something (like for instance .. eaten in a restaurant) and realized *after* u received the service that u left your wallet at home? (haha Ive always wondered what one does in a scenario such as this!) I lost my bank card 2 weekends ago and when I went to pay I got that sinking feeling, luckily I had a credit card to pay with.

~Whats the worst joke that was played on you or that you played on someone else?
You may have heard already but for the longest time (even now) there was a rumor that I was a virgin or gay.

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writeboy

writeboy

Zimbabwe
February 2006

MAY 06, 2008 10:29 PM

Sounds like you need a full body cast. Or a shotgun.

Not sure my brain has grown at all since 5.

You can use the roof any time, just ask. Photo stuff has been fun, tho I'm just learning. Next time a group of us do a shoot we should invite you over to hang out smile

Stellaris

Stellaris

SUICIDEGIRL

I'm lost

MAY 07, 2008 06:24 AM

hi,

smile
one set is in hopefuls for like 1 year now and the others too beginning this year. i feel like i need to delete one, because its getting too much but i like them all.

and the video are just there for your amusement biggrin one member said i should put them on youtube... but oh no i donīt want any of the people from my village or so on see that tongue not that i am embaressed but they shit-talk a lot.

oh yes photoshop. there is so much to learn about it. i donīt have it on my laptop so far. as soon as i have i will buy a book to learn more about it. the class is nice but so far i wouldnīt consider it very usefull. next time the teacher is going to take pics of us, so that we can photoshop our own pic of us. thats going to be interessting smile

and i am sorry for your loss of those to cuties frown


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thats a pic from before we went to a bad taste party last week

charlemagne

charlemagne

Battle Creek, MI
May 2005

MAY 07, 2008 08:31 AM

My SG subscription runs out somewhere around the middle of this month. I've had loads of fun and seen lots of nekkid girls--almost like paradise. I won't deny, however, that the nekkid chick bit wore off pretty quickly--I guess I'm not as much of a perv as I thought I was. The thing that I have enjoyed the most is communicating with my SG friends. Everyone of you is unique, and common problems aside, you have all shown me something new about this big bad world we live in. I have witnessed heartbreak and triumph, and I've become closer to some of you than the people I've worked with. I'll miss you, and who knows? I just might come back if I regain a little more trust in the system.

My sister and nephew also have a birthday this month, by the way.

1) I've often tried to define my canon of beauty, but I get stumped every time. There is no doubt that beautiful, tall people do have one up in life. However, these successful folks are also conformists, and if they non-conform, it's play acting. It may seem like an oxymoron, but sublime ugliness can be beautiful if seen by the sympathetic eye. When I try to list the qualities in what kind of woman I think is beautiful, I find myself faced with contradictions. I've been enamoured by women of all sizes and shapes and with personalities as far apart as Medusa from Aphrodite. I've decided it depends on the mood I'm in as to what I think is beautiful at the moment.

2) I've never forgotten my wallet when I've gone to a restaurant, but when I was younger and didn't always carry a wallet, I got into trouble because of it. Some friends and I had gone to the drive-in theater to see a movie. One of these chaps was a practical joker, and he took the driver's keys from the ignition when we went to get refreshments. Anyway, when the theater closed, and everyone around us left, we were searching frantically for the keys. The manager of the theater came out and told us to leave, and we tried to explain to him our predicament. He left, and about 15 minutes later we heard the crunching of tires on gravel, and suddenly we were bathed in light from the headlights of a police car. The cop got out of his car with his gun drawn and told us to put our hands on the roof of our car. Gun still drawn, he frisked us and asked for our drivers licenses. I didn't have mine, and he made a nasty remark. He went back to his car with the other guys ID's, and did some calling on his radio. A few minutes later, he came back to us, but as he was walking toward us, he spotted our car keys on the ground. He told us we checked out OK, and when we left we were to follow him out and not do anything foolish. As we drove out, we saw there were a couple of state police cars at each entrance, and all of the police had shotguns and rifles at the ready. Holy shit! It turns out, as we later learned, that four guys had escaped from Ionia State Prison, and I guess for a time that night we were escaped cons. I learned then to always carry my ID.

3) Worst joke played on me--see the above. smile

Sioux

Sioux

SUICIDEGIRL

Illinois, USA

MAY 07, 2008 09:36 AM

okay I will answer one of your questions....

~Do u think that beauty can/does effect a persons success in life? Do you typically go for ppl that are what is considered "conventionally beautiful"? What do YOU define as "beauty" in your own words/terms?

Well what I think is "beauty" is just that, what I think....but I do believe that in my life I would not have gotten very far without being at least "pretty" which is sad, I am very smart I have many degrees, been a 4.0 GPA my whole life, but it seems as if when people meet me (in business setting) I am always given a chance cause I look good, then they find out I am not stupid either....I would really like it the other way around but I guess I have to take what I get....plus when I turn 21 for the 19th time it might be nice to be seen that way.

Why so many May baby's-----summers almost over in Chicago (August-Sept) people start up the winter fucking smile

I always wondered why there were so many Dec babies.....but then March is a total "you gotta fuck month" cause it's one of the crappiest months, nothings going on, it's cold, and boring so you gotta do something!

Here's a pic for ya....haha I need to look like this again soon....

Tie

Tie

HOPEFUL

Austria

MAY 07, 2008 11:51 AM

haha yeeees i love colors.. allthough it's hard to believe wink
i study multimedia but i concentrate on film mainly.

well home for me is austria.. but i love to travel.. i can't take it to stay longer than a month in one place. smile

how about you? where's your "home" have you always been in chicago?
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Vermin

Vermin

HOPEFUL

United Kingdom

MAY 07, 2008 01:38 PM

Your squishes are beautiful, I hope they sleep well.

The May birthday thing is just freaky. My mum, my dad, my mum's partner, my old harp teacher, my aunt, several family friends and our missing kitten all have birthdays this month. It's crazy!


~Do u think that beauty can/does effect a persons success in life? Do you typically go for ppl that are what is considered "conventionally beautiful"? What do YOU define as "beauty" in your own words/terms?


I think in our society although not being attractive doesn't necessarily hold you back, being obviously attractive maybe makes things easier....it's a shame. As for my personal view, pretty eyes and cheekbones will get me hot every time, but there's got to be something a little bit unusual or flawed there as well for me to think he's "beautiful". Like different coloured eyes or scars or something.


~Have u ever received a service for something (like for instance .. eaten in a restaurant) and realized *after* u received the service that u left your wallet at home? (haha Ive always wondered what one does in a scenario such as this!)



I recently bought a crapload of stuff at the supermarket only to find that a cheque hadn't cleared and I had to put a load of stuff back. Was SO embarrassing.


~Whats the worst joke that was played on you or that you played on someone else?



Mostly things like boys in school asking me out and when I said "Er, okay" they screamed "UUUUGGGH!!!" right in my face and ran away. Nice.

As for pictar...

Apexxx

Apexxx

Chicago, IL
August 2004

MAY 07, 2008 05:48 PM

that means everyone you know is gettin' it on in September, as summer comes to a close... wink

Diablolipop

Diablolipop

Forest Lake, MN
February 2004

MAY 07, 2008 10:01 PM

mom will be 64 in june. i got my pancreas problems from her. the doctor told her that chemo woulent be worth it if this new medicine wasnt available. but this new dope and the chemo she has a pretty good chance.. at leaset 50/50. my wife's grandmother passed this morning. she would have been 91 in two weeks. hope that your mom is OK. and you as well. i want to be the 1st happy mothers day!

JekyllAndHyde

JekyllAndHyde

Nottingham, MD
April 2005

MAY 07, 2008 10:57 PM

Guys have the added effect of being able to be kicked in the balls when they're down. It's happened to me once or twice....

~Yeah, beauty factors into it. I have a wide description of beauty myself, but I won't lie and say it's not a consideration.
~Hmm... don't think I've ever left a wallet at home. I've had a credit card declined before, but never left the wallet entirely. I think I would leave my cell phone or something with them and tell them I'll be back with my wallet. Unfortunately, my cell phone is pretty much the only thing I could give them as leverage that would mean anything, seeing as how my watch is cheap and everything else would be in the wallet.
~Honestly... people haven't played many jokes on me. The worst thing I did was shoot a guy with a plastic pellet gun after he had shot me in the ass with it. I waited at the foot of the stairs as he descended and then nailed him in the cheek... only it hit him a little higher than I intended, just barely missing his eye. I thanked God for days afterward that I didn't shoot his eye out.
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